 
03rd June 2006
Today Marcus, my sis bf brought all of us out for lunch to advance celecbrate my mum's bdae ..so we went to Dragon Gate Restaurant at Harbour Front...itz a buffet of close to 50 chinese dishes for only $30 per head..haiz...a bit waste for mi coz i dun really eat much...i am on serious diet..haha anyway, we had a big feast consisting of a bowl of shark fins, then a few dishes of prawns, crabs and crayfish..yummy...my fav cereal prawns..the prawns arent that big..crabs also not very delicious...but buffet so cant expect too much..had 2 big fishes and soft shell crabs..tatz really nice!! Duck and chicken abit...but Ah xi finished one big plate of crayfish all by herself!! so unfair..she eats so much more than mi but she will nv grow fat...how i wish i can be thin like my sis Ah xi...haha
Then we drove my mum to Ikea and bought 2 planks and stands for my room..wanna put my perfumes up for display!! then we went home and i had a terrible headache...dunno y but juz headaches coming more and more frequently.. i took 2 panadols and went to buy calling card so that i can call Mark tonite...i called Derrick on my way..coz June told mi he was angry with mi for neglecting him after i had a bf...i find it ridiculous...i mean we have been frens for 5 years..we nv really kip in contact for 3 years and only recently, we got back into contact...sort of like meeting up more often..he said i forget frens becoz i have bf..oh my god..is it my fault for not calling my frens? they dun come and look for mi when i was single and even when i am single, i oso seldom look for them..so watz the big deal now that i haf a bf and i dun go find them?? besides , Mark only stayed in S'pore for 1 month and flying Australia for 3 months..i dun tink there is anything wrong with mi kiping my bf company...not saying that i am very right to neglect my frens but back to the point that we dun contact one and another be it i am single or not...sort of like accusing mi of 'want bf dun want fren' ..i used to be like tat...i admit it but even June and Ginny noes that i have changed...i learnt my lessons that even when i am attached, i shouldnt be neglecting my frens...esp close ones like june, kailing and ginny...they are the ones who stood by mi when i am down and out..so i promised myself i will nv neglect my frens even if i am attached..
Boon was another one...when i called him, he sarcastically said that he has deleted my number...wa liaoz...funny guys lehz...i mean u all dun come and find mi when i am single oso wat..ok for boon, i am really apoplogetic...he has been in Air Force school for course the few days..promised to mit him for lunch but i last min turn him down twice...ok first time i was sick and i oreadi took mc from work..so i cant mit him...then 2nd time, our lunch timing cant match...he ridiculously wan mi to change my lunch time to accomodate him..wa liaoz...tatz unreasonable right..i dun own the company and the company have rules to follow wat...nvm...then i tell him mit on thursday for dinner..but Ginny was injured and i got to see her...when i tell him tat, he come tell mi tat i am giving excuses...wa liaoz..if i dun wan to mit, i got so much time to go and draft up a lie or excuse? tatz plain silly right...may as well i juz reject him the first time...Stop accusing mi of tat! i cant stand it loh...everybody is busy and if we cant mit up this time ,there will also be other times....This is irritating..
I called Mark last nite..we chatted for an hour..chat about my work..i am not happy there...haiz..i love the job but i dun like the pay...itz too low...or maybe becoz i dunno how to manage my finance...tatz y i kip finding myelf trapped in a rat race...itz tiring...arghz...fustration!! anyway..itz really nice to tok to him...he has this ability to calm mi down...juz by his voice..even not seeing him...i can still feel his presence.his way of calming and soothing my fustrations...didnt wan to tell him about my frens..but i wan someone to listen...haiz...y are all my frens so weird??? esp Derrick...i dunno y the hell he is angry...he didnt contact mi when he has a gf and i only occasionally tell June abt it...wa liaoz..but i wasnt angry at all coz i understand tat most of us wanna spend time with ur loved ones...i am ok...but y cant i be doing the same?? be more fair can???
I miss Mark...really miss him alot...he is only in Australia less than a week...but i am missing him so much...at least he will be the one to listen to mi and calm mi down..i guess all the while, i have been looking for him and i am glad he has appeared at this point in my life...I hope everyone will find their Mr/Ms Right soon...and basking urself in love...to enjoy the company and understanding shown to each other...
I am a simple person,fun loving and hope to live happily everyday and every single moment... 
I Like Freedom... 
I Hate Hypocrites!! Stay Away from me!!
I always believed that we live our lives to fulfill our dreams and to seek the person we love most on earth and be together forever..
just like Altair and Vega..
I seek for true love on earth but kind of disappointed with this journey as true love seems non-existent... 
Everyone of us should live with Dreams..
Itz our Dreams that make us different from all Other Living Creatures..
Itz Our Dreams that Make Our Lives Meaningful and fulfuilled...
Start Your Imagination Wild now..Because Dreaming is Free!
Dare to Dream, Dare To Fail..
Live Your Life The Way You Want It Because It is Your Life ..
We Live Once so Live it To The Max! 
.:. My Likes .:.
I Like My Life...
I Like The Seas and Oceans...
I Like BMWs and AirBus 380...
Most Importantly, I Love My family and my close friends who have supported me always ..Never giving me up and be my listeners..
.:. My Hates .:. 
I Hate Lecherous Guys!! Be Sorry if you are disrespectful to Gals in front of Me!!
I Hate Brinjals and Cabbages!!
I Hate Flying Cockroaches!! 
I Hate Myself Without Dreams and Be Negative!! 
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