 
08th Feb 2006
Yesterday was my first day giving CTT to my technicians..Besides my own team of technicians, my Program Mgr oso invited other engine line technicians to learn from my training course...but of the same family of engines, the Turboshaft ( Heli) Group..The day before this CTT, we had a long meeting at MINDEF HQ and woah...u really see politics in action..kinda scary i tink..anyway, back to my CTT..I prepared the slides the way i did when i presented to my customers..When i walked into the training room, it was scary!! so many pple...i would say there are at least more than 10 guys in the room and all older and experienced than me...kind of intimidating to tok to so many pple..becoz i cant overcome my psychological barrier of speakign in the public..i guess i was sort of being 'looked down' by my Program Mgr..Orh..i hate that.. i wonder why am i able to present so fluently in my business but not at my engineering field..I guess i could be more competent and passionate when u are presenting something that u really understand...i really understand my work before i went in to the training room but somehow, the crowd gives mi alot of pressure..
As all my frens noe mi, i tok very fast when i am excited or nervous...normally, my speed is like an mrt train..but when i am nervous, i go like Japan's bullet train...so fast that u cant really catch wat i am saying and for myself, i didnt even remember what i said..Itz just too mental blocking for mi...arghz...i skipped from slide to slide and not very sure if my technicians got my msg..but they tried not to embarass mi by saying they understand and no questions for mi..but however, my Program Mgr wasnt happy and he made mi go back to my first slide and repeated my slides in his own explanation once again..initially, i din feel anything coz i really think i did a lousy job..but when i told Sze hao (usu i complaint to him..haha) he say he was being mean coz he made mi 'lose face' ..he shouldnt have done tat ..he could have corrected my mistake when i am alone with him.. Moreover it is my first time giving presentations...I told Weiming and he agree too...Weiming is a full time teacher...so he taught mi how to present so that pple can understand..go 3 to 4 times slower...pause after 4-5 slides...recap the first few slides and gif time for ur audience to understand...that is alot to learn..my god...So i said my CTT is a diasaster... =(
I am a simple person,fun loving and hope to live happily everyday and every single moment... 
I Like Freedom... 
I Hate Hypocrites!! Stay Away from me!!
I always believed that we live our lives to fulfill our dreams and to seek the person we love most on earth and be together forever..
just like Altair and Vega..
I seek for true love on earth but kind of disappointed with this journey as true love seems non-existent... 
Everyone of us should live with Dreams..
Itz our Dreams that make us different from all Other Living Creatures..
Itz Our Dreams that Make Our Lives Meaningful and fulfuilled...
Start Your Imagination Wild now..Because Dreaming is Free!
Dare to Dream, Dare To Fail..
Live Your Life The Way You Want It Because It is Your Life ..
We Live Once so Live it To The Max! 
.:. My Likes .:.
I Like My Life...
I Like The Seas and Oceans...
I Like BMWs and AirBus 380...
Most Importantly, I Love My family and my close friends who have supported me always ..Never giving me up and be my listeners..
.:. My Hates .:. 
I Hate Lecherous Guys!! Be Sorry if you are disrespectful to Gals in front of Me!!
I Hate Brinjals and Cabbages!!
I Hate Flying Cockroaches!! 
I Hate Myself Without Dreams and Be Negative!! 
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