 
08th June 2006
Most people might have realised tat i like to back date my diary..i make it a point to write down big things that happened to me...then my blog would be a complete life story of my own..then i can read them to my children, grandchildren and alot more people...everyone of us has a unique lifestory...each of us can come up with a storybook of our own..our own story..i was reading a book called " Tuesdays with Morrie" ..it talks about a student who heard of his dying professor and decides to pay him a visit...during many of the visits, they would meet up on Tuesdays...This book is very touching and interesting..as in it teaches you positive things...like i used to have aging phobia...i am scared of getting old...oh come on, who doesnt anyway?? I told myself and alot of my frens tat i am going to die at the age of 40 becoz i cant stand myself looking old and withered...come to think of it...after reading the book, Tuesday with Morrie and they talked about aging..
Are you afraid of aging?? but y should u be afraid of it? Aging is not just about looks..itz about growth...u learn as u grow..u gain experiences..like Morrie says, y would he be envious of young people when he has already been there himself? A young person has limited knowledge and experience of the world...being pushed by so many environmental factors like juz daily survival is enuff to disillusion the meaning of life..but an old man...he grow wiser, he gained experience and he has been through all the ages..he is 22,35,49 and at least 70 for a normal human lifespan now...i tot it was very silly to juz die away at the age of 40...how immature i was to forsake and give up life juz like tat...now i have Mark..i wan to stay alive as long as i can so that i can be with him till old age...Many a time, i envied old couples...when they can still hold hands and walk in the park..talking about their past...their stories...young couples dun do tat coz we are all too busy with work and neglected love and happiness where money cant buy them...tat comes from a dying old man...read the book..itz highly recommended...one of my fav quotes from Morrie : " Learn to die and you will learn to live."
Ok enuff of Aging...tat still sounds a bit scary...haha I was talking to Mark over the phone..talking about my credit card bill..itz horrendous this month..hmm...i am having a bit of problems to pay up and so looking for money now...i muz learn a painful lesson then i will be good..if not, i will juz spend atrociously..i have been spending money wilfully..i sort of regret it..now muz learn how to save so that i have spare cash for rainy days..i have been working for close to a year..but sad to say, i did not save a single cent...where did all my money go?? i dunno...juz been spending recklessly..so now i am determined to set myself budgets and learn how to manage my finance better...itz horrible without money...mark wanted to know where i spend my money..hmm..i am Leo, i wan my pride...when i am rich...i dun mind flaunting..but when i am poor, i am quiet and homely...haha ok i noe he cares for mi and wan mi to learn to manage my finance..i am learning and itz still not too late ba..haha so he wanted to give mi money to help mi clear my bill...but i dun feel good taking his money juz like tat...maybe itz becoz of my parents...i seen my mum taking money from my dad and he will not be really happy to give it...hmm..i sort of tell myself tat i wun take money from my bfs coz i dun wan them to tink that they can control mi...something like i will become a 2nd class citizen...aiyah all in all i am a egoistc gal...haha second thing, i tink monetary problems can be solved..monetary problems arent really problems unless u got millions in debts...i tink...so i tink i can solve it myself..i was the one who created the stupid mess anyway...haiz...so i din wan Mark to help mi..if i get money too easily, i oso wun learn..but he sounded quite upset when i kip refusing his help...after the credit topic, we changed to the topic of saving...so i told him saving is impt and asked mi y...so i say saving for rainy day and for wedding oso loh...so i told him that a lot of fortune tellers say i cannot get married early at least by 27..coz if not, i will end up divorce...some truth in it...coz until before mark, i nv had a stable relationship..if i had juz married anyone of them,i would have been divorced..anyway, he was juz surprised y i trusted the fortune tellers so much...not say believed them...coz i always believed like 70% of ur destiny lies in ur hands and 30% lies in the hands of the Almighty....anyway, i told him getting married at 27 is good..coz i will be 27 in 3 years time...it will Year 2009..9th Sept 2009!! good date right...hahaha tat day confirmed many people wil get married loh..haha haiz...later we hanged up the call..then i msg and ask if he was angry with mi...so he told mi tat he was surprised that i trusted the fortune teller..hmm..so i said i was juz kidding..and seriously i am not really serious..i mean if the time comes and i feel the time is right...it doesnt matter..date is meaningless if his love is not true and forever..so he msg mi and say : he was upset last nite because i made him feel distant by refusing his help...and he say he wanna marry mi asap instead of waiting for a nice date...hee...
I am a simple person,fun loving and hope to live happily everyday and every single moment... 
I Like Freedom... 
I Hate Hypocrites!! Stay Away from me!!
I always believed that we live our lives to fulfill our dreams and to seek the person we love most on earth and be together forever..
just like Altair and Vega..
I seek for true love on earth but kind of disappointed with this journey as true love seems non-existent... 
Everyone of us should live with Dreams..
Itz our Dreams that make us different from all Other Living Creatures..
Itz Our Dreams that Make Our Lives Meaningful and fulfuilled...
Start Your Imagination Wild now..Because Dreaming is Free!
Dare to Dream, Dare To Fail..
Live Your Life The Way You Want It Because It is Your Life ..
We Live Once so Live it To The Max! 
.:. My Likes .:.
I Like My Life...
I Like The Seas and Oceans...
I Like BMWs and AirBus 380...
Most Importantly, I Love My family and my close friends who have supported me always ..Never giving me up and be my listeners..
.:. My Hates .:. 
I Hate Lecherous Guys!! Be Sorry if you are disrespectful to Gals in front of Me!!
I Hate Brinjals and Cabbages!!
I Hate Flying Cockroaches!! 
I Hate Myself Without Dreams and Be Negative!! 
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