 
I tink there is seriously something very wrong with the way i approach the guys i like..maybe i hang arnd too much with guys and i tink i get too aggressive over the guy i like..it kinds of scare myself...not to say how much i could traumatize the guy i like...help!! 
i like this guy now....Call him 'E' then...E has a gf and he was honest abt it..he told mi abt it..intially when we were frens, i tot we could juz be good frens..he is nice and well mannered..good tempered and all requirements i am looking for in a 'perfect' bf for mi..except he is not a pilot lar..haha..anyway, we started going out like normal frens..and i guess i fell in love with him unknowingly and realise it only yesterday...pple say u fall in love easily, u fall out of love easily...i beg to differ..i like a person easily i admit...unless the guy treats mi ver badly or betrays my trust..i would stay long with this person i like...no matter how serious i am or how much effort i put in, my feelings was nv reciprocated..it happen many times...until to the extent that i am afraid of knowing new guys and the whole exact sequence of going out with them, falling in love, become pushy when i ask them questions and eventually fall out...not even frens in the end...it happen many times..tell myself tat i cant be so unreasonable but i juz cant control myself ..i wan definite answer about how the person feel abt mi...but i nv nv nv hear a 100% I love u from any of the guys i like...itz kind of sad...usually itz becoz they treat mi badly and i got to get over them somehow..once i get over it, i nv look back..
Was at one of my fav spots for chill out with E and 2 of my other frens, June and her bf...so E gf called him and he walked off to ans the call...when he was back, June'bf kip asking who call...usu he wun say but tat day, he address her as his 'wife' ..oh tat hurts...but tat wasnt the main part...June started asking him qns like how many gf he has before..he say serious or not serious..not serious got a few and serious only got one...obviously tatz his gf..this one not big prob..then they started toking abt colleagues and E wan to intro mi some of his guy frens...i dun nid tat...i was completely turned off...didnt tok much tat nite and i snapped at whoever spoke to mi...unfair to take it out on others but i am juz like tat...straightforward and dun botherto hide..this is bad coz pple can manipulate u easily..i am trying hard not to show my emotions tat easily..i am kiping alot of details here..juz for mi to noe..i was unreasonable and i noe..i tot i shouldnt be so fed up over the whole incident...
i ask him a question if he likes mi...he say he cant like mi even if he is/want coz he has a gf...
someone analyse this statement for mi pls..hard to analyse oso coz i kept alot of details...
my own interpretation is the same as June...we believed that he is saying tat to hint mi that we are impossible and eventually he still likes his gf ...but another part of mi ask him tat question that liking someone and having a gf is two different thing...u can haf a gf and like another person at the same time..alot of pple do tat, be it guys or gals and i feel tat nobody is satisfied with juz one...humans are greedy and selfish..i am not trying to break up them...but when i dun get a definite ans...i juz get very fed up..itz juz yes i like u..no i dun...i hate ambiguous answer like tat..maybe itz not ambiguous..perhaps i dun get the hidden meaning..anyway...we are ok now..but i guess he is scared of mi liaoz...probably traumatized...the next stage to this which i am expecting is no more frens...perhaps he wun do tat to mi like my previous bfs...coz he is very sociable and always try to make things end in a nice way...
Dunno lar..i hate this..can i juz mit the right one soon and end all these rubbish???i juz wan to be with the guy i like and stay with him always...y is it so hard to find a person to like mi sincerely and with all his heart!!!!! This is getting tiring..
I am a simple person,fun loving and hope to live happily everyday and every single moment... 
I Like Freedom... 
I Hate Hypocrites!! Stay Away from me!!
I always believed that we live our lives to fulfill our dreams and to seek the person we love most on earth and be together forever..
just like Altair and Vega..
I seek for true love on earth but kind of disappointed with this journey as true love seems non-existent... 
Everyone of us should live with Dreams..
Itz our Dreams that make us different from all Other Living Creatures..
Itz Our Dreams that Make Our Lives Meaningful and fulfuilled...
Start Your Imagination Wild now..Because Dreaming is Free!
Dare to Dream, Dare To Fail..
Live Your Life The Way You Want It Because It is Your Life ..
We Live Once so Live it To The Max! 
.:. My Likes .:.
I Like My Life...
I Like The Seas and Oceans...
I Like BMWs and AirBus 380...
Most Importantly, I Love My family and my close friends who have supported me always ..Never giving me up and be my listeners..
.:. My Hates .:. 
I Hate Lecherous Guys!! Be Sorry if you are disrespectful to Gals in front of Me!!
I Hate Brinjals and Cabbages!!
I Hate Flying Cockroaches!! 
I Hate Myself Without Dreams and Be Negative!! 
*May 2005
*June 2005
*July 2005