I am super stressed out by my full time job...today is a saturday and my boss kip bombing my hp from morning till nite...arghz...supposed to go back to office today to compile some data..Y i need to compile data on a sat?? The story goes like this: On friday, while toking to my production controller on some production issues..suddenly two capt from RSAF came to the office looking for my senior engineer...and my senior engineer was on leave..he arranged for a teleconference and he went on leave!!! wat the hell?? throwing everything to mi and expect mi to do the teleconversation without any idea of watz going on?? he nv even consulted my boss whether is his room available for teleconference...everybody was damn pissed off with him...so the capts say nvm, we will do it without him..but damn super unlucky...our internal lines was cut off and i wasnt aware that we can still call to external and i told them that the telephone lines were down...can u imagine how angry u might be if u are the customer????there was a big hoo hah and everybody was on their toes...eventually the capts left unhappily and immediately an hour later, we got a complain email...haiz..i super stressed liaoz...then my boss immediately asked mi to the room and brief him abt the issue...haiz...i juz screwed up alot of things..stayed until 7pm in the office...the first time i stayed until so late...wah biangz..i was supposed to go back to office to compile...itz my fault lar...i stayed out with my business partners until very late at nite...we went to En Lounge for drinks then supper...reached home at 4 and slept at 5 coz i was doing my facial...
Next morning, i saw 3 missed calls and several msgs...i quickly rushed down to the office..finished up my work and went down to my business...my boss juz kip calling coz i was supposed to let him vet thru the report before sending it out to customer...so he say i am not following instructions..second time he called, he asked mi why is there no quantity and how do i noe if i have compiled the data accurately without quantity!! ok so i say i will include it on monday...but i dun understand coz each set of turbine disk should have the full 49 blades wat?? then he say tatz to ensure the batch no. is correct...third time he called he say i should contact the other engineer who is doing analysis and tat guy was on leave! he didnt pick up my call..and i tot he will call back..so my boss say no i shld feedback to him...he is getting on my nerves...subsequently he juz called each time he finds a mistake made or if i didnt follow instructions...i was so stressed up!!! the next thing that boils my blood was a buddy i treated so dearly says dun haf time to mit mi to listen to my biz...in the end, my other biz partner Gina managed to get him down..oh my god...i wasnt angry with Gina..juz tat i dun understand or perhaps mi and him wasnt juz as close as i tot we were supposed to be...i was pretty upset coz i guess i muz have been a very lousy fren to him loh..Irving was supposed to tok abt the biz and i cant force myself to stay becoz i am BLOWING UP!!! i felt so fustrated at my full time job...my boss called until my hp flat and finally when i cant answer his calls, i was relieved...i really dunno if i wan to stay as an engineer...perhaps i am not cut out for it....not a very detailed person...i dunno...i am so stressed! but i love wat i am doing for part time...my forte has always been communicating with pple..i love mixing around and knowing more frens...toking to pple...so i am more of a interactive person than a technical person...i knew tat long ago..juz wanna try out if i am really cut out to be an engineer..my full time job is taking a toll on mi...Dunno dunno...alot of uncertainty ...!!!
thinkin' of you at ... 5:31 PM
Long day at work today...so sianz..getting a bit sick of my daytime job..no freedom and alot of things to tolerate at work...i wish i am self-employed...haha can control my time and yet earn a good income..how to do tat?? if anybody got the means, let mi noe!!! anyway, i feel so much better at my part time..always feel at home and re-charged for the day at my part time job...really learning alot of things from there..
I bought $500+ of cosmetics product last nite...wow...i tell u itz really amazing for that sales person...haha les than an hour, mi and Ben's gf, Jocelyn bought $500+ each...U cant help it but juz wan to buy from her coz her skin is really good and u dun see her with make up...her skin is so supple and radiant that she doesnt need those.. I rather spend my money to buy natural beauty by taking care of my skin than spend money buy cosmetics, cover the ugliness and damage the skin further...haha i tink most gals will agree...if u wanna find out where i am getting my products, mit up with mi and i show u the change in skin and convince u that the products i am using really work wonders... =)
After buying my products, then waited for Ben and Irving to finish up their work and meetings. We went to Bencoolen for supper...Stayed there until very late coz Ben and Irving were discussing about work again...Irving is super workaholic...but he noes the biz works for him and he works hard as well.. Was telling us that he had an argument with his AIA boss..coz they were trying to kip him in the company but he dun feel the need to stay there anymore..There were alot of lady men at Bencoolen...all not bad looking somemore ..only after they started toking then u find it weird...hahaha
Later Irving say he send mi back...yeah...can take his BMW 325 CI...haha he did quite a bit of MODs on his car here and there...we left Bencoolen at 430am...mi reached home abt 5pm..so on the way home, he taught mi alot of things on the biz...it was very enriching...really...gain quite a bit from the ride home...he missed the turn to my hse again and we detour a bit before i really reached home...we smoked at my hse downstairs and so he continued a bit on the biz part...then we tok abt y he had an argument with his boss...quarelled for 5 hours manz...Irving can be quite long winded at times but i wish he would be even more long winded to mi..haha then can tok to him longer mar..anyway, i ask him his chinese name..He is called Ren(4) Bin(1)...nice name..Liu Ren Bin..hehe...so we chatted a while before he left home...reached home at 520am...coz he told mi he needs around 20mins to get home from my place..So sleepy and tired...took a day off from work tmr ...if not, i cant concentrate at all even if i work tmr..
thinkin' of you at ... 3:46 PM
Sunday...nice day to catch up on all my lost sleep..in the end, i really overslept and missed one tuition today...nvm ..i promised to make up to her on monday...i am getting sick and tired of tuitions..like i say, i nv did like tuitions ..juz do it mainly for the money sake..Should i work for money or should I understand how money works so that money works for mi instead?? given a choice, which would u like to choose?? of coz , everyone would be glad to choose the latter but how many are willing to put in the effort and time to understand how money works for u? the education system is made in such a way that everyone is moulded towards a certain goal in life...get a good degree so u can get a good job and leave the rest of ur life with more and more bills to pay and a miserable, never-growing paycheck...tatz quite sad isnt?? ever wonder how come millionaires around the world are all school drop outs?? becoz even though they are bad in studies , they are all risk takers and i guess that is how their fortune comes about..the courage to take risks...!!Even Lee KY oso encourage us to do that now!Anyway, everyone noes what they wan but only pple who puts in the effort reaps what they sowed..I tink God is fair ya?? =)
So supposed to be at a birthday dinner for my grandfather...but becoz of some selfish reasons ...i did not turn up for it..my mum and ah xi was so angry with mi...i felt so sad and guilty for it...i promised my mum to make up for my grandpa's bdae...I felt very bad but at that point of the time, i was in a dilemma...coz i was supposed to attend a outing with my new frens...Ben, Irving,James, Tennan, Bangwen, Xuanbin, Chee Hao, Eileen, Kuan and Jia wei...etc so many of us...there were around 22 of us at Marina Bay eating the steam boat buffet..itz more fun to be with frens around ur age...alot of things to share and itz really fun...enjoyed myself at the dinner...but pls dun get mi go another buffet dinner k..i dun eat alot loh..so not fair to me...the dinner was a treat from Irving and Ben...juz got our paycheck and so they got us a treat..yup so in the end, for my own sake, i did not attend my family dinner...i felt guilty but will make it up for it..haven been spending alot of time with my mum...so muz tok to her more often when i have the time..
so after the dinner, we were deciding where to go...at first we decided to go for pool at Irving's shop, Pool Fusion..we started splitting pple into cars...haiz...i was too impulsive!! i followed ben's car straightaway..wasted...coz nobody following Irving's car loh..in the end, gim yong took his car...arghz...feel like strangling him then..haha but anyway, better be a bit more low profile with Irving..he seems to notice i tink...then later they decide to change to ktv...more bonding there mar..haha so we went to Tanjong Pagar Party world..tat room was super big..nv see such a big ktv room before unless u are in a group of at least 20...haha anyway, Irving sang Jay Chow's: An Jing..he sang well and quite surprised that he can read the chinese characters ..his chinese very bad one..then the whole place was juz filled with pple moving around, toking to one another...as if we known each other for a very long time..but in actual fact, we did not...some maybe a few days or 1-2 months...tatz the power of fate i guess...without Ben, there wun be Weiming and Jiawei and I wouldnt have got to noe Irving...so itz this very mysterious power of destiny that brought pple together...so we should always treasure our frens and family around us...
So Eileen came over and sat with mi..then we played games with Irving and James..Irving is a very smart person...or should i say he is more street smart?? he could decipher alot of games that we were playing...like one example was, u have an empty beer mug, put a coaster on top of the beer mug, then put a cigarette vertically up on the coaster, finally put a coin on top of the cigarette...so now how do u get the coin into the empty beer mug without touching anything?? Irving was smart..he guessed the answer and got the coin in!! There was one trick which he showed mi and Eileen..he say he can make Yusoff Ishak, the face on the $50 note smile and cry..which was amazing lor..haha ok fold the face into half, with the face facing outwards, bent at certain angles and u will see the diff..then we oso play games with beer and our unlimited supply of Jasmine honey...oh my god!! everybody will remember this drink manz...drink until wanna puke liaoz..haha
So we ended our sunday nite at 230am...Irving went back to office to do some work with Steve..then the rest all went home..I took Tennan's car...so nice of him to send mi home..haha nice day with my new frens...life starts to get a bit more fulfilling and satisfying now!! =)
thinkin' of you at ... 11:10 AM
Wow...these few days have been cold yeah..hehe i was almost too comfortable to get out of bed...haiz ...wat to do?? got to work leh....so sad....how i wish i can wake up one day and not going to work...kind of miss shopping, high tea, movies and ktv with my buddies...hey buddies, look out for mi..when i am less busy with my work, get ready to have fun with mi when i call or msg u..haha
Got nothing much to write today...just some tots i wanted to put it down..i tink Irving is avoiding mi...dunno if i am too sensitive..it goes like this: ok i do msg him now and then but becoz i noe he is busy at work and mi too..so i only send 1 or 2 msg before i see him at nite...sometimes he reply sometimes he doesnt..but usu he reply becoz of business...bo liao msg he seldom reply lar...so i guess tatz kind of obvious tat he didnt wan to tok anything other than business...hmm....a bit sad esp i saw him last nite...he was conducting lesson so i went in and listen to his talk...i stood as long as he stood coz no chairs around and i oso din planned to sit down anyway...after the talk, my new fren, Xuan bin was discussing something and we walked towards him...however, i feel tat he kind of ignored mi...like when we walked towards him, his eyes deliberately by pass mi to look at two pple on my sides...ermm..i tink tatz wat i do when i wan to avoid someone eye contact...so i got it and left after i found Jia wei and Eileen..anyway , i guess i idolise him more than i like him...haha juz a bit different...itz interesting to noe more pple...coz everybody is so unique...having their own talents, character and personality...tatz simply amazing with the things u find out in human relationships....no books or school can teach u tat...but i am always a more interactive person so i love talking to pple and finding out more abt individuals...u got more than wat u tink u got...!!
I think : Life is the best teacher...
Irving quoted this during his speech at the award day: No man is an island..
thinkin' of you at ... 4:50 PM
Saturday ...hmm.. wat to do on a Saturday morning?? Usually i would be up in the morning giving tuitions...but i nv like tuitions...i gif it becoz i wan to earn more money and yah i dod enjoy the company of some of my kids...really nice kids i have..at times, u do like it coz u can teach ur students and it gives you satisfaction when they are doing very well..but at times i simply hate it...the 2 hours sometimes feels like years...terrible...dunno y oso...pple say tuition is easy money ...true but u noe how fustrating it is when ur students dun work hard and the parents tink tat we are magicians good enuff to change their grades using 2 hrs or even 2 weeks to catch up a 2 yr course work??? dunno wat to say...anyway after this batch of kids...i dun tink i would be back to gif tuitions...got more things in my life to look out for...
So today cancelled all my tuitions..i went to DBS early in the morning to clear my credit card bills..then went to paya lebar ubi ave 3 TP dept to replace my driving licence...i finally got time to do it!! then went down to parkway parade to clear my AIBI installments and collect my Crabtree and Evelyn gift for approval of my Lady's card...yeah...do so many things in the morning...feels great...like a big stone off my mind...ok so i sat at Starbucks alone drinking my fav Iced Cafe Latte with hazelnut syrup...yummy..sat there alone...tink thru my business, my life, my goals and alot of things...until i forgot the time and cancelled my tuitions..so i called Ginny up and she juz woke up...i was going for my last tuition but she say wanna mit up...so i cancelled it again...anyway i didnt feel like giving tuition today..so we met at Bedok Mac and sat there to chat until a very long time...our topic always revolved abt her relationship...one which i tried very hard to get her out of it...
God of marriage ties two lovers together by a red thread on their pinkie fingers...but wat i see from this couple...guess where is the red thread?? i see it on the neck...they tugging and tying down each other juz to see who will suffocate and die first...watz the point?? anyway, i am tired of saying so much to her...but i seriously tink tat spending 24 hrs with the bf doesnt make one's life value-added...there is so much things out there waiting to be explored...for mi, i cant bear to gif up the freedom i am enjoying now...even if i haf a bf, i hope he will be understanding and will not hinder my way of life...if not, i rather gif up a relationship where i cant get understanding from the other party...may be selfish i tink but then from my past relationships and friends arnd mi, i tink single might be better for now...at least we are in the prime time of our youth...we can dare to try and not be afraid of failures...but can we afford to try and risk when u reached 30 or 35 yrs old?? u would be too comfortable in ur comfort zone and too coward to face adversities...
Mit Aik boon, my best brother at somerset for dinner at NYDC..after tat was supposed to go double O with june but tat gal cant find her IC when she was about to come out of her house..the queue was super long oso...eventually we juz went to a nearby pub and chilled out...went home after the meeting...and finally she found her IC at home...haiz..
16th Oct 2005
Today is Ben's Bdae...one of my ex bf...wish him Happy Bdae here...i forgot to msg him but anyway, i hope all his wishes come true on this special day for him...so today i slept until 3 plus...oops...missed 2 tuitions at one go...wake up then watch Full House...so romantic...haha Rain has got a damn good figure...he very cute loh...haha
After tat, i went out to meet Ben, and jia wei and gim yong at Lao Pa Sat..supposed to mit for a an award day event at DBS auditorium...so we walked over and found the place...when we reached there, it was quite full of pple...saw Irving...he was with a pink tie and a suit ...looks damn cool lor...haha anything looks good on a cute guy lar..haha anyway he gave a lengthy but inspiring speech at the award day...a natural speaker...he speaks without preparing his speech at all...tat was awesome...so after the ceremony, we had some phototaking ceremony...and i was so glad that i took a pic with him...will post it as soon as Jia wei forward the pic to mi...haha tatz all for the weekend!!
thinkin' of you at ... 11:13 AM
hmm...my Prince Charming seems to be appearing very soon...hee..
A short recap of what happened...Met Irving last nite and he was telling mi he was going to change his car..he was driving Integra Type R now...but going to change to a BMW coupe after today...so sad coz i love Integra alot..his one is white colour ..juz like wat i had in mind if i wan to buy this car...so nice to be able to buy car...i hope i can afford for one soon...the question is how? i got my answer and i seeing my dream coming true and realistic every moment.. We chatted alot...like what he did in Ngee Ann Poly - Computer Engrg..i tot he might have known Terrence ( Ngee Ann- Mech Engrg) ..then told mi he was a National Pool player...wow...impressive..got 3 personal cues...i oso planning to get one but nowadays so busy ...no time for billiards at all...sad...i dun like my life like tat as i dun have control over my time...hopefully i can overcome this stage very soon and enjoy life like Irving does it...he is only 25 but yet not far away from financial freedom...if u guys got time, do read up on Robert T Kiyosaki : Rich Dad, Poor Dad and Cashflow quad...maybe u will see enlightenment in the quad that u wish to be in and u are in presently!he likes cars and his fav car plate number is 1668 ..he missed the bidding today and hoping to get it at the next bidding..haha maybe wanna make a guess y? something to do with dialect pronounciation of the numbers..
So after work, I went with Ben, James ,Tennan and a few other pple to Mr Bean for supper...i took Irving's car...since itz the last day he will be driving this car...can see that he really likes this car alot...dun really bear to sell it but he dun feel the need to drive such a fierce car anymore since he is in the office most of the time...during our supper at Mr Bean, they ordered 2 pizzas...i ordered a mango ice tea...nice...stayed out until arnd 4...very tired but itz very fulfilling to listen to this group of pple toking...really learning more and more things now...respect this bunch of pple more than any professors or doctors...sometimes i wonder if we should change our education system..not to teach our kids to come out as college grads and earn a fixed pay check...living paycheck to paycheck and debts and more bills to pay...tink abt it..is tat what u wan in ur life? tink abt in the next 5 or 10 yrs time, wat is ur current job going to gif u? tink abt ur goals in life...when u have ur goals defined, i may be able to help u achieve it.. =)
During the conversations, they suddenly tok abt Irving's gf ...but someone interrupted and say a latest news: No gf now...hehe he is single now lehz...but he is definitely a very eligible bachelor...he has everything a man would wan to have in his life i guess...coz if i am a man, i would wan to be as successful as him...very smart man as he tot of attaining financial freedom is more impt than anything else right now...prioritise the important things in life ..young but hardworking...now studying part time for a degree...i tink itz impt for a guy to noe how to earn ur money..not how much money ur parents have or ur family has it..nv tink much of those rich kids coz i feel that they dun understand the imptance of money and all they do is spend their parents' hard earned money...but Irving changed my perception...he is just so different...itz nice to have met such a fren...sharing with u his tots and experience..
So he sent mi home after supper...really nice to tok to him...after so many comparisons, he would be the number 1 bachelor in my group of friends currently..haha my new IDOL :p
thinkin' of you at ... 11:02 AM
Haven been updating my blogs for super long time liaoz...hehe now at least i got a bit of time to relax...been very busy with work...everyday close to 19hours of work for the past 2 weeks...oh my god...anyway got investigation to be carried out...quite fulfilling coz i am learning how to pick up evidence, piece them up and try to establish the cause of failure...behave exactly like a detective when the engine fails and behaves like a doctor when the engine comes in for repair..basically , i treat my engine like a human...hahaha understand its characteristic and itz not difficult to understand y it behaves in a particular manner...interesting...but kind of dislike my job in another sense...it gives mi the satisfaction but does not gif mi financial freedom..i dun earn what my company pays mi for the company...but how much am i exactly worth? i dunno..and how much do i tink is enuff ? i dunno...but if there is greener pastures out there, i will venture coz i am still young...work hard and attain the financial freedom asap... =) Love not tat impt to mi now ...i am happier when i am single i tink...at least i have a lot of freedom and time to achieve the things i want... =)
my goal now...earn my first million before 30...a wonderful dream but i will nv attain it if i juz be an engineer...alot of things happen and made mi realize that life is more meaningful than ever...comparing to frens who spend their time with their bfs...i find that i live my life more meaningfully than them...not bugged by the uncertainty in relationships..not bugged by problems that i would faced if i have a bf now...i certainly enjoyed my singlehood right now for sure.. haha
Anyway, made a new fren last week... He is called Irving..promising young man of 25, hardworking, mature, has foresight and most imptly he dreams and realised his dreamz! He got very nice lips...very prominent coz itz usually moist and pinkish...u dun see him with cracked or dry lips at anytime of the day..haha some of frens seen him and they were like *drop jaw* ..He used to Mr Ngee Ann Poly..a very charismatic man...juz noe him on the surface..will tok more abt him when i noe him better..i wonder if he uses lip balm...haha
TGIF...today i met up with a fren...he doesnt allow mi to disclose his name coz he say very paiseh..hahaha anyway, shall call him by his initial BW....he is my project mate when we were having a design module when i was in Yr 3..a very nice and chatty guy...hardworking and smart...only today i realise that he nv like studying..haha we met up for dinner at somerset...went to NYDC for dinner and had a Tiramisu Mudpie for desert....YUMMY! tink i gonna grow fat with the weight program that i am undertaking now..tmr muz cut down on my food intake...haha then later he sent mi home coz i was very tired after so many hours of working...we had a super long chat ..funny thing is that although we dun haf common frens yet we still can chat alot..haha tatz mi...i can tok to anyone as long as they are humans :p sianz..so now i am here typing my blogs after i taken my bath...hehe
thinkin' of you at ... 11:40 PM
I am a simple person,fun loving and hope to live happily everyday and every single moment...
I Like Freedom...
I Hate Hypocrites!! Stay Away from me!!
I always believed that we live our lives to fulfill our dreams and to seek the person we love most on earth and be together forever..
just like Altair and Vega..
I seek for true love on earth but kind of disappointed with this journey as true love seems non-existent...
Everyone of us should live with Dreams..
Itz our Dreams that make us different from all Other Living Creatures..
Itz Our Dreams that Make Our Lives Meaningful and fulfuilled...
Start Your Imagination Wild now..Because Dreaming is Free!
Dare to Dream, Dare To Fail..
Live Your Life The Way You Want It Because It is Your Life ..
We Live Once so Live it To The Max!
.:. My Likes .:.
I Like My Life...
I Like The Seas and Oceans...
I Like BMWs and AirBus 380...
Most Importantly, I Love My family and my close friends who have supported me always ..Never giving me up and be my listeners..
.:. My Hates .:.
I Hate Lecherous Guys!! Be Sorry if you are disrespectful to Gals in front of Me!!
I Hate Brinjals and Cabbages!!
I Hate Flying Cockroaches!!
I Hate Myself Without Dreams and Be Negative!!
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