 
Haven been updating my blogs...many things happened to mi these few days..haiz..i finally realized how stupid and silly i was..i think i still dunno how to handle that fragile thing named 'Love'..i dunno what is love all abt...time for a good break..i have been too impatient abt finding my dream guy and ended up doing all the wrong things that i have been doing..only Ginny will understand and noe what i am toking abt..not feeling too good these few days..in fact, i am depressed...something bad happened and i nv expected it to happen to mi...i dun tink i can ever forget it...wanted to go for a break...a short trip to somewhere and maybe i will be back to the time when i am still schooling..where my concerns are only books,results, my family and friends...my present job doesnt allow mi to do tat and i dun have the time for it too...tatz quite sad becoz i cant do the things i want...is tat life is all abt??no freedom to do what i want??will find some time to do the getaway trip..want to be alone in a foreign place where nobody noes mi and i can relax and forget my heartaches at least for the time being...
4th Aug 2005
Thanks Sze hao for sending mi to East Coast park after work..he noes tat i was very upset and when i asked him if itz convenient to send mi to ECP..he send mi to my exact spot right away...thanks alot..i didnt wan to gif tuition or mit up with anybody ..juz wan to be alone at ECP...let the breeze clear my head and wash away my tears...a very sad thing happened to mi..like i mention i nv expected it to happen to mi at all..all i can say is,i was playing with fire and got myself badly burnt...really very sad...tried to call Terrence but he didnt ans..i knew he was on his way to fly so tatz y he didnt ans..got back to mi when he was back yesterday...thanks...i sat there alone, tinking thru things and cry my heart out...i like to cry..not becoz i am weak but crying makes mi feel comfortable and at least i dun haf to bottle up my feelings and one day,end up with an explosion!i sat there until 9plus and was ready to go home..took a bus out and was waiting for cab until my sis, Karen called mi and told mi tat my 4th sis ran away from home, my mum slammed the phone against her own head after a heated argument...i wanted to get home quick but not a single cab in sight...i was worried for my mum...she tends to get extreme at times and i was really worried..i called Karen and her bf wants to send mi home together with her..he speeded like nobody's business but really good driving skills he got i tink...then we got home and i ran up the stairs..luckily my mum wasnt bleeding..if not, i would kill my sis..always make my mum angry and worried abt her..i then noe wat was going on at home from ah Xi ...so i went all over my place to look for her but she couldnt be found...my dad was ready to wack her oreadi lor...so i went back home and fell asleep while i waited for her...early in the morning, she was home oreadi and ready to go to sch...she behaved as if nothing has happened..ask her anything, she didnt wan to say...so i oso cant be bothered anymore...tok to her on many occasions...motivated her to work hard today and next day, she is back to her lazy self again..
5th Aug 2005
My office problems first: Haiz...engineering dept and production dept works too differently...itz a challenge for mi to work like a troubleshooting engineer and at the same time, work like a production engineer...everything must be fast..tink fast, work fast and push out engine fast...stressed...TB(my mentor) says the crack form is not necessary if a crack is of a known cause so in the end, i went to the repair section and voided the form..the technician at NDT crushed and threw away the form until i saw Lau ( Workshop Engr) ...he asked mi where is my form and i say TB say no nid form so i voided it..he wanted the form back and asked mi to go look for it..he didnt sounded friendly at all...almost like ordering mi to go back to the rubbish bin and get it back...idiot..so i went back to NDT and they found it for mi..badly crushed!die liaoz..TB asked mi to re issue another form and this time to gif it to Lau and file...they so contradicting!! haiz...stucked in the middle like tat....arghz..anayway today was supposed to meet my FYP mates for dinner...our mthly outing...turnout was good...with Chris, Choonkit, Wei shing,Phyllis, Keat, Lionel, Stephen and Eugene...our grp getting kind of big now..haha it was fun..we went to Breeks at Taka to eat then went to Coffee Club to drink coffee...so nice....i always enjoy going out with them...they are very very nice guys to hang out with..so i took Wei Shing's car and drove Lionel home first...then I didnt wan to go home early so ask Wei Shing if he wanna see planes...went to Changi V that stretch of rd to see planes take off....only then i told Wei Shing wat had happened to mi .....i didnt wan to tell anybody including Ginny coz i find it very embarrassing to do so...it was almost a humiliation to mi...a drop in my pride and dignity for someone who wasnt even worth it...anyway, only him and Ginny knew wat happened...itz past and i haf no wish to record this in my diary at all...i juz wan to forget it and hopefully time can heal my wounds and sad memories...it will...i noe it will...i have been hurt too many times to know how well the magic of time works for mi...so we stayed until 1 plus and then went home..it was a lucky nite coz we get to see the SIAs taking off at the particular lane...one landing was done too....lucky Wei Shing..
I am a simple person,fun loving and hope to live happily everyday and every single moment... 
I Like Freedom... 
I Hate Hypocrites!! Stay Away from me!!
I always believed that we live our lives to fulfill our dreams and to seek the person we love most on earth and be together forever..
just like Altair and Vega..
I seek for true love on earth but kind of disappointed with this journey as true love seems non-existent... 
Everyone of us should live with Dreams..
Itz our Dreams that make us different from all Other Living Creatures..
Itz Our Dreams that Make Our Lives Meaningful and fulfuilled...
Start Your Imagination Wild now..Because Dreaming is Free!
Dare to Dream, Dare To Fail..
Live Your Life The Way You Want It Because It is Your Life ..
We Live Once so Live it To The Max! 
.:. My Likes .:.
I Like My Life...
I Like The Seas and Oceans...
I Like BMWs and AirBus 380...
Most Importantly, I Love My family and my close friends who have supported me always ..Never giving me up and be my listeners..
.:. My Hates .:. 
I Hate Lecherous Guys!! Be Sorry if you are disrespectful to Gals in front of Me!!
I Hate Brinjals and Cabbages!!
I Hate Flying Cockroaches!! 
I Hate Myself Without Dreams and Be Negative!! 
*May 2005
*June 2005
*July 2005