 
itz time to evaluate my relationship with Ced..or is there a need to evaluate in the first place..i dunno is it becoz of our age gap that we have different views abt how a relationship shld be maintained..if u like a person, i tink u would want to spend time with him/her no matter how busy u are..becoz u like her/him and u wan to see him/her, spend moments together..." live ur life each day as if it is the last" ...this statement spurs a person to work hard at his job as each of us nv noe if we wld still be arnd the next day..kind of pessimistic but isnt life juz as fragile and unpredictable? we shld grab our time and make best use of it...i consider myself to be a blessed person..i have a happy and complete family, no worries abt my food and shelter as my parents are always there to support, i am healthy with many good frens around mi, i am starting to build my career, i have everything i want except a stable relationship..i used to have a bf who loves mi and treat mi really nice..itz my loss for nt treasuring him and let him go...after tat, none of my relationships are stable..i really wan a person to love mi wholeheartedly..have a everlasting relationship, settle down and stay together always..maybe itz the people i met n fell in love with..without the wrong ones, u nv met the right one...i can be very tolerant with my bf..even if he has an affair outside, i can close one eye as long as he admits his mistake and promise nv a next time..tatz how tolerant i can be..doesnt seems to tally with my horoscope, Leo...a horoscope with great personality and pride..Ced claims tat he likes mi but he nv shows it..he can mit mi once every 2-3 weeks and only for one hr plus...i dun have a sense of security abt him and i am always wondering wat is he doing when i am nv arnd..we only tok on the phone and sometimes he MIA for days giving mi the excuse tat he is busy...i guess even LKY has time for his family..he forever dun haf time for mi...he rather stays at home and play games than mit mi..guess i am not a very nice person to be with..does he really stay at home in the first place? a relationship without trust is a goner..Sometimes, i wonder if he will ever realize i am gone the next day..does he even bother if i am missing?Probably he is not the person i am looking for..gives mi the feeling tat he doesnt really like mi ..wat i dun understand is if he doesnt like mi, then y dun be straightforward and tell mi..i prefer straightforward pple..like means like , dun like means dun like...a person shld be responsible for his own feelings and not treat others like toys...when i describe the situations to my close buddies, they analyse tat he doesnt like mi...i am like an on-call taxi, when he calls, i will be there...but if i find him, itz difficult....more difficult than climbing Mt Everest..is there a point to continue with the relationship...itz a question i always ask myself..my ultimatum for him is my bdae...if he can forget it, then i wun tink of him anymore...itz pointless..i am always unhappy on my bdaes since my 21st one..i hate festivals like X'mas and New Yr...i always make myself angry for all these worthless people..like pple always console the others, " u are not losing anything coz u juz lost a person who doesnt love u at all but the other person has lost a person who loves him/her deeply.." i cant believe what he says anymore..not even the things he promised..he is irresponsible, no time management and most of all, he treasures his own freedom too much...probably, tatz y he cant commit to a relationship even at his age...i dun demand him to mit mi everyday or call mi everyday to report what he is doing..basically, i juz feel tat he doesnt care..maybe i am just a little girl to him..i hate him..hate him to the core...i mess up my timetable to fit him, in the end, he will disappoint mi and make mi upset..i dun wan to make my life miserable for a person who doesnt care abt mi...maybe i shld take a break for relationships now...
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I am a simple person,fun loving and hope to live happily everyday and every single moment... 
I Like Freedom... 
I Hate Hypocrites!! Stay Away from me!!
I always believed that we live our lives to fulfill our dreams and to seek the person we love most on earth and be together forever..
just like Altair and Vega..
I seek for true love on earth but kind of disappointed with this journey as true love seems non-existent... 
Everyone of us should live with Dreams..
Itz our Dreams that make us different from all Other Living Creatures..
Itz Our Dreams that Make Our Lives Meaningful and fulfuilled...
Start Your Imagination Wild now..Because Dreaming is Free!
Dare to Dream, Dare To Fail..
Live Your Life The Way You Want It Because It is Your Life ..
We Live Once so Live it To The Max! 
.:. My Likes .:.
I Like My Life...
I Like The Seas and Oceans...
I Like BMWs and AirBus 380...
Most Importantly, I Love My family and my close friends who have supported me always ..Never giving me up and be my listeners..
.:. My Hates .:. 
I Hate Lecherous Guys!! Be Sorry if you are disrespectful to Gals in front of Me!!
I Hate Brinjals and Cabbages!!
I Hate Flying Cockroaches!! 
I Hate Myself Without Dreams and Be Negative!! 
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