Jacelyn

Life Message

2007-09-10T10:16:00.000+08:00

I thought this was really beautifully written.. Take some time to read and you will know how true it is... Just something to share..

A Wonderful Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend
more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses
and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more
degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts,
yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too
little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired,
read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk
too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years
to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and
back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We
conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but
not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the
atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan
more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We
build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies
than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days
of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one
night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from
cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom
window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring
this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this
insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember: Spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not
going to be around forever.

Remember: Say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe,
because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember: To give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is
the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a
cent.

Remember: To say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones,
but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it
comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person
will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak!
Give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the
moments that take our breath away.

George Carlin

Happy Weekend Summary!!

2007-09-10T10:14:00.000+08:00

07/09/07

Today, my dear dear flew back from Abu Dhabi after 2 days stay… Dear dear says the weather in Abu Dhabi is terrible because it is a scorching 44deg C if you walked out of the hotel.. Immediately when you leave the air con place, it feels like you are in a heat wave.. terrible weather… My dear dear also didn’t eat well because he is probably not used to the food there.. He vomitted after taking a packet of nasi bryani, probably due to indigestion. He was supposed to fly at 10pm and that is Singapore time 2 am. Prior to that, he was unable to sleep.. and he took the sector to fly back so that is a total of 20 odd hours without sleep!!

Anyway, I met dear dear downstairs at his house and we went back home together.. me on half day leave today.. and we unpacked his luggage and had lunch. I drank my meal supplement with mango juice and dear dear ate chicken feet noodle… I never used to like chicken feet but after dear dear taught me how to eat, I started enjoying this delicacy!! Must be braised then it taste nice. Haha

We watched TV for awhile and dear dear went to take a short nap. We were supposed to go back my house to drink soup and then meet Gek kia and Ian. However, I see dear dear so tired and I couldn’t wake him up so we decided to give my mum’s soup a miss. We went to Funan DigiMall to fix dear dear’s lap top. He bought a new laptop at the COMEX show at Suntec City. However, the shop was not opened and we took a cab to Clarke Quay where we are supposed to meet the guys. We saw Gek kia at Liang Court and walked with him to Clarke Quay and Ian was waiting at King Satay. We ordered a lot of food. Sambal KangKong, Sambal Stingray, 36 Assorted Satays, Fried Rice and Fried Chicken. The chickens are really crispy and nice. I had 3 pieces in all!! I also had a lime juice to help me digest all the oily stuff.. haha we chatted for a long while and Ting fang (Gek’s gf) called us to check out if we gonna have coffee. So we called for the bill before moving on for coffee. The waiter passed us a bill and we were shocked by the price. For all the things we ordered, it was only $67.00. How could it be? Later we checked the bill and found that the bill was $120.00. We were indeed very honest to ask them to give us another bill. Haha.. Because Gek says what comes around goes around.. You gain something and you lose something.. haha

We walked around at Clarke Quay and decided to settle at The Coffee Connoisseur. We have a big table with red sofa seats indoor. While waiting, Tingfang and her 2 other friends, Elaine and Xue Na appeared so we had coffee together. Xue Na is getting married on 26th November 2007. Chris is somewhere there too, 24th November 2007. Ian and I went out for a smoke.. so he asked me a question, “why did you choose him?” the first answer that came to my mind was because he is the only guy who is true and sincere about mi.. he really cares for mi and I know he is true to me only.. 2ndly, becoz I love him and I want to be with him… I mean I look at the number of pilot friends… most of them are quite badly reputated for.. with so much temptations, my dear dear has uphold good track records since then… he is someone trustworthy and I should trust him… Ian replied and said, those girls are not worth it.. materialistic and stupid… his ex gf was a stewardess.. my cousin has a stewardess gf before too.. she left him because she found someone richer.. haiz.. not too sure if they are really so materialistic… We chatted happily and soon it was time to go home. I think Clarke Quay is a nice place to hang out so I will come with my friends the next time!!!

08/09/07

Today is the cleaning day!! I spent the morning washing up the laundry and later helped dear dear cleaned his room and packed his stuff.. Luckily, he is smart enough to come in to offer some help! We cleared the junk mails, packed up the wires and did some minor packing for our new house, vacuum the floor and yes, it was all done up by 2pm in the afternoon.

We then spend the day at home, watching TV and we cooked noodles for lunch cum tea break. Haha it was nice… I always loved my dear dear’s cooking. Yummy.. so we decided to go Tampines Mall to shop for mooncakes coz dear dear says he wanna buy some for my mummy before we go for dinner at my place. Sweet little boy.. We shopped around until we saw Bengawan Solo.. They have got quite a variety of mooncakes.. So we bought one Double Yolk Baked skin, Iced skin (Durian), Baked Skin (Durian Filling) and Iced Skin (mango).. Sounds yummy right.. My mum was happy with the mooncakes though she thought it was a bit early for it.. Nevertheless, it is the thoughts that count..

We had dinner and I also start to pack for my junk mails… Too many of them lying in my bedroom on the study table!! Cant stand it.. I took like 45mins to finish packing.. dear dear was so tired after waiting. Then we went back home to rest and relax.. What a Saturday!

09/09/07

Today is Sunday.. My sister ,Karen was saying last night that she might want to go Batam at 8am.. Ridiculous..she doesn’t wake up that early even if her class starts at 8am.. so we thought she is talking rubbish again this time. True enough, our handphones did not ring at 8am.. we slept till 10 plus and woke up. I kept and folded the clothes and keep them in the wardrobe. Dear dear says we can go Vivo City to walk walk. Before that, we went to Golden Landmark to do dear dear’s uniform but the shop was closed. So we decided to go to Bugis to eat Wan Tun Noodle for lunch. We ordered 2 small noodles and a bowl of fried wan tun. The food was delicious but the man had a terrible service attitude and he kept asking dear dear about the Euro Cup score. Disgusting man! After lunch, then we went to Funan Digimall again and it was CLOSED again!! Stupid shop. It is called Memory World.. I wonder how it can survive by closing most of the time. It will end up in Memory lane soon if they don’t buck up! So dear dear carried the heavy laptop and we took 145 to Harbor Front. Vivocity was there!! On the bus, I asked dear dear if he remembers what he says to me when he proposed. So he say, 1) I love you… 2) will you marry me.. and he cant remember the last one.. haha anyway he said I am always no. 1.. when he took out the ring, he says this one is abit small but he promised to get me a bigger one when he got more money… I asked him if he remembers and he say he does.. he will get mi one either before the photoshoot or before the wedding day.. hee.. I am so happy… sometimes, you just cant help but think that the proposal ring is actually very important to a girl because it represents how much sincerity the guy has.. I talked about this with dear dear before but he disagrees.. what is the point of a man giving you a big ring but is fooling around… then I say I am luckier becoz I got a man who dotes on me and yet don’t fool around… hee.. anyway, he promised that he will get mi a bigger one… hee

We walked around the 1st Floor and then went on to the next floor. Vivocity is really big.. There are so many foreign brands. Dear dear says this one looks like the mall they have overseas in big towns. Then we went up to the 3rd floor for a smoke. You can oversee Sentosa from that place. It is nice.. I wanna take a cable car ride to Mount Faber then eat dinner there but dear dear says no… so in the end, he asked if I want to eat Hogsbreath.. I thought it was a great idea.. anyway, I just wanted something nice and ‘ expensive’ to eat… like in a way to pamper myself.. not as though we everyday eat expensive stuff mar… ok … then we started arguing.. dear dear says I am getting materialistic because I want many things.. why do I need to eat expensive stuff and he doesn’t.. even when he goes abroad, he doesn’t eat expensive stuff either… but I am thinking.. since we are together , so why not go for places with nice ambience and nice food.. expensive but we don’t do it everyday mar… anyway, we decided to just close the topic.. if not, it will become tsunami level kind of issue…

We went to Candy Empire to buy some sweets and chocolates.. Dear dear very nice… he just let me buy whatever I want to buy… so sweet of him.. after that we decided to go back to East for dinner coz we have finished shopping but itz still too early for dinner there.. so we turned back to East… Dear dear asked if I wanna eat at 85 market… hmm.. there got many nice food.. so I said ok… then we were on our way there… hee dear dear ordered 3 BBQ chicken wings, Ngo Hiang (Prawn Fritters), 2 bowls of minced meat noodles and 2 cups of sugar cane.. haha… so nice.. so I suddenly thought that itz not the cost of the food…not the ambience of the place.. actually, it matters to me most who is eating with you…everything taste so nice when I am with dear dear.. sometimes he make me so fed up with him.. but most of the times, he make mi so in love with his character….yah.. so I think I should not grumble too much having a bf like him… hee

He dotes on mi a lot… he cares for mi a lot.. Ginny says I have almost everything… a caring husband, an ok career.. basically life is beautiful… is it dangerous when life gets too beautiful? To me, yes it is… somehow when things are too beautiful.. I am worried that they don’t last…….Am i thinking too much??

Villa Bali!

2007-08-29T16:49:00.001+08:00

18th August 2007

I was excited about this day because I am gonna meet my friends from Computer Engineering Faculty when I was in NUS.. My girl gang consists of Ting Ting, Ruyi and Shi Hui.. .As usual, I am always the early one to reach.. Subsequently, I met Ting Ting at Bugis. We choose a nice place for our dinner, Sketches Pasta and Wine Bar.. The unique part about this restaurant is that you get to design your own pasta. Just Pasta alone, you can mix a maximum of 3 different types. As for Sauce, obviously you choose one so that you won’t make a mess out of your own design! For condiments, you get to choose 5 different ones maximum and any additional ones, you got to pay for it.. Not very expensive though. So the three of them has pasta and I had a salad.. need to go on diet urgently.. haha

Ting ting is married to Yingfei (one of our faculty mates) on the 6th June 2007. How sweet! Anyway, she is really beautiful with all the make up, even though she looks real good without any. Time passes very fast.. 2 years ago, we are struggling to get our degree and worrying if we will get ourselves a good job and land ourselves in the right career path. Now, the girls are ready to get married and take on new roles in life.. Looking back at my life, I wonder what I have achieved so far.. I was talking to Ginny one of these days about our achievements since we left school. It seems like we did not do much but yet 2 and half years are gone in a blink… For me, I enjoy working life.. You get income and most of the time, doing more constructive stuff than what I think you do in school. You get to enjoy the best of life at the prime stage and being young is of course the greatest feeling ever in the entire lifetime. What I hate about working life is the loss of my freedom. I almost sold myself and my youth to the company. I do not enjoy the idea of being stucked in an office from 8am to 530pm. I wish to have more time to do more things. Basically, it means no commitments if you want to put it that way.

I often dreamed of working overseas (anywhere) and back packed as I worked. I do not need to see the ugly side of corporate world. I earned what I need just to keep me alive. However, I can enrich my life by immersing myself into the different cultures and societies and discover the beauty of human civilization, about how similar and yet different we are. People say that this is a waste of life. What about people who spent the whole lifetime chasing after fame, status, money and position when in the first place, you have come to this world with nothing? Even at the point of death, you bring along nothing with you to the afterlife.. This is however, difficult to achieve because all of us has got burdens and responsibilities which we cannot let go.. The responsibility to support our parents, the commitments to our partners and in time to come, your own children which we cant and are unable to let go.

Anyway, I am drifting too far away from the main topic. Ting Ting has to join her family for a short dinner so the rest of us decided to go to this nice place for drinks. I suggested Villa Bali and we went to the place. On our way there, I was not too familiar with the roads but I know it is near old SAJC. So Shi Hui realized that we just passed the gate and Ruyi decided to make a U-turn at a road junction. Upon the U-turn, we saw an oncoming car from far ahead. Nevertheless, we decide to make the turn. We turned very slowly, keeping ourselves to the most inner lane. However, this stupid male driver just decided to step on his accelerator and speeding while he was on his second lane. When he realized that we were turning, he purposely drove very very near to us just to provoke and show us that he is angry with us making a turn at that point of time. I swear that he has the time to react accordingly.

Either he could have gone a bit slower or he could have shift to the 3rd lane! That asshole simply drove so near to us that if we wind down the windows, I can put my hands out to slap both sides of his cheeks! We kept staring at him and he decided to do a ridiculous stunt. He quickly sped up and cut in front of us. Straight after he did that, he stepped on his brake hard and luckily, Ruyi is attentive enough to brake hard too. If not, we would have banged right into his car. This is the first time I have ever seen such a rude, ungentlemanly, petty and loser driver. Somemore, his car is only a VIOS. First time, I ever see a guy driving a VIOS and still so aggressive. Hello man, you are not driving a super car. He drives as if he can’t wait to queue for his next life. I am sure what we did, did not put him in danger or hazardous to any drivers. I still remember the car though. It is a black VIOS with car plate S** 7044 T. Cannot stand it.. It is just one of the ugly sight of Singapore drivers being so impatient and rude.

Anyway, forgetting about him, we had a nice time cursing and swearing behind his back. It is still nice to meet up once in awhile. As usual, I am the super complain queen and my friends are always the sweet audience listening to me. Sometimes, I realized that I am complaining most of the time because there isn’t really much to talk about unless you talked about philosophy, stars and constellation, world news and conservation? I guess not many people will talk about such topics. So when we make complains, we make some conversations and it is a way to see how people treats and reacts to your complaints!

Taipei Day 2.. The Proposal

2007-08-15T17:00:00.001+08:00

28/04/07 The Wedding Proposal
Day 2: We woke up as early as 630 am because Dear’s mum really wake up damn early.. she keep calling us and we just got to wake up.. we bathed and had breakfast at the hotel.. their breakfast was unusual as it consists of plain porridge, vegetables, ham and eggs, some canned like food like braised peanuts and glutton… but it was quite nice.. we are ready to set off for our next destination.. As we have the parents around, it was uncomfortable to bring them to amusement parks so the trip became very much of sightseeing and shopping and eating.. we asked the hotel counter and she provided us with some destinations to go.. I had planned to go North today.. So we will go to Yang Ming Shan then followed by Dan Shui and we will ride home.. The lady told us to take a bus 260 to Yang Ming Shan… Our first time taking the local bus.. Their buses have fewer seats, unlike Singapore.. You need to know when to pay for the bus fare.. The simple rule: the bus driver has a red sign board above them. The sign board will read: Boarding pay, Exiting pay.. So when you board the bus and you see that the sign is alerted, please tap the easy card or pay in exact cash. When you board the bus and the sign is not alerted, you do not pay at all.. When exiting and the sign is alerted, then please tap your card. Otherwise you do not need to tap..

We walked around Yang Ming Shan…The park is really big… but it was a bad weather to make our way there as it was getting cloudy and a storm is brewing.. While waiting for a bus to finish up the Yang Ming Shan tour, it started to rain cats and dogs.. we went to hide in a shelter which was right beside a small museum to show the development of Yang ming shan.. The highest peak is the 7 Star mountain which is almost impossible for normal people to climb up as it is rather slippery and wet at the top.. we had a meat dumpling.. I shared one with my dear dear.. it was nice! After that, we quickly waited for the bus to bring us down to the foot of the mountain…it was very packed but the skilled driver make it a short and fast one.. Well done! At the foot of the mountain, we were heading towards our next destination and that is Dan Shui Lao Jie.. it is at the end of the Northern Metro line.. quite far but we planned the journey such that we will cover all directions in 4 days! Upon reaching Dan Shui, we once again saw the all familiar food streets..selling about the same thing and all of us had too much junk food in the stomach.. I am so excited about going to Dan Shui especially the Lovers’ Bridge… Chris told me that the bridge is beautiful and romantic!! Hahaha

We walked around the streets .. had bubble tea, cuttlefish, cuttlefish balls and played some games before we decided to head towards the jetty for our boat ride to Dan Shui.. It was quite near to the Fisherman’s Wharf.. I wanted to try the famous Ah Gei..but cant seem to find it and I got to give it a miss! We came to Lover’s Bridge.. itz a very simple structure.. not really fantastic but itz a different bridge afterall.. we had a walk along the bridge and decided to settle at a seafood restaurant for our dinner before we call it a day.. the food was delicious.. I can still vividly remember that the waitress asked dear’s mum if I am the youngest daughter and she commented that I am a pretty girl..haha dear’s mum responded saying I am the girlfriend and the waitress couldn’t believe that I am more than 18 years old.. *flattered* haha

We took more pictures at the Bridge and had started to walk back to the jetty for our return.. Dear stopped me and said, “huh, what a waste to just walk along the bridge and go back.. why not we just stay awhile more on the bridge?” so I said ok and I was wondering when did my Baby become more romantic.. haha anyway, after saying that, he asked his parents to take a seat at the end of the bridge if they were tired.. so they did.. while we were staying on the bridge enjoying the breeze, dear dear asked mi if I remember the day he forgot to bring my passport.. and I said yes I did.. so he asked mi if I know the reason why he has forgotten.. and he started explaining the fact that he was hurrying to buy mi that.. he held up his hands and exhibit a diamond ring on his fingers.. I was so surprised and yes, I am elated.. However, in my heart, I still cant help but think that he treats his parents more impt than I do.. he popped the question.. “ Will you marry me?” and I said, “ before saying anything, what’s my position in your heart?” obviously, he said number 1.. I told him that u said it and u must do it.. make sure I am always number 1.. that’s his first promise to me..I nodded my head to his proposal.. and we kissed.. hmm…slightly out of my expectations with no flowers and kneeling.. but anyway, his sincerity is enough to overcome that.. he wanted to propose to mi on our anniversary , 29th April.. exactly one year since we have been together… but he cant missed the beautiful Lovers’ Bridge.. and so it was 364 days since we are together.. we have been through not a lot..a year is short..but sometimes, the length of time is not everything.. I guess both of us are comfortable with one another and we want to live together to share our lives..most importantly, we found the most important person who meant the world to each of us..

His parents obviously knew the plot and they were smiling when they saw mi… dear dear says I am not supposed to take down this ring no matter what.. he joked and asked mi , what happen if someone blows up this bridge.. I say I will protect this bridge because it is our bridge… haha although my ring is smaller than what most girls will have for their proposal ring, I am at times satisfied that it is the man I am marrying that matters to me the most.. dear dear says this one is only for now and he will buy mi a bigger one when he has got more money next time.. hee

We took a ferry back and head back to hotel as we are all tired from these few days of walking.. haha..

Taipei Day 1..

2007-08-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

27/04/07
Day 1: All of us were excited about this trip.. Dear dear and his parents will be leaving for Taipei first.. taking SQ flight departing at 810.. all of us wake up early for the day and I wanted to see them leaving the house before I get back to more rest.. his father was shocked to realize that I wasn’t taking the same flight as them.. but I assured him that I will be fine there and not taking the same flight because I need to clear off some work in the morning.. so I went back to sleep until 9 plus..

I woke up to send some emails to my boss so that everything is handed over properly. I went for breakfast and started counting down for my turn to fly.. I took a cab to the airport and waited for my turn to board the plane.. I am alone.. I preferred to be on the plane alone.. although you may feel lonely at times but I still feel at ease when I am boarding the plane alone.. I took EVA airline and the aircraft was a Airbus 340. The stewardess were very nice.. On the aircraft, they make announcements in 3 different languages mainly Hokkien, English and Mandarin.. First time I heard announcement in Hokkien. The food was nice and the trip was only 4 hours plus.. Not too bad.. At Taoyuan International Airport, I forgot to fill in the disembarkment form.. Fortunately, a nice auntie helped me to queue up while I went to take a card and filled it up.. I sms dear dear to say I have reached and he gave me directions to take the connecting bus to go to Taipei… It was kinda fun to be in Taipei..On the way to Taipei, I saw a lot of betel nuts babes.. Some wore very skimpily.. in fact, most of them does.. I wonder if the young generation in Taipei still chew on betel nuts.. I was afraid to miss the stop and in the end, I did pressed the bell at the wrong stop.. I thought I could have just missed it but the driver was shouting and refused to drive off.. So I walked down the upper deck and told him that I pressed the wrong bell.. He was not very friendly to me at all.. He asked me to check properly next time before I pressed.. It was so embarrassing.. The bus ride took me about 45mins and I finally got off the right stop.. Looking around and not knowing what to do, suddenly someone hugged me from behind.. It is my darling.. haha he offered to take my luggage to the hotel first while we will go to Shi Lin night market as our first stop! They had a lot to eat since the afternoon they were here.. Mark brought them to Long Shan Temple.. Travelling was convenient in Taipei with their advanced metro technology.. The train stations are very similar to Singapore so I am sure most of us can make our way around the place with the metro…

We first arrived at Zhong Shan Jie Yun Zhan which is near our hotel and bought our Easy card..it has a value of 200 (NT) and 40 NT deposit fees.. you can use it for bus and metro and get some discounted traveling.. So much like Singapore Ezlink card.. We were so excited about our new destination and his parents told me that they have been eating junk food since arrival.

We went to Shi Lin nightmarket.. The first thing we had was a drink.. I had Bubble milk tea and dear dear ordered a Jelly beancurd with grass jelly.. it did not taste as good as they show it on TV.. then we move on to look at some snacks.. there are so many little food stalls in the whole night market.. but the food they sell were about the same. So we decided to settle at one stall to try their oyster omelets.. It is different from Singapore because it is less crispy more oily and had a peanut-chilli sauce upon serving.. They also include vegetables into the omelette as well.. Then we had also a Sheng Chao Hua Zhi which actually means Squid soup.. the soup was very thick and a lot of cabbages in it.. the squid were actually big and tough.. hence, not easy to chew on it.. we then went around and saw a biscuit shop selling peanut snacks… we bought quite a few back so that we can give to our family and relatives.. almost reaching the end, we bought a Hong You Chao Shou (Meat dumplings in red chilli oil).. Itz superb.. very nice.. along the way, we also smell a lot of rubbish chute –like smell.. itz actually the famous Chou Dou Fu (smelly beancurd).. but the smell really puts u off… dunno why so many Taiwanese love it.. Dear tried one and said it feels like eating warm rubbish.. haha so I dun dare to try after he said tat.. we walked along the streets , bought fruits to chew and a lot of things to see… there are more food stalls along the way.. I guess Taiwanese are really fortunate coz they have got big markets like these to walk around…really crowded.. haha after that, we called it a day and decided to go back to hotel for a rest..

We stayed in a 3-star hotel called Rosemary Hotel.. Itz in a red-light district and some ktv pubs around the area but at the main road, it is where the major shopping centres are.. the Taiwanese girls dressed up themselves and really a pleasure to just look at them.. They are very friendly people and love to help people a lot.. Mi and dear dear stayed in one room and his parents stayed in the other.. hee 2 person’s world.. should have brought my mum along so that she will be able to have fun with us too…

Before Taipei....

2007-08-15T16:57:00.000+08:00

the day before we fly to taipei...i was very disappointed with him..nearly want to break up with him liaoz..coz i told him to pick up my passport while i was at work...i waited for him 2.5 hours while he was happily playing LAN games with his friends at Katong straight after work on thurs.. i am flying on friday mar.. Finally he was done and he say go home...wa kaoz..i haven eat dinner lehz..so i ask him if he eaten and he say yes he did.....the flames started burning...so when we were on cab, i ask if he go to my house to pick up my passport and he say he forgotten abt it... wa liaoz...i scold him and say whatever he ask mi do in office, i do it as my first priority but how can he do this to mi when i ask him to do things..the night before this i also argued with him coz i feel that i am planning taipei and wedding alone...like i am getting married alone...taking a single flight to and fro from taipei was already too much for mi to bear... and now he even wants to make mi feel that i am going there to travel alone..i was crying and he dun even bother...partly becoz i gave him bad attitude...and i demanded him to do his research...he says ok ok he will do everything from now..but i was not calculating abt how much i am doing...itz the involvement.. so I am already very upset... while we were on the cab, i continued asking him what did he do for the whole afternoon then? he say he did nothing...ask him if he went to singaporebrides.com website to do research...he say he tot i already settled everything.. i ask him if he washed the clothes, he say he nv wash coz i didnt ask him to.. i shoot him and say does it matter if i tell u wat to do and wat not to do since u wun do it anyway? i was really upset with his attitude... i went home to pick my passport with him and secretly told my mum while we were in the room and started crying...my mum again tried to dissuade mi from getting married... wa kaoz... my mum is the only mum in the world tat will nv ask her daughter to get married... so how u feel if u were me...he ask mi why i look like i was crying at home... i ask u him, do u noe why i am angry that u forget abt my passport? he say yes he know coz it shows that he wasnt concerned abt mi... wa i was tinking..u win liaoz...u noe abt it and u still do it.. he say he love mi on the bus...all i noe is i am disappointed and i shoot him saying.. u only say say..u dun mean it.. he was really upset then...

Exciting Backdate Events in the Year 2006 December

2007-08-15T16:13:00.000+08:00

7th Dec 2006

Today is Ah xi’s birthday…my third sister…so I meet my dear dear first before I went to meet her at Tampines Interchange..Wanna buy her a watch as a birthday gift…time flies fast…she is 21 years old this year…hee…my beloved little sister…though she can be quite bad-tempered at times but she is the nicest and the most cool gal I ever will see and praise…she is pretty , tall , slim and smart..what more can she ask for?? Haha…I noe she is having a hard time to cope with her studies and getting pocket money…hmm..i am trying to earn as much as I can but unless I do sales, if not, my salary will be capped… haiz… time and money..which one should I choose?? Anyway, dear dear was very nice..he went with mi and ah xi to choose her bdae gift..it was then we saw a really nice watch for men… It is Seiko Criteria… Dear has got good taste ..he likes the limited edition with a black metal strap … this watch is really useful becoz it can tell world time..relevant and helpful to his work..but it was kind of ex… I knew he really like the watch so I have made up my mind to buy for it…that is the only thing I can afford with my pay now.. haha then we went to shop for a chocolate cake for ah xi..she went to eat dinner with her friends and will be back for the cake cutting with us at home.. so dear dear paid for her cake as a bdae present for her… hee… my dear is so sweet and thoughtful.. so we had dinner at home and Mum cooked tonic soup coz I told her my dear having backache so mum wanna cook some tonic for both of us…eh.. sounds like we are married right?? And we are going home to visit my mum?? Haha … then while watching tv, dear dear’s sister called to get keys from him coz she forgot to bring her one..in the end, dear dear didn’t get to cut the cake with my 3rd sis…I brought home some cake for him to try.. haha..

8th Dec 2006

Today I finally went to Hog’s breath for dinner with Choon Kit, Chris , Sze Keat, Phyllis, Wai Kit, Kaifong and Weixing!! Haha our ME gang gathering…always enjoyed their company..i ordered a salmon coz I did not want to eat beef… though it is well known for beef and steak… haiz… dear dear says their steak is the best… but I guess when I come with dear, then I will eat steak.. haha so while I was having dinner halfway, dear dear called and ask if I am coming home.. I thought I was going to be home soon so I said yes.. anyway, he wants mi to buy food for his mum… haiz.. I feel like a daughter –in-law now… then on the way while weixing sends mi home, dear keep calling to ask if I am coming home..saying that his mum wants her food…I was rather pissed coz I was very tired from work and after dinner with my frens..and yet still got to run errand..since I am already running an errand, I thought it wouldn’t be nice to rush mi like tat… later I realized that it was Sharmaine rushing mi… haiz…this little girl..i dunno what to do abt her… she is rude, naughty and not tat cute afterall… haiz.. I hope my daughter next time will not be like her..if not, I will go to grave 10 years earlier… anyway, her presence made mi think twice abt having a kid of my own in the future…haiz.. mi still not quite willing to share my dear dear with my kids… haha

14th Dec 2006

Today I meet up with June for dinner… initially I asked dear dear to come.. last minute, dear dear called mi and said he didn’t want to come.. I was quite disappointed but I didn’t wan to force him to come if he doesn’t want to… so I waited at cityhall mrt station for june.. Suddenly I saw this very familiar face in the crowd…haha I realized that it was dear dear.. he is so cute to give mi a surprise… I love him so much…feel a lot of warmth when I hold his hands…feel security when I am in his arms… so sweet.. hee…I love him so much…Dear dear had a burger and a fish and chips while I had a Alfredo spagetthi… it was so creamy and nice I tot.. haha June as usual, just had a sandwich..my dear friend is lacto-intolerance so she cant eat cheese..somehow the waitress did not hear her instructions and we got to change the order again… anyway, it was a nice meet up with June..after that, we went home and tatz the end of the day..kind of boring isn’t? u wake up early in the morning to work.. u started working when the day just break and u stop until the sun sets…and whatever time u left for ur family is so precious and little… wish I had more money and I can spend every single day with dear dear but tat would be boring too coz if u see each other too often, u wun get tat “absence makes the heart grow fonder kind of feeling..” haha..

15th Dec 2006

Dear dear has got 3 movie tickets and we decided to bring his nephew to go and watch a movie with us..he is 10 years old and haven been to a cinema so we decided to bring him out… we went to suntec city to watch the movie at Eng Wah… On the way to suntec city, I tried to talk to dear dear and get him interested in what I am saying…but he seems to be listening and not participating in the conversation…I always think that a couple should communicate more often as it is through communication , then we learn to understand one another…so I got fed up and kept quiet… he knew something is wrong once I clammed up… so he tried to talk to mi ..haiz.. so I tell him what I feel … he told mi that he doesn’t talk when he has nothing to say …and it is ok for silence in between us…but I dun like tat feeling when we got nothing to say to each other… dear dear doesn’t talk much sometimes.. anyway, I was ok after we stepped out of the mrt station…

Since we have got a kid with us, we wanna watch something cartoon..hahaha so we watched “Happy Feet”..heard many good reviews about tis movie..yup it is indeed a nice and heart-warming movie.. we had dinner at Suntec food court before proceeding to watch the movie…

16th Dec 2006

Itz been a very long time since I last met up with my 4E1 (sec sch) classmates… and I am glad that they organize a BBQ for a gathering…a lot of us have changed.. I didn’t see a classmate of mine…her name is Xiao hui..i used to think that she is quite a tomboy and wouldn’t get married so fast.. and now she is already a mother of 2…second one on the way…haiz… so looks can be deceiving when we are young and ignorant…another classmate of mine, Si yun has got married to another classmate of mine, Chung Khang.. expected..haha coz they have been together for a long time… feel happy for them!! So we had BBQ and I thought the BBQ costs quite a bit coz we need to pay 18 dollars for it..there was chalet also.. but I didn’t stay overnight.. I talked to Yuyun, Huiqing and some other classmates of mine..had a great time and glad to know everybody is doing well…

21st Dec 2006

Dear dear gonna meet mi at Central for dinner today…so I msg and asked him where he was before I reached the interchange and he told mi he was already there.. I called him and he said he was at TAKA Jewellery.. hmm… I told him I wan a bracelet so I think that was his purpose there..haha.. I told him I dun like citygems.. but the design I am looking for sells too ex in other shops like SK, SooKee and goldheart… so I guess TAKA fits the bill… anyway, I love the bracelet .. itz really nice…most importantly, he is the first one to give me such an expensive gift…normally, I am the one buying a lot of expensive gifts for my bfs…but I am glad that now I really find one who is caring and really loves mi with all his heart..

I remember when I was hospitalized in year 2003..i had a relationship with a guy … it wasn’t really clear between us if we were in a relationship..until when I was hospitalized and he decided that he wants to be with another girl..it was Christmas that year… and all I get from him was a walking stick candy from his office xmas tree to wish mi well…I will never forget how hurtful it was… to think that I actually meant nothing after doing so much for him… anyway, this guy is as good as dead in my mind…I only care about a person now and tatz my dear…

Anyway, we had dinner after buying the bracelet and a company called mi... I applied sometime earlier to be Conference Producer..not too sure what I need to do but I guess itz different from my jobscope now… a bit tired of my job… so I immediately went to dear dear’s place to show and discuss with him abt the job prospects… dear dear asked mi if I sent my resume and I say I did… he was angry..he say my resume was like shit and how could I just send that thing so hastely… oh my god… Buddha also will get angry if u say his scriptures are like shit loh.. so I got angry then dun wan to tok to him..he asked mi if I am angry… I say no.. then he kip nudging mi but I ignored him..he walked out of the room with his eyes and nose a bit red… I looked at him and I felt so guilty for making him angry and sad…. I apologized and told him abt it… so he knew he was at fault for not being tactful…. Anyway, we were fine liaoz..haha

Handphone Thief!

2007-06-03T15:48:00.000+08:00

I received this email from my friends and decided to post this on my blog so that more people will be aware of it.. I lost my hand phone once and it was really painful for me... So let's all be on the lookout for these people and take care of our personal things!! =)

Dear friends,

This lady-man was spotted in one of Singapore's hottest nightspot M*S and she was last suspected to be a hand phone thief!!

It all happened on a Saturday when my friend May* went clubbing with her group of friends at this nightspot. She was in the Ladies and sat at a bench when one of her girlfriend went to the toilet. May sat at the bench with her bag at a small distance away from her but within reachable distance. The lady-man (A) in the picture attached stared at her hand bag. Not suspecting anything, my friend continued to sit at the bench while waiting.

After her girl friend came out of the toilet, she saw (A) with another lady man ( A's friend, i guess). As if she (May's girlfriend) had never seen one before, she wanted to take pictures with them! Ok.. So (A) stood on the left hand side of May where her bag was and the other lady man stood on the other side. After taking a few shots, they hurriedly said goodbye to May and scurried off.

May saw her hand bag opened with some of her stuff outside the bag and thought something was not right. Her bag was closed initially and after the lady-men left, the bag was opened! True enough, her Nokia N70 hand phone was missing!! The hand phone is not likely to be retrievable but we hope that this person would be 'famous' in Singapore for committing such a heinous crime! It is painful to all of us when we lose our hand phone and what's more, stolen by a bloody Bi**h! The hand phone was a gift from a very close friend of May and it has sentimental value to her. She was very upset after the phone was stolen.

The purpose of sending this email is to remind all of us once again, please be careful of your belongings when you are in nightspots. Make use of the locker facilities if the club has it. Next, please beware of this lady-man in the picture as you could jolly well be the next victim!!

Please forward this email to all your friends so that they will be aware and not fall trap to this thief.

God bless all.

*The name has been changed to protect the interest of the victim.

Valentines' Day 2007

2007-05-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

14th February 2007

Today marks the first Vdae for mi and dear dear...alot of first time celebrations ya... haha... anyway, i was expecting something from him but it wasnt the case...find out more as u read on...

I took half day from work and met him at Parkway for lunch... we had our lunch at the Central Restaurant in Parkway Parade... it was quite nice and i was browsing the papers for news and saw alot of love advertisements put up by many people just for their loved ones... it was very sweet so i decided to just look if TS has put one for Ginny...i mean i expected TS to be romantic to that kind of standard... haha so dear dear suddenly voiced out and said that he oso had put one on the papers... i was so excited and i started searching for his...and then he say," haha..bluff u one." *Disappointment #1* alright...i was like ok..no love msgs on the papers is fine coz i didnt expect him to do that for mi anyway...

I wanted to make him a chocolate cheesecake for this vdae...and he wants to bake the cake together...we went to cold storage and we bought all the necessary ingredients... happily going home on the bus and to bake our cake...on the bus, i cant bear it anymore and decided to ask him if he bought flowers for mi and he said he din coz it was too ex... i was so disappointed... *Disappointment #2* haiz...why sometimes he juz cant be a bit more romantic towards mi?????!!!!

We reached home and i wasnt too happy coz i know i dun have flowers liaoz... then we had some argument while making the cheesecake... haiz...i never used a blender since i was 14 years old...the last time i touched it was for home economics...the last thing i touched this morning was a spanner... oh my god... so i couldnt gauge the strength of the blender and some of the cheese and sour cream spurt out as i switched on the blender... so he was like " y u so clumsy?" anyway, yah the cake was eventually baked with mi doing all the final washing and clean up of the kitchen... so it was time for dinner... are u thinking that we gonna have a romantic dinner by the sea with candle lights? street lights and by the road... we had dinner with his parents at a hawker centre with the 2 year old niece...noisy enuff to kill u..... *Disappointment #3* i was utterly disappointed and i asked dear dear y he nv buy flowers...since courtship till now, he has nv given mi flowers....last year i go to Brisbane... i didnt receive a bouquet of flowers nor a cake for my first bdae with him...now 1st Bdae oso dun have...i asked him when he want to buy mi a bouquet...he says itz really impractical to buy roses on Vdae... to think that days before the occassion, i brought him to shopping and showed him my fav flowers...i made an attempt to hint him the flowers i like EACH time we passed a florist...he took no notice of it obviously... i asked him when he wants to give mi flowers...he say he dun like to buy flowers... is he too practical or am i too impractical? he can juz buy mi one bouquet this year and i will be very happy... he din buy mi anything for this Vdae..i made him a special video of all our pictures and wrote him a special poem written by myself...

True love comes and it will come
Treasure it when I have it in my hands
The feeling of true love, no one can forget
I will never forget the way you love me
I yearn for true love many a time
Crushes came and go like hurricanes
Destroying me each time they go
I seek for true love till I gave up
The next thing I knew, I found you
Mark, the gem of my love
I saw the sweetest smile I ever seen
You brought me to Paradise where I never been.
I felt the warmest hands I ever held
And it melts my heart
My heart feels your love
Have yours felt mine?
Quarrels, yes we have
Erase them off like we never had.
Happy moments with you around,
Nothing more I ask for now.
Just to have you by my side,
Is the greatest wish I would like.

I saw the twinkling stars,
But they never sparkle like your eyes.
I heard the ocean waves,
But they are never soothing like your voice.
I touched the softest cotton,
But they are never soft like your touch.
No one loves me like you do
No one kisses me like you do
Till the end of time,
We shall be bind
To the wings of our love
And soar high to the skies.
Let my love for you be witnessed by Angels,
To bring you across the deep blue oceans
To overcome the tall green mountains...
I love you always...

the next day, i was crying when i told my 2 closest female colleagues and Ginny about it... it was quite a horrible feeling...not to be able to receive flowers from the one i loved the most... anyway, he will never understand.... i was full of envy for Kailing when she told mi that her bf went to office to gave her flowers and bears... at least he made an effort to be romantic... not like mine, not even trying at all..... anyway, this is a 'memorable" valentine day for mi....

January 2007

2007-05-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

20th January 2007

Today marks the big day of Bobby and Shelly, his wife...one of Mark's good colleague and friends... anyway, my dear dear is one of the brothers for the wedding and he was out early in the morning..i went for my tuition as usual and decided to join them later at the hotel... mi and Cynthia were still contemplating wat to wear and if it was too early to be there at the wedding... anyway, i quickly changed and went to dear dear's place to meet him...I put on a new white dress for this wedding dinner... i tot that was a pretty nice dress...haha ...anyway, met dear dear and we went to take the cab to fetch Kiat and Cynthia... it was raining very heavily...but we still make it there on time and in fact, earlier than expected..

Since we were early, mi , dear and cynthia decided to just go to Coffee Club Express for some drinks and a Caesar salad before the solemnisation starts... the hotel was Swissotel Raffles at Raffles city... it was quite well done up for the ball room...pillarless and big.... The solemnisation starts at 6pm and we were all in the room...waiting for the bride to step in and hold hands in front of JP... i tot it was a beautiful and touching scene... especially when the JP recited some very nice speeches and quotes from the Bible...i remember clearly of this verse: "Love is patient, love is kind..." cant remember the rest... but it was a very beautiful verse.... the couple exchanged rings and that was when i saw Chris and her bf, Eng Teck... they oso know Bobby and Shelly... eng teck was bro for Bobby... so the guys were simply busy... mi, cynthia and Jace just hanged around and went in to the ball room while the dinner commenced...

The wedding was quite successfully planned and everything was kind of perfect.... anyway, weddings are happy news and hope all the couples are blessed through a sacred union like this....

Long time since I last posted...

2007-05-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

Oh...itz been a long time since i last posted a blog... oh my god...i juz saw that the last blog was posted on Dec 04.... maybe just a very brief summary of the important stuff that I have had for the last 4 months of 2007...

25th Dec 2006

I didnt managed to celebrate this first Xmas with my dear dear coz he was away to Osaka..happily enjoying himself in Japan for his Christmas...I spent my christmas with Ginny, TS, Angela and some other friends of Gin at TS' house... it was quite fun...we ordered alot of meat...like Ham, Turkey and Sausages ...just to realise that we actually missed out on vegetables....no salad at all!! it was kind of horrible to eat until so meaty... haha we had drinks and a Xmas Logcake... we played games and i sponsored my Midori 7-up...bought along my Baileys to have it on the rocks...there was Vodka and alot of mixers... i didnt drink myself dead drunk... stayed till 1plus popped the crackers and snowflakes to create that snowy feeling on christmas... haiz..i have never seen snow before and would appreciate that i would ever had a chance to spend a white christmas on Christmas Island on Xmas day...haha how meaningful tat would be ...and we decided to call it a day... I bought Angela ,Kailing and Ginny present... Gin gave me a present too...it was a key chain for 2...one guy and one gal in a heart shaped side view and kissing... tat was really appropriate for mi and my dear dear....ginny present is always that full of thoughts.... haha

01st Jan 2007

Today celebrated the first day of New Year of 2007 at one of my dear dear's friends house in Bayshore park...his normal friends like Freddy, Geena, Stanley, Jessica and Ailing were all there... we had lots of food and stuff... hmm a little hiccup though... when we reached at dear's friend house, he basically just left mi alone while he goes around saying hi and not introducing mi to anybody...i was kind of annoyed because although i knew some but i didnt know all...so i was quite angry that he left mi alone...so i went to the balcony and smoked alone...dear came and asked mi why i so anti-social but i said i dunno most of them in the first place wat...so a bit of sparks here and there...so finally he held my hand and brought mi around to intro to his friends... i oso feel better to then mingle around though i tried to stay close to friends that i have always been out with like Geena and Freddy.... they are a bunch of cute and funny guys...so much fun with them i tink... anyway, we played games and when it was time for countdown, we were waiting anxiously for the ships to fire... oh the firing was very nice...there was a special term coined for it..but i cant remember...anyway, it looks like fireworks except that it has only one pattern...a very bright spot in the sky and tatz it...but when all the ships does it together, it was magnificent...it marked the first New Year of 2007 and the first New Year that I am spending with Mark...that feels miraculously good...

Vivo City

2006-12-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

Today is Sunday...finally my tuitions are over...no more tuitions until the end of this year...my dear dear gonna move house so i wanna spend more time with him..probably i am finding excuses to spend time with him...i noe he flies alot but he isnt away for very long most of the time..haha supposed to go Muar with ginny today but i fly her 'aeroplane' ...need more time with dear dear mar..so today we went Vivo City...tink Ginny will be hopping mad if she sees this entry of my blog..coz i gave her another excuse not to go to the Muar trip..i am not very keen to go either coz itz a shopping trip and i dun really shop... haiz...so me and dear dear took train to Vivo city...on the way, i talked to dear about his ex gf...and he was very honest about it...i love him for being so honest...itz really nothing to hide...he has nothing to hide...my dear dear is my sweetest darling except being abit insensitive...i love him being around...with him, there will always be someone to say i love u..there is always someone to hug and hold when u are happy or sad...there is someone obliged to keep u company..Singles out there, i hope u find ur Miss/Mr Right soon and u will enjoy the feeling of love and being loved!!! hee...itz a nice feeling..better than roller coaster!!

Vivo City is big but no signature shops.. we bought melon milkshake...itz juz syrup and milk...then we bought chocolates from Candy Empire...dear dear is very sweet...he accompanies mi wherever i wanna go...he gives in alot...sometimes itz his little thoughts that makes him cute.. itz also his insensitivity at times that when he puts in some thought , it looks really sweet of him... we didnt really buy anything... we went to Ang Mo Kio to play billiard...i sucks at it..too long nv train... must start training...then we went back home and i helped him packed his luggage for moving...

November...what does this month represents??

2006-12-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

Oops...itz been a long time since i blogged...haha..too busy with work i guess...

First 2 weeks busy with a cost reducing project called Kaizen..Itz meant to improve existing processes in production and i am doing on another engine , T56 which powers the C130 aircraft...this 2 weeks of preparation work is horrible...like hell for mi..from a powerpoint moron, i am trained in this 2 weeks to become a powerpoint GURU!!! arghz... everyday 8-5 just making powerpoint and presentation at the end of each day.. As i am not the engine engineer for that line, i am a co-leader..normally the leader is the engineer..should be i glad for that? but we got a chance to perform the role of a leader, co-leader and a member...haiz...2 more projects to go..but it was indeed an enriching project.. i learned and understood the process of building and disassembly..it was a very good exposure and learning experience..hope to apply it to my engine line and improve my own production!!

13th November 2006

My dear dear became a 2nd officer after his official aircraft training with the B777 aircraft.. yeah...so happy for him..he gonna fly online very soon..his first destination is to Fukuoka...southern part of Japan... on his first trip back, i was not in a fairly good mood...should say itz due to the hectic workload in office and also trying to adjust to his new lifestlye...i mean people always knew pilots as flirtatious and leading a flamboyant and glamorous lifestyle...i got to agree..pilots get to stay in minimum 4 star hotel..he is really living the kind of high life yeah..but i am more afraid that we might drift apart..he is often not in Singapore and even if he does, he got to prepare for his next flight...so not really that easy job as many people think... perhaps things get better once he become a 1st officer...i dunno...the temptations are there and sometimes, i wonder if i am the one who will make him be faithful to... i discovered something which i have no intention of saying...if i am not the one, perhaps i have not done my job as a gf well enuff to keep my man by my side...

Nah my dear dear has been nice...really nice to mi.. but not enuff...maybe i should be easily contented so that i wun feel that everything is not enuff... not enuff surprises...no surprise to make mi look forward to..not enuff presents...i dun need expensive presents...just something small but thoughful but he finds it a chore to get mi a present...should i say he is practical that he rather i choose my present than surprise mi with something i might not like? but i will like anything from him..itz the thought not the price...not enuff effort from him to spice up life..life is getting a bit bored... he does sweet talk but tatz nt enuff...not sincere enuff...not stable...not enuff love ...not enuff fun...not enuff romance... arghz...itz easier to tell a fren than tell ur man...everything not enuff...i am feeling the strain to maintain relationship...we passed the stage of puppy love and excitement...now is maintenance...i am planning alot of things for the festives and events to come by the year..all i see was i am planning..putting in effort..while he is not doing anything..i am not being calculative but i wish he is a bit more sensitive to my needs and not taking mi for granted...sounds grumpy don't i? the relationship has come to a point that i feel we are married rather than dating...i told him this and he say he will improve...lets see.. no flowers...no little gifts ...no phone calls overseas... no stunts to make things a bit different...tatz all i am complaining about... what do i want in my life now??

I dunno...perhaps give mi a pair of wings so that i can fly around to see the world...yeah u are right...air stewardess... cant be a pilot coz of my height...i wan a break from routine life...i wan a break from my credit debts...it made mi learn to be a wiser spender with my time and money...i am learning to knit...wanna knit a sweater for my dear...i am learning to bake chocolate cheese cake...he likes it as a bdae cake...haha..housewife?? not for mi...doing things for someone u love is worth every seconds and effort...saving up for a surprise...u gonna guess it?? i cant say it here coz itz a surprise...i will update once my surprise is given to my dear...provided we are still together...this relationship gonna make milestone in my love life...i am crossing the longest relationship timeline i ever had...yeah we just passed our 7th month..my longest was 7 months...i have no experience of a long relationship..so i have no idea how to maintain...i guess we just learn as we go along...

This month is slow...not much exciting things going on except my office is without bosses.!! hahaha...employees' day!! Dear dear now in Peking...itz cold there...hope he has enuff to keep him warm...i guess he gonna see pretty flight stewardess... anyway, he will be back tmr...i gonna miss him for a week as he is going to Abudabi (UAE) ...

I used to imagine i have a pilot as my bf ...itz really dream come true...However, Mark comes first..In a relationship, itz the personality that counts....itz a bonus that he is pilot..even if he is not, i love him for who he is....it doesnt matter what he has for a job...it matters more if i have a place in his heart and does he puts mi as his priority...now i have it..but it doesnt seem as perfect as it is... what do i want in my life? i dunno...perhaps sometime to roam around the world and work as i need money...i yearn towards that lifestyle..will i ever make it for that day to come when i have no worries, no commitments and nothing to lose?

6th Month Anniversary!

2006-10-31T13:42:00.000+08:00

29th October 2006,

Today marks the 6th month anniversary for mi and Mark...hee i demanded Dear to make today a romantic day for mi!!! haha..he says he will try..he nv done anything like tat before...cant believe it...anyway, itz mi and him now and so he must do something on this special day...haha so he suggested going to Pulau Ubin to cycle...just mi and him...i have nv been to Pulau Ubin... Yeah...mountain turtle...haha i juz learn cycling recently ...nt very recent actually...haha kind of scared to cycle at Pulau Ubin..we woke up early today at 8am..Dear woke up to check how to get to Pulau Ubin...then we were ready to go out...Dear dear says today cannot quarrel...so i say we will follow whatever he says today to avoid quarrel..why and how did we come to that conclusion....it started off when i told him a song lyric by William Soo... actually timing plays a very important role whether 2 persons can get together and sta y together...i dunno if the timing for us to stay together is right...but i would say it was a right timing for us to be together....and i thank Heaven for giving me what i am having now...even if itz a dream, i hope i will nv wake up from it....haha..so dear dear says he was watching a variety show and it says to be together forever is determined by who has the say...i tot it was his MCP thinking up to mischief again..he denies and says given a scenario: the wife is sick. The husband says lets go to the doc...the wife says no, dun waste money to see doc...both are not wrong to say that but tat will kick off an argument right?? but if the husband or the wife has the say..then the other will just follow whatever he/she says whether itz right or wrong and there will be no argument...so i decided that for the special day, i will listen to my dear dear...haha we took 109 from his house to changi V...dear bought breakfast for mi worrying that i will be hungry.... u noe wat...i nv had a bf who treats mi the way he does..he dotes on mi so much and i feel that i am the luckiest and the happiest woman on earth....he treasures mi....all my past relationships are nothing compared to this...if i have to suffer that way to enjoy the beauty of love now, i would do it all over again...i treasure and love Mark more than ever...he is the most wonderful thing that has happened to mi in my whole life..

We reached Ubin and rented 2 bicycles...haha cant really get it started initially..too long nv cycle liaoz...then dear dear patiently teached mi until i get the hang of it...some small accidents here and there but not a big prob...we went to Mamma beach...the information counter told us that there was a man who lives there and he reared a wild boar..haha we walked along the beach and went to see the boar...it was damn smelly and not cute at all!! haha we had a lunch and cycle a while more and we went back home at around 2 pm...we took a bath and went out for dinner at Sizzler with Geena and Ailin, Stanley and Jessica... then we shopped for presents at Raoul...wanted a bracelet but when i look at it again...the workmanship was quite poor for the price so i didnt buy...i oso dunno what to buy for my dear too...nvm....haha

27th October 2006

Dear dear says we haven been to Minds' Cafe since i became his gf...haha yah...tatz true...after i become gf liaoz, we didnt have much fun as before...haha no la...my dear dear is still the sweetest thing on earth....after work, i quickly went home and bathed and went out with dear ...we went to Boat quay for dinner and went to Minds' cafe..played a few games like codac ...this one quite interesting..more like a probability game...2 types of tiles black and white...the tiles are numbered from 1-11 and 2 "-" cards..each player will take 4 tiles, 2 black and white and u will arrange them in ascending order from left to right...if u take the same number of both colour tiles,the black will be on the left...the first person will take a tile from the untouched group...using that tile, he can make guess of any other players' tiles and if he is correct, the other player has to show that tile.,if he is wrong, he has to open the tile that he is holding and place in ascending order according to his code...the game goes on until one's tiles are all revealed..haha i teared up all of dear's tiles in the 2nd round!! haha coz he teared mine in the first round...haha

Geena and his colleagues came later...and went off soon coz it was time for their mahjong...then mi and geena and dear went to Timbre to find his other frens...Timbre is near SMU..if u like live and local bands, can take a look at that place..quite nice ambience to chill out on a Friday nite!! i saw Alan, Andrew, Freddy and some other people...too many names to remember..but Alan was interesting..kept toking to mi and i appreciate that...at least i dun feel left out..haha..Alan ask wat am i doing..so he guess right tat i have something to do with aviation...haha and he joked saying mark likes to keep it close to the family..he said to mark that if we get married, then he will volunteer to play violin during our wedding, Wedding March...Mark knows him for 8 years and only now, he know that Alan can play the violin...anyway, tatz very sweet of Alan...haha the guys are interesting and they can drink dman well!!...tink they drank more than 10 bottles of red wine and champagne....oh my god!!! the pizzas are nice too..yummy..haha dear was considerate...he knew i got to wake up early for duty tomorrow so he suggested going off early so that i can rest more...he such a sweetie pie..haha

A Quarrel with my Dear.... =(

2006-10-25T10:56:00.000+08:00

21st Oct 2006

Gourmets' Weekend!! haha mi and dear loves to shop at NTUC...so we saw a can of Braised Pig trotters..my mum used to cook bee hoon with it...surprisingly, his mum does tat too..so he wanted to cook the bee hoon for mi...very sweet hor...he always like to cook for mi...so we bought the can and bee hoon, went up to his place to ask his mim for recipe and ingredients...hee we got Cai xin...my dear cant differentiate which veg is which....haha yah..then we bought eggs oso...so early in the Saturday morning, we woke up early to cook coz i got tuition mar...hee...so we had fun cooking..he fried the garlic and egg omelette..then he put in the bee hoon while i cut and wash the veg...then pour in the can of pig trotters...he removes the bones so that itz easier to eat...meticulous!! yeah...then he stewed the bee hoon for a while and itz ready to eat...not bad for a first timer...it taste like what my mum cooks!! hee...too bad, i forgot to take a picture of it....nvm..next time, he cook then i wil take a picture of it...

He has a flight simulator session at 1am tonight...so we went over to his mum's place for an early dinner...then we went to shop at NTUC again..this time we gonna wrap Wanton (Meat dumplings)..haha coz we saw that there are water chestnuts at his mum's place..so we bought meat and wrap...then went back to take garlic and marinate the meat...haha dear's sis wanna help but dear tell her i wanna do it myself...so i put light soy sauce, pepper, sesame oil, green chopped onions, water chestnuts, prawns (compliment from his sister!) and cornflour...smells good... before dear went off for his flight, we wrapped the dumplings together and with Quan as well too..we will cook it after he is back tmr morning!!

Dear came back at 5plus..he slept awhile and i woke him up at 10 to cook the dumplings...some of it, we fried and the rest cooked soup...so nice and yummy!!!

23rd Oct 2006

Today marks the eve of Hari Raya...I wish all my Malay friends "Selamat Hari Raya" ...i wish itz a 2 days holiday rather than just one...anyway, got to come back to work on Monday coz i dun wan to waste my leave...9.50 days left for this year...need to save it for next year as i am planning a trip to some place with my best sister, Ginny! haha..must go for NATAS fair and see what are the cheap and good deals..most likely not going to Barcelona as itz kind of dangerous for just the 2 of us...many of my friends including guys got robbed or threatened by knife...cant imagine what will happen to me and ginny if we are there all alone...

So since today is a public holiday eve, i wanna go out with my dear dear ..so i ask him meet mi at 615pm at the bus stop then we can go to Bishan Junction 8 to shop and dine...i just had a bad feeling today that i will quarrel with him..actually, i very seldom quarrel with my bf coz most of the time, i didnt want to pick up fights..and Mark has been very sweet coz he oso gives in at times...but not this time...hmph!

So after work, i met him and he brought his nephew, Yong Quan along...they have a close relationship so Mark does bring him out at times when we go dating...but everytime when he brings him out, we will have some slight unhappiness...tatz what i feel...

We reached Junction 8 and wanna decide what to eat...i was tinking since Quan seldom come out then bring him to eat nice food like Swensen or Delifrance or Ajisen..ok Dear was ok with it at first..but he was tinking not to eat too expensive stuff coz we had an expensive one at Kenny Rogers yesterday with Kailing and Angela... oh ya...that makes my blood boil again... Mi, Ling and Angela were supposed to meet for dinner to advance celebrate Ling's bdae...so last minute, i decide to try my luck and see if my dear wants to go out with mi for dinner with them...surprisingly, he said ok...i quickly rushed finished my tuitions and supposed to meet him at 7pm together with kailing and angela..tat 2 gals went to roller blade and after that went to buy blades..cant believe that i kenna dua by my same group of frens 2 times!! they were super late the other time we were supposed to meet!! next time, i gonna do it to them oso!! hmph! :p
630pm when i called mark, he was still sleeping..understandable coz he was working the other day...so we had dinner together at Kenny Rogers...quite nice la...i haven eat that for a long time...

ok yah back to Monday...so dear was tinking we had an expensive meal yesterday, so shouldnt spend so much to eat today...but i was tinking that Quan very seldom come out so i wanna treat him to the nice food mar...i mean, mark is his uncle..dear probably noes that he is a bit picky when it comes to food....so in the end, i rebutted dear's every suggestion...then he wasnt too happy...when i asked him watz wrong..he says 'next time, dun ask mi to choose wat to eat' ..eventually we settled at Cafe Cartel...but Quan dun like the food...initially we were seated so i say very rudely to Quan ' if u dun have anything u wanna eat here, then we will get out of here.' Quan says " can we just leave??" then i say " y not?" i took my bag and walked out...

so mi and dear didnt tok..Quan asked mi if we are eating..i say "ya" then he ask mi "Go where" i say " go food court"...so we found a food court and sit down..surprisngly, he was happier to be there...haiz dunno wat this kid is tinking..i gave him 10 bucks to buy his food..mi and dear didnt eat...we just stare away from one another...Quan finish his food and we go off...i dun wan to follow him home so i dropped off half way at Ginny's place...went to find Ginny to complain...haha my buddy...though she was busy with her projects...the moment i went over, she just put down everything and listen to mi...haiz...where to find such a nice gf...hee..yah then dear msg mi " are u coming back tonite?" so i say ya..my intention was to go back and take my stuff to prepare for my tuition tmr...Ginny drives mi back...so i walked into the house...dear oso ignored mi and he just continue playing his game..then i saw his 2 nephews in the house...i was very tired..wanna sleep liaoz..but i cant sleep with them in the room and plus dear doesnt want to tok to mi..so i packed my stuff and asked ginny to drive mi to ecp ( she and her bf planning to go there) so itz quite on the way..i just walked out of the house...while waiting for ginny , i was damn angry with Mark...so he came down and asked mi where am i going. i say i am going home...then he asked mi " y i wanna go home?" i say " becoz he dun wan to tok to mi"...then he denied that...he got angry and say : " y everytime when i am angry, i always take it as his fault?" hmm...isnt tat obvious?? if u are angry, u will oso tink the other person is at fault not u, urself mar..ok...so i was tugging him, asking him to make himself clear..he jerked mi away and say he doesnt wan to tok...then i pulled him and stared hard at him..so he asked mi " wat did we quarrel over? over we cant eat Swensens?? isnt tat dumb?? " haha and we both start luffing...yup..now back to peace...i dun like to quarrel oso mar...anyway, he is the first bf to ever chase after mi when i leave...so touched.....haha i was angry oso becoz he nv come and coax mi la...idiot lehz...want mi to coax him when he give mi a black face!!

Anyway, my fren from my previous MLM company borrowed money from mi..he had some problem with his gf and need 100 bucks...although tat doesnt make sense to mi, but i still lend him coz he say he cant find his good frens...seriously, i am not very close to him either...and since i quitted my MLM business, i nv kept in contact with him anymore...yah...anyway, i hope he keeps his promise to return mi today...

24th October 2006

Today is a happy day for me..coz my dear is coming up my house for dinner with my parents... and i am glad he didnt reject the invitation..my mum always wanted him to come up to pay a visit...so as to know him better...i finished my tuitions at 330pm..went home and chatted with my sisters...then meet my dear at 5pm...we shopped around at tampines mall..my dear always make mi feel that i am loved...i say i no money to buy things even though i wan to shop...then he say dun worry , i am here for u...haha so sweet right...we went to basement and shopped for some snacks..we ate toriyaki....yummy...then walked awhile...didnt buy anything coz i oso dun need to buy anything..haha yup then we went to my house...everybody was so shy...my house was quite quiet...initally , my dad was busy so i told him he should come home early coz i am bringing my bf back..indeed, my dad came home earlier...haha..tatz nice of him...btu they didnt talked much...tink first time in my place, so mark wasnt feeling quite comfortable...my 4th sister played a trick on him...gave him ate some wasabi flavoured chips..haha my dear can mingle very well with kids la...he has got 3 at home...

Then we went back home and meet Geena and Ailin for coffee...we went to Chomp Chomp for supper...wow...Geena can order alot..we had crayfish, stingray, Carrot cake, rojak and Hokkien Mee + 3 sugar cane juice!! i wonder if tat is supper or dinner....but it taste nice...haha

Today is a happy day for mi... =)

Back to October 14th..

2006-10-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

14th October 06

Haha i was typing my blogs haf way before lunch time yesterday..Hence i stopped at 13th October...Alright 14th October...Let mi recall what did i do...hmm...yup..i went for tuition and then went back home...Geena asked my dear to go out play Mahjong...arghz...i tot i gonna rest well at home tonite since we had a long nite yesterday..so he asked mi if i wanna go...of coz i told him i wan to go..hmm...coz i dun wan my dear to hang out with Geena's colleagues...his colleagues are ladies and i seen them once...dun really like them...so i wanna tag along...so we walked down to Yio Chu Kang Road for soccer match first..I tink i am a jinx to Liverpool..everytime i watched their match, they will either lose or draw...haha ...oops ...my dear and his frens are great Liverpool fans...if u happen to pass by Yio chu kang rd where there is a long stretch of Malay stalls, and if you see a group of boys wearing Liverpool current jerseys, thats probably my dear and his frens... :p i saw one of Geena's colleagues there...cant stand the sight of her...anyway, though she didnt do anything...but juz dun feel comfortable with her around...hmm..

Then we went to Freddy's place for mahjong...the gal didnt go..i knew that the gals went the other time to Geena's place for mahjong and dear keep asking mi to go home instead...tatz y i am suspicious and i dun like them around... so i insist tagging even though i know i am very tired...

They played the whole nite to the next day morning...so i juz slept in Freddy's bedroom while the boys juz keep playing...strong stamina they got!!

Actually tinking abt it...i have been staying at my dear's place for quite a while...i dunno if he like mi staying there...and he didnt complain anyway...haha...i dun like Geena's colleagues ...but seriously when he starts flying...more gals will come along the way...i wonder if i can learn to manage that kind of stress...still cant really trust him...and i dunno how he can assure mi...haiz...even if we are married, i cant trust...itz probably i dun wan to trust coz i am scared that my trust will be betrayed...somehow, i feel that nice things cant last long...am i too pessimistic??

Hazey Daze...

2006-10-18T12:10:00.000+08:00

Look at the air nowadays...isnt that horrible?? it just feels uncomfortable to breathe and step out of the house but wat to do, just got to live with it...but the worst thing is, we got to suffer with the people who set the forests on fire...those brainless idiots....this is not the first time we are experiencing haze because of forest fires...i mean, if the fires occur becoz of natural reasons like climate temperature rising too high to cause draught then we got nothing to say...but it just happened becoz there are some people who cant be bothered about the environment and start setting the forests on fire just because they want to clear the land for agriculture or some other reasons...this is a vicious cycle...look at what is happening now!! the air pollution is so bad that i tink before they get to grow and harvest their crops for sale, they would have died of polluted air!!! Cant imagine why there are such brainless people on earth...another thing i was angry about was that they asked for financial support from neighbouring countries to raise funds so that they can make use of an expensive Russian Technology to help solve the problem of forest fires...and of coz, they know we have to help coz we are affected...i tink the government ought to come down real HARD on those idiots!!! locking up for 5 years is not good enuff ...should confiscate their land and they can never buy any land for agriculture....just to make sure they dun start setting fire for their selfish motives...anyway, i tink prison is not a good thing...becoz they are wasting tax payers money to feed the people in the jail...i am sure that there are better ways of clearing the land for good use without damaging and hurting the environment...and i tink the government should give more support for the agricultural activity...they just dun seem to reflect on their mistakes ya???arghz...the haze driving people mad...

anyway, back to my small little world.....been busy on course for the past 2 days...last weekend was havoc and tiring...

13th Oct 06,

Dear dear brought mi to Chomp Chomp for dinner...our favourite hunt coz we love eating the food there and itz near our place too...we had sting gray, shui kueh, carrot cake and a large mug of sugar cane juice...yummy...we were too full for anything else...so we went back home and watch tv and play with baby at Dear's mum place...staying with Dear has been nice...he really takes care of mi...when i go back to his place, i am really relieved of stress...as in...really no worries...just go home, play with Dear and watch tv and talk crap with him...sometimes i cant imagine that i can stay at home straight after work...anyway, my Dear is super addictive...i never get enough of him...haha yah so when we were asleep half way at night at 1am, his fren Geena called us and reminded him of his fren's bdae party at Loof...dunno if the spelling is correct...but it is near Raffles Hotel...beside Chjimes...itz quite a nice place to chill out...within 20mins, we are done and off we go...the first thing there was drinks...i had a Midori 7-up and Dear had a whisky dry...then his fren, bdae boy came and ask him to finish up a double shot lamboghini...wah...it looks really horrible...yucks...dear finish the whole thing and i tot he looks quite sick after the drink....i wasnt feeling well after the drink..perhaps i have not been drinking for a long time and it was quite late at nite that i started drinking...so i bo bianz but ask dear if he was ready to go...can tell tat he was not quite willing to go back coz itz quite a rare opportunity for him to have a SA boys gathering like this....but he doesnt wan mi to go home alone so he leave with mi...my dear very sweet to mi...love him so much...haha

Stress!!!

2006-10-08T02:33:00.000+08:00

I have been feeling so much stress at work and about everything...mainly is my work...arghz...too much responsibility...too much work load...itz pressing mi hard and making me hard to breathe...i am suffocating...anybody can teach me how to cope with stress?? i seriously need a good lesson on it.....anyway..juz a summary of what i have done since the beginning of October ...

06th October 2006

Today marks the day of graduation of my dear dear from Singapore Flying College...I took leave today just for this special occasion for my dear dear...but i have some very important stuff to settle at work...my boss can actually handle it without my presence...but i dun understand why he insisted me to go back to have a meeting and make decision about an engine...i was so terribly upset by that..obviously i got something impt for mi to do tatz y i took leave...but my boss gave indirect orders and hint that i have to come back to get it settle...i dun wan to shirk my responsibility so i went back unwillingly...i wake up in the morning and asked if Mark wanna go breakfast with mi...he wake up and start checking his email and made calls...obviously something cropped up at work and he was in a bad mood...u can tell his mood by just looking at him..so i knew he was not feeling good...we went for breakfast and during breakfast, we didnt talk...i noe he was in bad mood but he didnt wanna say anything...he wanted to wait for cab for mi..but then i told him to just go home and do his things...then he say nvm since he got nothing to do anyway...but i insisted him to go home..then he raised his voice and asked mi whatz wrong with mi...i was angry becoz i dunno why he has to raise his voice...we didnt talk and i got into a cab to go back to office...i was damn pissed off....having to go back office is bad enuff and he has to shout at mi like tat...arghz... =(

i went back office and stomped into my cubicle...my colleagues were shocked to see mi as they knew i was on leave...i explained to them and they agree my boss was unreasonable...arghz...i couldnt solve my problem even when i am back in office...i skipped lunch and waited for another manager to come back so that i could discuss the issue with him...at 2 pm, i finally got part of the issue settled and quickly left the office before anyone could get mi...

i went home changed...borrowed my sis LV bag to match my attire..i was early..supposed to meet Mark there first...then i called him and we chatted...saw old frens from Brisbane..Yichern, Faizal,william and kiat..bobby as well...this is the 60th Graduation ceremony with 61 cadet pilots passing out...Mark says it wasnt impt since he has already got his commercial pilot licence...i was happy for him too...though i was nt with him throughout his 2 years training...i am glad he made it...Jace came as well and i saw cynthia with Ivy...so i sat together with cynthia...then we were seated for ceremony to commence...before this ceremony, mark told his mum about this graduation and told her that she doesnt have to come coz he has already asked mi to go...he tried explaining that it wasnt impt..but i guess i could feel his mum's disappointment... i mean itz a once in a lifetime issue...but i guess my dear wasnt sensitive enuff to realise that his mum was sad...i wanna take more pics to show his mum..in the end, my camera was out of batt...i used cynthia's camera and it was very badly taken...i was very very upset.....i wanted to take good pictures of mark...i cant even do a simple thing properly...though mark didnt say anything.he said itz alright....but i felt upset and sorry.....so angry...after the wing presentation, then we proceeded for some refreshments and left after the dinner...

Mark and mi met Geena after the ceremony...we had coffee at Yio Chu Kang and he was telling mi abt his job and that citibank is making offer to hire...personal banking? am i up to it? the job has put myself down so much that i started to doubt my own capability...anyway, mark consoled mi and said i did a good job...coz my auditors were so happy with mi...oh yah..Jean and Jackson sent mi presents from France...so sweet of them!! They sent mi some sweet and salty stuff made in France..a French CD named Sex,Sea and Sun...a red striped blouse and few souvenirs from Turbomeca....so nice of them! i felt like i was opening my Christmas present in advance...haha ..

07th October 2006

There was a showroom up for viewing for a DBSS (Design, Build, Sell Scheme) HDB housing in Tampines...Mark likes the area because itz near to my parents place...he has been very nice and considerate..i wonder if i should be happy about it...by right, a guy is dead serious about u if he wanna get a house with u...i mean tatz tantamount to marriage..but i dunno...i am stressed and confused...i am confused becoz i am unsure of his intention of buying a house...does this means that he is proposing to mi? i dun wan a proposal so soon when he has nt made a proper visit to my parents and when we are only 6 months old in the relationship...a lot of questions come to my mind actually...has he already identified mi as one he can spend his whole life with? can he come to terms with who i am and my character and accept mi for who i am? has he asked if i am the one for him and likewise, he is the one for mi??? to mi, my partner must be one who listens, shares my weals and woes...cares and loves mi....truthful and faithful and supportive..he has got 90% of it...i haven come to terms to really accept him for who he is...i wan more time to noe and understand him better...marriage is a life time contract..i dun wan to end up with a divorce when i am rushing things just to get a house and a wedding ring or a marriage certificate.....am i thinking too much?? i am stressed becoz he wants his parents to live with us...i dunno...itz not that his parents are not nice..they are in fact very nice people...but i am scared...i have seen alot of cases where mother-in-laws and daughter-in-laws just simply dun get along after marriage...i might be selfish..but i wan a love nest of my own...having parents around means i might have to surrender my freedom...i cant wear what i wan at home...do my little stuff at home or even getting intimate with my husband at home...he doesnt understand that living together and getting along are two different issues...i am stressed at work...and now i am facing more pressure about this..i wun keep mum about it...i wanna have an open talk with my dear and hopes he understand my position...i am afraid this is putting a strain on our young relationship....i am sort of cohabitating with Mark..my mum noes that...i explain that i need time to stay with this person...coz i have sort of want him and identify him as my future spouse ....i wan to live with him and get used to his habits and see if we can really get along....since i have been staying at Mark's place...itz like i spend so much time with him that i seldom contact my frens....i missed ginny, june and kailing...but anyway, they are also busy...why do i only have 24 hours....i wished i have more time..more time to spend at work..i wanna focused on my career...still learning how to handle work stress and now must learn to handle domestic stress if i stay wit his parents...i dunno...there are still so much things i wan to do..i wanna settle down with mark...but now is probably not the right time...i dunno..i am lost....

Just went out with Nelson, my good friend and his other friend Ryan...Ryan was surprised as in why i could maintain platonic friendship with Nelson for 6 years without falling in love for each other...actually. itz simple...coz i noe how to differentiate my frens and my dear...i have alot of nice boy friends...like Sze Kiat,Choon kit, Wei Xing, Aik Boon, Nelson, Derrick and Eric,Benson..the name list just goes on...though i have less time for them now...i hope they noe that we are good buddies and i will nv forget them.....they are always on my mind...good buddies are for life!!!must find time for them soon.....We went to Muthu Curry at Suntec City for Fish head curry...Nelson's treat...haha...yummy...then we went to Somerset Hongkong Cafe....We had Fried Wanton, Po Lo Butter Bun and desserts.....yummy.... haha alot of crap talk and jokes...talked about the past and our present....that was really nice for a weekend chill out..!!

Dinner Out...

2006-09-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

I have been spending many days at home with Mark right after work...i dun blame my darling...he has been very tired and tied up with his f***ed up schedule that his company has planned for him...he has not been getting enuff sleep...I tink it happened on a Thursday after work...as usual, we went to his mum's place for dinner and after that, we went back home to watch tv...right after we stepped into the house, we switched on tv and i didnt realised that we didnt speak a single word until he commented :" since we are in the house, we havent exchanged a single word!" haha ...i start to worry about his comments...are we in comfort zone such that silence is oso alright for both of us or have our relationship come to a stagnant point where we no longer find anything fresh and interesting to tok to each other... i tried talking after he made the comment...he started falling asleep..i didnt realised he was also tired after a few days of continued flying...so my imagination went wild..

So on friday, right after work, i told him i wanna go to Junction 8...so he agreed then we met at his house bus stop...so i started complaining that he wasnt listening to mi and tat we dun have much to tok...so he say no such thing...juz tat he was too tired yesterday to tok...haha we went to KFC for dinner coz he has this craving for fast food...nobody would enjoy eating KFC with mi coz i will remove the skin and fat before putting them into my mouth...Mark says itz a torture to see mi eat the chicken and the chicken must felt upset to be eaten by mi ..hahaha..full of crap...but at least he noes how to make mi luff...

We went to buy my office bag...he was surprised at how fast i can decide to buy something..so at the cashier, i was about to pay money when the salesgal made an uninvited and tink-itz-funny kind of comment about y is Mark not paying for it..i was like , itz none of ur business loh...it reminds mi of the time when i was at Balaclava with derrick and i wanted to pay for that round of drinks when the waitress oso made such a comment..Salesgals, please be enlightened that ur comments are not necessary to put the guys in a difficult position...when my guys need to pay for something, i make sure they do it...and wat kind of era is it now?? itz like man-woman are of equal status and we dun mind paying at times..people should learn not to be shallow and materialistic i tink....anyway, i dunno if my dear feels bad but i dun wan these kind of comments to spoil the day....

so we walked around, bought some bread at breadtalk and went home...i made a damn silly mistake about some cash transfer ..i wanted to pay Sze hao, my colleague who helped mi paid my credit card bill first...so i transferred him the money using my credit card account not knowing that i have incurred a $15 / 5% of whatever amount i tranferred cash advancement fee..and i have also incurred interest too...oh my god..so when i told mark that, he was angry why i still have so much outstanding in my credit card bills even though i have kept all my cards...haiz...anyway, we decided to start a joint account and we wanna start saving money..coz mark says if i dun start saving, then we cannot get married early which means other gals can still chase after him!! hmm..but i noe my dear will be true to mi...haha but he wants mi to tie him down as soon as possible..

I went to a wedding dinner last nite..it was my bro, Sze Hao's wedding...the photos are so well taken...u can really feel their happiness..i am happy for them too...the wedding was at Shangri-la Hotel ..posh and the waitresses served ur portion and u dun have to take urself...the bride looks so pretty...haha i wsa tinking i didnt wan a wedding dinner when i get married...but mark says he wans coz itz weird not to inform ur relatives, frens and colleagues of ur wedding...now i wan it too..coz i can be the centre of attraction mar...hahaha

Cockroach Attack!!

2006-09-15T14:31:00.000+08:00

Itz been a very long while since i last posted..hee...been busy spending time with my darling, Mark...he gonna start flying soon and so i wanna spend more time with him...i am so glad to know that all my buddies are attached right now...Kailing is attached with her long-lost sec sch fren, Eric ...and tat woman...every single day will email me and tell mi how blissful she is feeling now...tink i caught a cold becoz of her mushy stuff!! hahaha....Ginny is back together with TS...TS has changed alot ...giving more freedom to Ginny and most imptly, he found a job ..at least he is willing to work hard and not doing foolish things during his free time...Ginny is happy too...June was attached sometime ago...with her ex-bf, Leonard...she still loved him the most i tink...despite the fact that both broke up sometime ago, they still managed to get back together after they realised that they still suit each other better...

Took half day on Tuesday to fix my handphone again...People out there , if u wanna consider buying a LG KG800 (Chocolate) ...please reconsider ur choice and dun make another mistake like i did.... tink of the following scenarios...ur hp is good to use for 6days and it broke down exactly on the 7th day...cant even power on it...after bringing down to a service centre that only operates during normal office hours and half day on Sat, the damn phone broke down less than 2 weeks in use...tink of the inconvenience it brings to u...if u dun wan this to happen, then dun buy it!! the service wasnt tat fantastic either...the 2nd time, i brought my hp down to the service cntr, i demanded a new one...Mi and Mark wacked the service personnel really upside down...she quite pitiful la...but i guess itz her unlucky day or she juz worked for the wrong company...initially they refused to change a hp for mi...i realised that my hp broke down twice during charging so it is quite possible that the charger is down...they changed a batt and say the hp can be on..but i refused to take it back..if the charger is faulty, it could have well damaged other parts of the phone as well..and i dun wan to waste my time to bring down the damn phone for repair again...i insisted on courier service, be it repaired or a new set...they refused to gif mi one, saying they have no new stock and i gotta wait a month for one...so they wanted to gif mi a charger , a new batt and a new motherboard...but we insisted a new one...The gal say she cant guarantee that the new phone will not have this prob...oh ..so Mark says : " if u cant guarantee on the new phone, tat simply means LG sucks!" haha tat really feels good...eventually, they gif mi a new one courier to my house...but isnt ironical when they say they didnt have stock? anyway,i didnt pursue...juz glad tat i will have a new one...

Mi and Mark went to Toa Payoh central to shop...but couldnt find in many places la..anyway, we shopped around in the supermarket...tink we share the common interest of shopping in supermarket...i love supermart..coz many things to see and eat ...haha..he likes it too...says better than shopping in Orchard...we decided to make Carbonara Pasta for dinner tonite..hee Dear makes the nicest pasta...so we cooked and i was supposed to meet Ginny after dinner at 9 for coffee..TS was home late so i juz went straight to his house to look for Gin..then we had fries and iced milo while watching "My Lovely Samsoon"...so nice...Zhen Xian so shuai...but my dear dear even more shuai!! haha...on my way home, something terrible happened!! must be my retribution for wacking the customer service officer at LG...

Have u been under attacked by a COCKROACH!!!! a flying one somemore..yesterday i entered the lift as normal and saw the door closing..then suddenly something big charge at mi in my eyes and forehead...i quickly swept it away ..the door was closed and when i open my eyes, i saw this big cockroach on the door..wa liaoz...i screamed and screamed in the lift loh...i was going to the 9th floor..but then i am really scared of the cockroach..so i pressed the 5th floor ...when the door opened, the cockroach flew and charged at mi again!! i ran out of the lift screaming and dropped my phone at the first unit of the 5th floor..got this uncle..he sounds like my dad (the tone) scolded mi vulgar language and say dunno what i shouting..i ran to the end of the floor..i juz kept sweeping my body and i started sobbing while i climbed the stairs up to Mark's place...he was quite traumatised by the way i cry la...but he very smart..the first thing he guessed was cockroach attack...i didnt say anything loh..i juz kept sobbing and crying...crying real hard loh...then he tot i was robbed or something..then when i finally calmed down, he was luffing ...say why i so scared of cockroach..now i got phobia of lift oso!!!

And I have been seeing cockroaches for the past few days in a row...someone help mi can!!!

Sianz..

2006-08-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

Itz been a long time since i last updated my blog when i went for my holiday to Brisbane...Haven got time to attach my photos to my blog...will do tat soon i hope!! haha..a summary for wat i did this whole month then...

After i got back to Singapore, work just piled up and crushed mi...i am preparing for an audit at the end of August.. this audit is making mi excited becoz i am going to see my repair engineer from France...it feels like meeting a penpal!tatz wat i have been telling my bosses and colleagues..working life is very different...nw i feel so used to the mundane life of it...yup anyway, i would be glad to meet him soon..i wonder how he looks like...Audit preparations were torturous..i work OT almost everyday and have to juggle along with tuition...tatz kind of tiring i mean...

Mark will be back on the 12th August...Just nice...there are 4 shows on fireworks and we managed to catch the 3rd one which was by New Caledon..i tink the name is not right...but i cant remember...it was really nice as we got a real close up on the fireworks...feels like the sparks raining on us...nice images of the Merlion, heart shapes and waterfalls...wonderful...

12th August 2006

Mark and me went out...didnt really do much things..we went to buy his new handphone...spent a long and tiring phone juz to get one..i feel tat he was chasing mi to go home..at around 8pm, he started asking why i nv go home..ok fine, so i decided to leave..he sent mi to took a taxi and tatz all...i was pretty upset so i went to look for Ginny..anyway, had a long girls' talk...being in a relationship is tiring..itz difficult for mi to trust anyone as i dun feel any security about anyone except for myself...i am a difficult gal..doesnt sound like what most of the psycho test makes out of mi...haiz...trouble...

13th August 2006

Today Mark met mi and we went to shop for some stuff...at the same time for my handphone as well...coz i was looking for one ...so we bought a LG chocolate..haiz..that phone is really nice but problematic..i bought it for less than 5 days and itz DEAD!! i cant even power it on...haiz...stupid phone..no wonder people on the website says : LG = Lousy Goods...arghz...i only saw the forum when i was looking for the service centre for LG...if i seen it earlier, i wouldnt have bought it..i still trust Nokia better!!

20th August ...Start of my audit...

Yeah...finally, i saw Jean-Louis...my repair engineer from France...he is tall..looks very young despite he is 38 years old...he is single and no intention to get married.. the other auditor is called Jacques...they were very nice and friendly i tot...anyway..i shall continue writing abt them soon...

Tatz all for now!

Back from Brisbane!!

2006-08-03T19:41:00.000+08:00

Mount Coolum...This little waterfall was created after a downpour in the afternoon...

Just listen to the waves... the sound of Pacific Ocean..Isnt tat beautiful??

This is Mark and mi... :pMy favourite beach in Sunshine coast...itz Beach Coolum..the land and the ocean just makes it too romantic to be missed out...haha

I am back from Brisbane...haha the trip was enjoyable and unforgettable i think...I am beginning to love Australia...I went to Brisbane, Sunshine Coast to be exact becoz tat is where my dear dear is training at..Sunshine coast...like the name suggest is a wonderful place but itz more for retirement or if u wan a relaxing holiday, thatz the place u should visit...well known for its beautiful beaches and beautiful mountaineous range...

So u must be wondering what i can do there in such a relaxed place?? I visited Gold coast on my 2nd and 3rd day at Queensland and went to Movie World.. I am still writing my diary to record every single thing that i did there..haha...i have only written until my bdae, 27th July...3 more days to go before i will post everything up with my pictures...itz already a 13 page long word document...haha i can really write alot i guess... i wonder if i can ever write a book and publish it...Maybe then i will become an author instead of an engineer... I would like to extend my thanks to Jace for making it an unforgettable trip..she has been very sporty and makes a wonderful travelling partner coz she cant seems to sit still and idle time away..haha well tatz wat u should be when u are overseas... Thanks Jace.. I am glad i went Brisbane to visit Mark..coz i simply miss him so much...ok this is just the introductory to my diary of events in Brisbane.. I should post it soon...

Wait for the exciting posts!!

Flying to Brisbane tonite!!

2006-07-20T15:25:00.000+08:00

Yeah...I am flying to Brisbane tonite!!! First time taking SQ siah...hee...can finally see my dear dear in less than 24 hours....I am in the office right now..doing my work, handing over my stuff to Sze Hao who will cover mi during my absence...i wonder if i wan to keep myself contactable during my 10 days absence...hahahaha anyway, i have to la...i bringing some work there to do juz in case when Mark is busy flying and i will have nothing to do other than shopping, watching vcds and reading...haha itz a good break for work..so maybe i wun touch my books for 3 days...then after tat i will do it..haha i wonder if itz very cold there..itz my first visit to Australia and I hope everything wil be fine yeah...my flight is 2355 tonite..will reach there in the morning..my second time out of the country for holiday...the feeling is juz too good...haha

How i wish i am flying with ginny instead of someone i barely know...i am flying with Mark's buddy,Meng's gf...the coincidental thing is Meng, Jace and me has the same birthday..Jace is born exactly the same day and same month and same year as i do...even our names are close..she is Jace and I am Jacelyn..she is a corporate broker and I am an engineer...different characters but she seems like a strong gal..hmm...anyway, i am having some negative feelings for her...shant discuss much here if not, i would sound like a grumpy old woman..

I see my blog visitors getting more and more...i wonder who has been reading my blogs...haha if u dun mind identifying urself, please drop mi a msg in my tag board yeah?? Juz click on top at the word "MY" and it will lead you to the tagboard...I would love to create something like a guest book but i dunno how to do so...Someone might wanna teach mi how to do so?? haha.. ** Send mi an angel...Send mi an angel...Right now...right now..." hahaha

Yeah i am in good mood today..hee..was very fustrated a few days ago becoz of my student, Chen Chang...he is a Taiwanese boy studying in Tampines Secondary school...exactly where i come from...however, despite the very short time span left to his O level, he seems incompetent even in his fundamental topics of A maths and Chemistry..i am kind of worried for him...i cant do much if he doesnt work hard himself..anyway, he simply dua mi two times when i am supposed to have tuition with him and he juz forgot about it or cancel last min when i am juz outside his house waiting...Arghz..wat the fish...next time, i am going to count it as one lesson once i reach his house loh!!

Ok...time to get back to work again...6 more hours to fly...when i am back, i will write more stories about Brisbane and Sunshine coast and lotsa photos too!!! =)

Take care and enjoy the weekend.. :p

Phuture!!

2006-07-09T18:33:00.000+08:00

Today is Saturday...i woke up early for my tuition and headed to Bugis California Fitness Club for my gym session...Supposed to have training today with Hai Xiong but I was too tired and my muscles aching horribly! i must have over exerted my muscles during my JC boxercise lass on thurs...so painful...mainly becoz i haven been exercising for a very long while ...

Anyway, i managed to catch hold of the Body combat class...itz martial arts cum kickboxing class...so fun!! haha... i made a new fren there and she is called Eunice...when she told mi she was married with a kid, i couldnt believe it manz...and she was with California Fitness for more than 6 years and she usu frequent the Orchard Club instead...only recently then she changed to Bugis...but anyway, i saw this girl in class and she was doing the moves very well...i guess she is a veteran with this class...she is quite pretty too...but looks a bit fierce...

Then i carried on with my JC boxercise class...I made another new fren too...haha she is called Constance...my sparring partner...becoz i go to the gym alone so sometimes got to spar with people i dunno ...but itz fun coz u get to noe more people...haha anyway, tatz how people turned from strangers to frens right?? haha

After my classes, i went home and prepared myself to go out clubbing tonite...woah...haven been clubbing for sometime...like maybe one month oreadi...everytime June asked mi go, then i am either too tired or got tuition the next day..haha paiseh to reject her so many times so i asked her to go with mi but she cant coz she need to prepare for her examz...i got Kailing, Angela and Ginny to go with mi...Yeah...heard Phuture was quite good and Derrick will be there with his frens so tot we could mit up there and catch up...

We went there at around 11 plus and i bought a skirt for Gin to change but she doesnt like it...she was wearing a shorts but i cant get her my skirts coz itz too big for her i tink...she doesnt like it, so she wore her shorts to club instead...haha first time i see her wearing shorts to club...itz my first time to Phuture actually...usu i hang around in Zouk ...Velvet i went once with Derrick ...so i couldnt really get my way around...but getting around is easy after u ask people for directions...obviously the staff and not the clubbers...if not,i would get branded as a "mountain turtle" ..hahahahahaha..so we went in and ordered some of my fav drinks...ladies drinks...we ordered Midori 7-up, Peach Snapps 7-up and lychee martini...yummy...i tink i haven tried drinking so many diff types at one go...then i went over to Velvet and saw my ex-colleague Kelvin...we used to work together in Harrys' Bar boat quay...he treated mi to a drink Chivas green tea..my fav too!! haha

Derrick came at around 1plus with 3 frens, Brian, Andy and Jennifer...Jennifer is a SQ girl and she noes Derrick thru high sch in Perth...she is a very fun girl to hang out with i tink...haha she can play with mi like the way i play with june...itz always nice to have such kakis around..i drank alot of Whisky Dry..tatz Derrick's fav drink i tink..he always drinks tat in club...i guess they didnt like RNB...Ling, Angie and Gin went to supper ..so they went off quite early like 3 plus..i went off at around 5...Derrick and his frens went on to MOS...feeling drowsy but still sober...haha fun nite out...!!

California Fitness!!

2006-07-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today is a freaking busy day at work because we are due to sign a contract today and I have also been handling it..to the extent that my boss asked mi to go for my course later half of the day...so i had my whole day toking to the lawyer and the broker regarding Insurance issue...i guess i did learn alot from this contract...read like a lawyer, tink like a lawyer and learned alot of law and insurance terms which i used to ignore in whichever contract or agreement i signed for..haha itz a good experience but i hope the renewal doesnt come too soon...this contract is dragging for far too long and taxing on everybody!! After my contract, i was busy with production area...

Argh...tat stupid CMO ( customer management office ) he is the Assistant... We had this engine input for some work to be done..we have AGREED and decided on the workscope..today when i went back to him regarding other issues abt this engine, he changed his mind and say that he nv agreed to one of the workscope...wa liaoz..tatz so unfair to mi loh!! He turned his face faster than u flipped a page! idiot asshole...shit...now i dunno how to ans to my bosses liaoz...anyway, after i finished my production work, clearing and sending lotsa emails, i was finally ready to go until the broker got back to us...she is a very nice lady but somehow she doesnt understand our position and the people we are dealing with..oh my god..she kip insisting her way of language and changing the words doesnt change the intention...Yes yes we noe tat but the French doesnt and they wouldnt budge...i would say we are definitely at the losing end in this case la...if they held us ransom, we can do nothing but to give in loh....wat to do...anyway, after much haggling with the terms and conditions, i am ready to go for my course...i am so freaking late and the nice instructor with his trainees all waiting for mi!!

I rushed a cab down..Sembawang airbase is one troublesome place to get to manz...military airbase...wat to do? haiz..i am supposed to go for my engine type course conducted by RSAF...Frankly speaking..i should be familiar than them with this engine coz i stripped the engine all the way to the bolts and nuts..haha ...i conducted once for my technicians...but becoz i am not a qualified trainer by OEM...therefore , i was not asked to continue with my teaching and my slides were taken over by my Section head instead..anyway, the course is relaxed..haha lotsa teabreaks here and there...they are very funny...Encik Chia FY is the trainer..we have Koh, Jefferson and Tong ( Arriel ) another engine type to sit in for this course as well..hee ...after some training classes, we went to the engine bay to see engines...i see them everyday ...haha..we finished off at 5pm and Tong sent us to the MRT station...my course will last mi 2 weeks...

I went to Bugis coz i have made arrangements with my personal trainer at California Fitness, Bugis Club..haha yup i am a Platinum member with California fitness..my pkg can last mi for 3 years...but i tink itz fun to have a personal trainer coz he can tell and gauge ur progress..most imptly , they can tailor make ur program to achieve the results u want and with proper guidance, u wun hurt urself during gym equipment use...alot to learn lehz..so i went there after dinner at Parklane Zha yun Tun noodle stall..Mark brought mi there once and i tink the noodle is very nice...haha so i went there...then went to change my clothes...a bit nervous and lost coz my first time to a big club..luckily got my trainer there...my trainer is called Hai Xiong...he is same age as mi ...quite a nice and approachable fella...but of coz they have too coz they want u to use them again mar..haha anyway, yup itz fun...he did a body measurement with one of the machines that are used in many weight loss centres and hospitals world wide..tat session will cost $21 but for mi, itz free coz i am new member mar..haha then can measure alot of things like fat, right-left balance, muscle, lean mass and stuff...

We proceeded to try the resistance machines..first thing i did was go to the tread mill and he look at my walking posture and check my heart beat thru the machine...then we went up to do chest machine, leg/thigh machine,shoulder press, abs and lastly the elliptical cross trainer...so i did 30mins on that and 15 mins on stepper...so tired!! haha

now i am back home...wanna call mark but he is asleep liaoz....nvm ...call him another day..this week too busy for him...coz i am not in office in the day...after work, i am giving tuition on 2,5 and 7 ...going to gym on 1,3,6 and 7...tired...hee...but i tink itz gonna be fun coz can make new frens at the club..i hope so..haha nitey nitez...

Short Getaway Trip to KL!!(Part 2)

2006-06-27T16:33:00.000+08:00

Now i shall continue on Day 2 of my KL trip..hee ...so we woke up at around 1plus...Derrick is a pig ok...he can sleep for hours...anyway, the journey was really tiring..i cant take it too...so we woke up and got ready to check out of the hotel...then we left our bags at the reception and we proceed to buy our bus tics to return home tonite...we walked all the way to the bus station..itz only around a 15mins walk..when we got there, we wanted to get the Grassland Transport ticx but we cant find it so eventually juz make do with the normal bus...we got our ticx and went to shop at Lot 10..Hungry!! So we stopped by at Nandos for lunch...itz Mexican food and Derrick finds it familiar coz he ate it in Australia..haha yummy itz quite nice i tink...both of us had a 1/4 chicken with 2 sides...i ordered a Greek Salad and Peri Fries , Derrick had it with Coleslaw and Greek Salad..D juz cant stop telling how bad my complexion is ...Arghz...he had a Mango Smoothies and I had a Iced Cappucino Smoothies...yummy...

We decided not to go Sepang for the final race coz we would not have the time to make it back to our bus station so we just roamed around the place before our bus leaves at 730pm...we went to Sungei Wang, Lot 10 , BB plaza and a few malls...wah walk until very tired..haha Derrick has his haircut at Tony and Guys..coz he say Tony and Guys in Sg is double the price in Msia...so he wanna cut there...while he cuts his hair, i went to shop around..bought 2 t-shirts..one for mark and another for Derrick...coz he paid almost everything for my trip to KL...really appreciated his generosity..hee so i bought him one t-shirt which i like...but he says it looks a bit kiddish...stupid derrick!! haha

While he cut his hair, i took cigarettes from him, bought a drink from Dome and smoke while waiting for him...that idiotic waitress was horrible...the drink was RM8.34 so i paid RM10..the change was all in 10cents..wa liaoz...wat a way to trick tips...anyway, luckily i caught my eye on derrick ..if nt, i might have lost him coz he was looking for mi and he couldnt see mi...luckily, if not, i no need to go home liaoz..haha then we rushed back to the hotel and took our bags and moved quickly to our bus station...we are just in time...the journey was tiring...reached back Sg at around 1am..then we took a cab to Derrick's place where he picked up his dirty clothes and drove mi to his parents' house to let the maid wash them before he finally drive mi home...wah i so freaking tired..but that was really a fun trip!! hee lotsa shopping, eating and i made new frens!!

Short Getaway Trip to KL!!

2006-06-26T17:27:00.000+08:00

Woah...itz been a rush to go and come back from KL..I was watching Initial D, the movie at home last thursday when Derrick called mi and i didnt hear it...so after the show, i saw the missed call and called him back...suddenly we were talking about the drifting of the cars and so excitingly talking about it..Mr D start to ask mi if i am interested to go KL, Sepang this weekend to watch Japan GT Race 2006..he wanted to go so ask mi if i wanna follow him and his frens..i always wanted to watch this kind of race live but nobody bring mi go and i oso dunno the way to go..so i was tinking for very long time whether i should go coz i scared Mark will be angry if i go...i msg him and asked him but being a understanding and sweet bf, he told mi to go as long as i can take care of myself..haha yeah...then i can go watch the race liaoz...

I used to resent the thoughts of going to M'sia coz itz very dirty and inconvenient..esp the long bus journey which i really hated it..but this time going down to KL feels a bit different..coz i tink KL has modernized much more than before..as in the things are more pleasant looking, cleaner and looks like a Orchard Road in Singapore..in fact with more things to see and shop and eat...tatz sounds real fun right...haha so on Friday nite, i called up Mark and told him tat i am leaving soon for the KL and i quickly packed my stuff...was waiting for Derrick until 9pm and our bus leaves at 10pm!! he drove back to his house coz he came from his office to pick mi up first..he now stays at the Villa near Siglap ctr...tatz a very nice place i tot ..Mr D forgot his GT tics and left it in his office bt tluckily he saved the email in his laptop and he retrieved it to save in his thumbdrive , Bioslimdisk...i tot tat was a very good thumbdrive becoz it activates only with ur thumbprint...i guess that is something ST really need!! anyway, we saved and quickly moved things..his house very empty..haha bachelor's house he calls it..then we quickly took a called cab and rushed Lavendar to board our bus...Derrick booked 2 seats for Grassland Transport...Our frens supposed to mit us in KL...but last min, they cant make it and decided not to go...so along the way, there was only 2 of us...the bus was very comfortable with TV and blankets...a bit ex for the tics but itz worth it coz of comfort mar...i watched 2 movies and we fell aslp on the bus..it was 4 am in the morning when we reached KL..then we bathed and slept till next morning...Stayed in Royale Bintang Hotel...itz 300 RM per night per room..rather ex loh..but nice rooms they got...anyway, we went for hotel breakfast and went to print our tix...then we took a cab down to Sepang F1 circuit...wah itz big...really big and cool!!

We watched a few races...including a first race of Super Saloon..these are not professional racers and i heard from Derrick that they get their own sponsors to sponsor their race one..there was an Integra Type R in the race..we also saw Civics, Colts, Integra, Porsche and Evo...this race not tat exciting coz Derrick says their categories are too far apart and u wun see them tailgating..haha one Integra broke down during the warming session..i was so sad coz Integra was my fav car..Derrick is driving a black one..my other fren Ben is driving the white one...oh Integra becoming commodity??? haha anyway, Derrick is a good driver..haha he used to drive a Skyline GTR 33 in Australia before he came back..but his bro's fren crashed his darling! Anyway, Porsche won the match...haha Evo was number 2..that Evo was real fast..then we watched V6..Derrick calls it the Mini F1 race...wah itz loud..i almost wanted to buy a ear muffler..One of the cars broke down before the race and when he finally raced, he was at least one lap behind the race but u applaud for his sportsmanship to finish up the race manz...haha then when they were about to move one the V6 cars away, it doesnt seem to obey the towler and the driver of the towler was damn stupid oso..he was trying to force the car to turn the direction and the car nearly flipped...haha it was a hilarious scene... :p

Then finally we watched the Qualifying Round 2 of GT race...before tat, Derrick wanted to buy the ticx for Pit Walk..each tix costs RM100...wah i actually dun wan to see but he says itz a pity not to go down and see..haha so i agree to go oso...the Race Queens very pretty..i am so envious of their figures loh...most were from Japan..there were alot of reporters and people around taking a look at their fav racers, race queens and fav cars from the Japan Car teams..damn nice..after watching the race, i love car sports even more...haha the real thing is very different from watching on tv...The Qualifying round was great..there were many high end cars like Ferrari , Porsche, Fair lady 350Z, Lotus Elise, Lamboghini, Celica and many more...they were damn nice....but all modified until look about the same loh..haha then after tat, we left the place...feeling tired, sticky and smelly..haha we took a cab back...went back to hotel to put some stuffs..Derrick says he dunno about an Indoor theme park in Berjaya Times Square..so we went in and shopped around...he bought some clothes for mi coz he say i dunno how to dress!! haha so this bro of mine wanna teach mi how to dress up...haiz..yah bought mi 2 tops and we went for dinner at Sushi King...the sushi not very fresh and nice loh...but hungry so juz eat la..itz not very cheap either...we forgot to ask the fella for bill and we just left..the stupid cashier claims that we has eaten some other colour plates and we were sure we didnt..idiot...i hate that restaurant!! then we went back to the hotel to rest ...So mi and derrick chatted in the room while waiting to mit his KL frens, Cheesoon and his gf,Emily...haha Cheesoon is a funny chap...nice guy...the gal oso not bad...juz tat she got a bit of black face..but after talkin to her, u find tat she is quite nice..then we went down to Asian Heritage Road and had some drinks there..i ordered a light drink, Midori 7-up..tink Mark wil be angry coz i promised him i wun drink...hee :p but i only drink a bit mar.. :p i wasnt drunk..haha so we went to a place for supper...had Maggie Goreng and iced milo..their Maggie goreng is quite nice i tink..haha then the couple drove us back our hotel..tat was like 3am in the morning!! Tired!! i will continue 2nd day tmr!!

Boring Friday Nite..

2006-06-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

Today is Friday..just met up with a fren, Alvin Cheng..He was going to be posted to Perth for 2 years for work..so i guess that is why he wanna meet up for dinner and catch up before he leaves..he called mi early in the morning when i was still at Eunos MRT station..haha so i sort of recognised his voice and at the same time, i still kept his contact number but when i picked up the hp, i didnt realise it was him calling..anyway, we arrange to meet up for dinner...supposed to go for tuition and i postponed it tmr...catching up with my frens after a long while is more impt...Frenship is impt to mi..haha

Had a busy and hectic day at work..i am on some slimming pills now...it seems to work but it is also giving mi some depression symptoms...i broke down last nite when i was talking to Mark...i finally cried while toking to mi...wanted him so much by my side..like i always say...he seems to have the calming ability on mi..he knows wat to say to make mi feel better...i was so stressed up at work...so many things piling up and he ask mi why am i stressed...he told mi tat a person feels stressed becoz of his perceived ability..when u feel tat u cant do something, u juz tink u cant do it and gives urself mental pressure..i listen to him and tot he was probably right in saying tat...he always known mi to be strong and independent...but to mi, crying is a form of destress...not weakness...i have this tendency to cry...must cry once in awhile which is why sometimes i can cry at any time...even over the most trivial things...haha..haiz...dunno la..i am complicated...haha

So work was more efficient and better today..at least i felt that i have accomplished something..anyway, i met up with Alvin for dinner...wanted to go Moonfish restaurant for dinner but it was closed!! i was so upset...where did Moonfish go to?? if anybody knows it whereabouts, please tag and let mi noe..thanks...so we drove to East Coast for dinner..had Stingray and satay...yummy...then we wanted to go for a drink...but i told him i am not drinking but juz having fruit punch..he was disappointed..coz he say drinking alone is boring...stubborn man...He said he was happy for mi as throughout our conversation, he felt tat i have grown up..as in more mature than we met the first time..i am not getting younger so i better mature asap then!!i guess Mark did make a difference..after i am with him, i guess i did changed alot..for the better as tatz wat many pple said..haha anyway, he drove mi home coz i told him i need to call Mark...hee i will die if i dun tok to him one day..haha

Juz now talking to Mark..he sounded a bit fustrated..Maybe itz becoz my phone volume was too small and he cant hear mi properly..i was hoping for a tinge of jealousy..hahaha but he respected my freedom and give mi his trust tat even if i am alone with my guy fren, he trusted and respected mi totally...and i love him for tat...Mark sounds perfect right..haha then again talk abit abt my work condition, my frens and also my credit bills...he noes i sold my hp and i told him abt the whole story..itz long and involves other people like gin and her bf...i guess i owe the bf a big favour but i will return him this favour by returning him the money...anyway, getting longer...Mark needs to wake up early tmr for duty so we just hanged up the call..

I just took a " What kind of gf are u" test...my test result:

Jacelyn is a Steady Supporter!!!

Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

Wow...i sound good right?? haha juz kidding...
Gonna sleep soon...tmr waking up early to accompany my family out for Fathers' Day lunch...hee

Msg for my darling:
Marque, je t'aime toujours… s'ennuyant de toi tellement… Je resterai toujours à côté de votre côté, n'importe ce que se produit à l'avenir.

Fucked up Sunday!!

2006-06-11T18:59:00.000+08:00

Arghz!!i got so many damn things to complain today!!!

1) MLM
I regretted doing MLM...all these people are just trying to sell u dreams by selling u product first then brainwash ur mind...i muz be naive to believe in that it will bring good money...but nvm...at least i tried and i noe it din work for mi...i decided sometime ago not to do MLM...coz i didnt really make money from it...not becoz i din work hard enuff..i worked very hard...i spend so much time, money and effort on this business...is it a business the first place?? i am still puzzling over this question...anyway, i wanted to get a refund for the products which i paid full upfront 2 months ago..stupid of mi to get seduced the 2nd time...i msg my fren whether i can get a refund...i tot it was ridiculous...but since i nv take the products , juz wan to gif it a try!then he say he got to ask some managers.He nv had such cases before. Wa liaoz...i was quite angry to hear that. U trying to tell mi that ur product is so good that nobody is rejecting it? oh pls, i got many frens who doesnt like the product...so wat if 10 million people are using it?u cant get 100% of the market...yah even if the product is so good, sorry it doesnt suit mi and i dun tink i need it..i got myself into a dilemma..i oreadi told myself that i din wan to step into this business again...but blinded by a short moment of greed to become a mgr straightaway, i paid full upfront...so he replied mi and say the pdt refund is only within 7 days of full payment..but then i paid 2 months ago...so juz wondering if it still applies ...besides i haven even collected the pdt...he say i cant get a refund... itz a company rule.. juz like i go buy shoe or clothes, the refund is 7 days or 14 days and in their case, itz 7 days...wa kaoz..i tot tat wasnt a fair statement..i mean does anyone paid upfront in full and waited 2 months to get ur clothes or shoes? tatz not logical wat!i am really pissed off by my fren...anyway, i am out of that stupid business...people out there, please tink twice before u really get urself engaged in this business...i am disappointed becoz i believed my fren noes that i am no longer interested in the business..he doesnt talk to mi as often...i felt used...as in now, i refused to work for u and ur many uplines, tatz how u treat a fren...

2) 21st Century Spa-Midpoint Orchard

This is a lousy beauty salon! please dun get their products coz their products sucks big time..useless and lousy!!i got to noe this beauty spa when i was shopping for some facial stuff in Guardian..so i bought Josephine product and got introduced to this beauty salon...itz horrible..anyway, after much persuasion from the beauticians, i got myself a 20 sessions TCM slimming package...i was too busy to go down to the salon...so finally, i decided tat money spent is spent so i may as well make use of it...i called the salon...the new beautician doesnt even understand what my package is and she wasnt even clear of what is happening...wa kaoz...Sauna machine down, TCM therapist in bukit timah, no one keeping track of my records even when itz retrievable from the computer and she can tel mi tat the salon is very busy!What the fuck? is it any business of mine that ur salon is busy?? u open the door for business and u jolly well make sure u got time for ur customers...if u cant handle, then dun take in so many!!!i will bring this to CASE and demand a refund of my remaining sessions...!!

3) Tiger Airways UOB

I was planning for a trip to Australia to visit my bf Mark..since i got the free Tiger AirWays air ticket due to application for Gold Tiger Airways Visa card, i was planning to make use of it to fly to Darwin and take domestic flight to Brisbane...can save about 300 dollars ba...now i a bit cash tight so if i can save, i try to save..using that voucher, i tried to go to UOB website to redeem...watever dates or flights i picked to Darwin, i cant book them at all...so i went to the normal Tiger Airways website and in the end, i can fly on any date and time i want...i felt very cheated...if they are not sincere to give the voucher then dun put it as a promo...i am going to call UOB tmr, screw them up and complain to CASE if they cant gif mi a good explanation! At the same time, i will cut the card and return it to them...i dun need this card if it cant bring mi any benefits...i may as well get a Krisflyer card...at least i can fly with SQ, better comfort and clocking miles to gif mi a free air ticket loh...wat the hell!!

I am going to be a miser...tight with my money and spend only when i need to!! becoz i have been spending my hard earned money like nobody's business....itz sad when i look back at it...

Mark...

2006-06-09T20:40:00.000+08:00

This is Mark...

08th June 2006

Most people might have realised tat i like to back date my diary..i make it a point to write down big things that happened to me...then my blog would be a complete life story of my own..then i can read them to my children, grandchildren and alot more people...everyone of us has a unique lifestory...each of us can come up with a storybook of our own..our own story..i was reading a book called " Tuesdays with Morrie" ..it talks about a student who heard of his dying professor and decides to pay him a visit...during many of the visits, they would meet up on Tuesdays...This book is very touching and interesting..as in it teaches you positive things...like i used to have aging phobia...i am scared of getting old...oh come on, who doesnt anyway?? I told myself and alot of my frens tat i am going to die at the age of 40 becoz i cant stand myself looking old and withered...come to think of it...after reading the book, Tuesday with Morrie and they talked about aging..

Are you afraid of aging?? but y should u be afraid of it? Aging is not just about looks..itz about growth...u learn as u grow..u gain experiences..like Morrie says, y would he be envious of young people when he has already been there himself? A young person has limited knowledge and experience of the world...being pushed by so many environmental factors like juz daily survival is enuff to disillusion the meaning of life..but an old man...he grow wiser, he gained experience and he has been through all the ages..he is 22,35,49 and at least 70 for a normal human lifespan now...i tot it was very silly to juz die away at the age of 40...how immature i was to forsake and give up life juz like tat...now i have Mark..i wan to stay alive as long as i can so that i can be with him till old age...Many a time, i envied old couples...when they can still hold hands and walk in the park..talking about their past...their stories...young couples dun do tat coz we are all too busy with work and neglected love and happiness where money cant buy them...tat comes from a dying old man...read the book..itz highly recommended...one of my fav quotes from Morrie : " Learn to die and you will learn to live."

Ok enuff of Aging...tat still sounds a bit scary...haha I was talking to Mark over the phone..talking about my credit card bill..itz horrendous this month..hmm...i am having a bit of problems to pay up and so looking for money now...i muz learn a painful lesson then i will be good..if not, i will juz spend atrociously..i have been spending money wilfully..i sort of regret it..now muz learn how to save so that i have spare cash for rainy days..i have been working for close to a year..but sad to say, i did not save a single cent...where did all my money go?? i dunno...juz been spending recklessly..so now i am determined to set myself budgets and learn how to manage my finance better...itz horrible without money...mark wanted to know where i spend my money..hmm..i am Leo, i wan my pride...when i am rich...i dun mind flaunting..but when i am poor, i am quiet and homely...haha ok i noe he cares for mi and wan mi to learn to manage my finance..i am learning and itz still not too late ba..haha so he wanted to give mi money to help mi clear my bill...but i dun feel good taking his money juz like tat...maybe itz becoz of my parents...i seen my mum taking money from my dad and he will not be really happy to give it...hmm..i sort of tell myself tat i wun take money from my bfs coz i dun wan them to tink that they can control mi...something like i will become a 2nd class citizen...aiyah all in all i am a egoistc gal...haha second thing, i tink monetary problems can be solved..monetary problems arent really problems unless u got millions in debts...i tink...so i tink i can solve it myself..i was the one who created the stupid mess anyway...haiz...so i din wan Mark to help mi..if i get money too easily, i oso wun learn..but he sounded quite upset when i kip refusing his help...after the credit topic, we changed to the topic of saving...so i told him saving is impt and asked mi y...so i say saving for rainy day and for wedding oso loh...so i told him that a lot of fortune tellers say i cannot get married early at least by 27..coz if not, i will end up divorce...some truth in it...coz until before mark, i nv had a stable relationship..if i had juz married anyone of them,i would have been divorced..anyway, he was juz surprised y i trusted the fortune tellers so much...not say believed them...coz i always believed like 70% of ur destiny lies in ur hands and 30% lies in the hands of the Almighty....anyway, i told him getting married at 27 is good..coz i will be 27 in 3 years time...it will Year 2009..9th Sept 2009!! good date right...hahaha tat day confirmed many people wil get married loh..haha haiz...later we hanged up the call..then i msg and ask if he was angry with mi...so he told mi tat he was surprised that i trusted the fortune teller..hmm..so i said i was juz kidding..and seriously i am not really serious..i mean if the time comes and i feel the time is right...it doesnt matter..date is meaningless if his love is not true and forever..so he msg mi and say : he was upset last nite because i made him feel distant by refusing his help...and he say he wanna marry mi asap instead of waiting for a nice date...hee...

My new shelves in my room!!

2006-06-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

This are the 2 shelves i am talking abt!! one level for my fav storybooks..not enuff to put all so i juz put those that i like...the 2nd level for my perfume..my speakers when i put my mp3 player...i like my room to be neat and simple...dun haf to be complicated..but at least clean and tidy..these 2 shelves may seem simple and easy but i wanted them sometime ago..juz tat i didnt have the time to go Ikea to shop and no energy to hammer the shelves up my walls! haha

This is my bedroom...itz only half of it..i only like my bed, my blue curtains and my study table...my youngest sister, Regina sleeps with mi...Her bed is on the opposite..but itz always so messy u juz cant stand the sight..oh the little yellow duck..it was a bdae gift by Ting fang and Gek kia..i still kip it... =) i cant stand light and noise when i am going to sleep..i am a light sleeper like my bf Mark..haha

Finally i got a room which I wanted...heehee...not very perfect yet but at least i got what i wan!! thanks to Karen's bf Marcus...he did the shelves all by himself...i feel so bad to make him do the tough job! Thanks!! now take a look at my room!

Fustration!!!

2006-06-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

03rd June 2006

Today Marcus, my sis bf brought all of us out for lunch to advance celecbrate my mum's bdae ..so we went to Dragon Gate Restaurant at Harbour Front...itz a buffet of close to 50 chinese dishes for only $30 per head..haiz...a bit waste for mi coz i dun really eat much...i am on serious diet..haha anyway, we had a big feast consisting of a bowl of shark fins, then a few dishes of prawns, crabs and crayfish..yummy...my fav cereal prawns..the prawns arent that big..crabs also not very delicious...but buffet so cant expect too much..had 2 big fishes and soft shell crabs..tatz really nice!! Duck and chicken abit...but Ah xi finished one big plate of crayfish all by herself!! so unfair..she eats so much more than mi but she will nv grow fat...how i wish i can be thin like my sis Ah xi...haha

Then we drove my mum to Ikea and bought 2 planks and stands for my room..wanna put my perfumes up for display!! then we went home and i had a terrible headache...dunno y but juz headaches coming more and more frequently.. i took 2 panadols and went to buy calling card so that i can call Mark tonite...i called Derrick on my way..coz June told mi he was angry with mi for neglecting him after i had a bf...i find it ridiculous...i mean we have been frens for 5 years..we nv really kip in contact for 3 years and only recently, we got back into contact...sort of like meeting up more often..he said i forget frens becoz i have bf..oh my god..is it my fault for not calling my frens? they dun come and look for mi when i was single and even when i am single, i oso seldom look for them..so watz the big deal now that i haf a bf and i dun go find them?? besides , Mark only stayed in S'pore for 1 month and flying Australia for 3 months..i dun tink there is anything wrong with mi kiping my bf company...not saying that i am very right to neglect my frens but back to the point that we dun contact one and another be it i am single or not...sort of like accusing mi of 'want bf dun want fren' ..i used to be like tat...i admit it but even June and Ginny noes that i have changed...i learnt my lessons that even when i am attached, i shouldnt be neglecting my frens...esp close ones like june, kailing and ginny...they are the ones who stood by mi when i am down and out..so i promised myself i will nv neglect my frens even if i am attached..

Boon was another one...when i called him, he sarcastically said that he has deleted my number...wa liaoz...funny guys lehz...i mean u all dun come and find mi when i am single oso wat..ok for boon, i am really apoplogetic...he has been in Air Force school for course the few days..promised to mit him for lunch but i last min turn him down twice...ok first time i was sick and i oreadi took mc from work..so i cant mit him...then 2nd time, our lunch timing cant match...he ridiculously wan mi to change my lunch time to accomodate him..wa liaoz...tatz unreasonable right..i dun own the company and the company have rules to follow wat...nvm...then i tell him mit on thursday for dinner..but Ginny was injured and i got to see her...when i tell him tat, he come tell mi tat i am giving excuses...wa liaoz..if i dun wan to mit, i got so much time to go and draft up a lie or excuse? tatz plain silly right...may as well i juz reject him the first time...Stop accusing mi of tat! i cant stand it loh...everybody is busy and if we cant mit up this time ,there will also be other times....This is irritating..

I called Mark last nite..we chatted for an hour..chat about my work..i am not happy there...haiz..i love the job but i dun like the pay...itz too low...or maybe becoz i dunno how to manage my finance...tatz y i kip finding myelf trapped in a rat race...itz tiring...arghz...fustration!! anyway..itz really nice to tok to him...he has this ability to calm mi down...juz by his voice..even not seeing him...i can still feel his presence.his way of calming and soothing my fustrations...didnt wan to tell him about my frens..but i wan someone to listen...haiz...y are all my frens so weird??? esp Derrick...i dunno y the hell he is angry...he didnt contact mi when he has a gf and i only occasionally tell June abt it...wa liaoz..but i wasnt angry at all coz i understand tat most of us wanna spend time with ur loved ones...i am ok...but y cant i be doing the same?? be more fair can???

I miss Mark...really miss him alot...he is only in Australia less than a week...but i am missing him so much...at least he will be the one to listen to mi and calm mi down..i guess all the while, i have been looking for him and i am glad he has appeared at this point in my life...I hope everyone will find their Mr/Ms Right soon...and basking urself in love...to enjoy the company and understanding shown to each other...

My OBS Photos!!

2006-06-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

Our certificate presentation!! End of course..Well done guys...itz been fun to work and enjoy this short course with you...will remember this always...

Preparing my jump into the sea...this could be the scariest moment in my life... but i am glad I did it!!

Our Raft out in the Sea and still in one piece!!

Our raft..All out to go and challenge the Sea!! Our Motto : To keep Rafts Floating Safely!!

Taking a group photo with David, our trainer and Mr Choo, our GM!!

14 of us trying all our very best to balance on the long log..Log Mee!!

In the forest where we were all blindfolded and finding our way from Home Tree to the End Tree..Try it..takes alot of team work and co-operation!!

Matchstick game with Planner, Comm1 and 2, Builder and QC!!

Our first game of our OBS trip Helium Hoop...this is not easy!! You should try it!!

Mark Leaving For Brisbane..

2006-05-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

28th May 2006

Today Mark is leaving for Brisbane..we had late breakfast in the morning and we came home and watch tv...helping him pack his lugguage at the same time..watched some variety shows and we were getting bored!!Mark asked mi if i wanna go out for shopping..he suggested Junction 8...i suddenly remembered that we wanna take picture together before he leaves..so off we go...hee he asked mi what to wear..so i asked him to wear the black top we bought together at Topshop..his jeans and his shoes that he bought together with mi...wah he looks very shuai loh...haha Mark looks good in most of the clothes so easy to buy things for him...hee ..then i sprayed some Issey Miyaki perfume which i bought for him...he doesnt spray perfume so i am teaching him how to use it...he is not those vain guys who really bothers the way they dress..he is easy going, simple...as long as it is comfortable, itz fine with him...haha so we went Bishan Junction 8..we went to NTUC to buy some stuff and then we went to buy chicken chop from ShihLin...the Taiwanese chicken chop! Yummy..then we proceeded for our phototaking...hee ...he seems very uneasy with it..but like i say, he gives in to mi..so if i wan, he will juz take...i wonder y so many guys dun like to take photos...will upload the photos once i scanned it in....hee then we went back home...to his place ..his mum cooked for him so i tot it would be better if he goes home for dinner and show some appreciative thoughts for his mum efforts..we went up and saw his parents...arghz...i feel a bit paiseh..haha then he got this little cute baby in his parents' house...Mark's niece...6mths old only..so chubby and cute!!Yixuan came and picked Mark to the airport ...but first we went to Tampines mall to pick up his Oakley Sunglasses...the man didnt repair it very well...so he exchanged with Yixuan's sunglasses...then we reached the airport and he checked in his lugguage...we had dinner at Sakae Sushi...his frens, Yixuan, Zu Liang,Stanley, Stan's gf Jessica and Freddy and Christopher came to send him off...i was so sad that he was going to leave mi for 70 days...haiz...but i noe he will be back very soon...

OBS Trip

2006-05-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

26th May 2006

Today no need to go work...but i have to go for my OBS course!! itz a 2D1N course at Outward Bound Singapore which is at Pulau Ubin..I haven been to Pulau Ubin before..so itz a new experience to mi...we reached the jetty...participants were Khoo, Hwee Thiam, Mui Sang, LingPo, Alvin, Sze hao, Wilman, Justin, Bryan,Jiawei,Kenneth, Gabriel,Fabian,Lei..we are from different departments in Engines...so itz a nice trip to actually create bonding and team building spirit...tatz the main purpose of this OBS..our trainer is David...hmm i guess the name David is a very successful name lehz...haha next time, if i have a kid, i will him David too...haha anyway, tatz still too far away..

We took a ferry ride which is 20mins away from Punggol Jetty...then we reached OBS and we went to a training room named Denali...i tink itz the name of a summit...anyway, we had ice-breaker games..one of the game was called Helium Hoop...15 of us wil have to put out our two fingers and try to move the Helium Hoop from a height then down to the bottom at the floor..it was tough...coz u may think u are not touching it..somehow, the hoop was suspending and at one side ,it will always be tilting...very hard to control...haha we had 3 tries but we failed...then we proceed to play a game 'Key Punch'...there were a total of 14 numbers and 4 alphabet cards on the floor and they are bounded by a rope...so each of us will have to step on the number when it is called and numbers are called in ascending values...so i realise that '7' and '11' is missing...the alphabets are ' C K P U' if u go by ascending...haha we were split into two teams...my team with Sze hao, Alvin, Khoo,Gabriel, Hwee Thiam, Kenneth and mi...i am in charge of calling numbers...they used their hands to key in the numbers...calls for alot of co-operation and teamwork...we lost to the other team by mere 3 seconds but each trial we took, we improved the timing due to the change in strategy..haha so we improved the process to improve the results...

Then we played a game which involves paasing msgs...there are 5 roles...Planner(Khoo,Alvin): He will get to see a template or picture made up by matchsticks...then he will describe the picture to Comm 1(Gabriel) ...Comm 1 then conveyed what was described to Comm 2..Comm 2(Hwee Thiam) will eventually passed the msg to the Builder(Kenneth and Sze hao) who will build the diagram...So the team that won used a Walkie talkie..we gotta walk from point to point to Convey Msg..I was the Quality controller...to actually observed how they passed msg around and the quality of the work at the end of the building...I guessed i did my job as a QC and our team won coz i have a better control over quality..but everyone played an important part to ensure the info is not lost and the builder noe what they are building.. Then we had lunch ...after that we went to climb a mountain...itz a small side hill actually...so we are supposed to move from one tree to the other but we are blindfolded...so how are we going to do that in 45 mins...too much time lost in planning and mission failed! haiz...but i tink we did well coz we were closed to the end tree!!

We had some physical activites like climbing the inverse tower...itz very very high...we split into 2 teams , one to climb the exterior and the other to climb the interior tower...exterior is more challenging and it involves couple climb...2 people strapped together...to reach the top we have 5,000 points..Lei was the project manager and we target 20,000 interior and 20,000 exterior...when it was my turn to climb..wah i was scared!!the first part was to clear a vertical rock climbing wall...half way through, i tot i was dying...itz very tall as well...and u cant seem to find the right rock to step on...scary!! then we have to climb onto the logs which they have handles to hold on...wah the climbing over part was horrible...like nothing for u to platform and step on...i nearly wanted to gif up..after the logs, i climbed on to climb the rubber tyres...if i reached rubber tyres, i would have gain 1,500 points...but i am juz curious how far i can go...and i am not willing to juz get tat 1,500 for my contribution to my team!! with Jiawei and the encouragement from the rest, i hang on and continue to climb...i climbed to the last stage...the cargo net before reaching the final platform!...haha VICTORY!! i climbed and touched that stupid platform...i was scared of coming down coz belayer was Muisang...she was thinner than mi...but u muz have trust in the person belaying u...juz like in a corporation, u muz learn to trust the work that is delegated to the person..believing that they will put in their best effort to perform their roles...

Finally,it was dinner time...tired and shag!!we went to bunk in our rooms..we shared a big room with the guys but of coz there were proper doors...so we bathed and proceed to the cookhouse for dinner...then we went back to our training room for our big project..i was arrowed to be the project leader...itz like a building raft project...but i need to get money for buliding materials and we oso have to appoint a chief engineer and that will be Khoo! then i assigned Bryan and Fabian to do design for company logo...Our company motto: We Keep Rafts floating safely! The design was very cute with 4 little rubber ducklings...haha anyway, well done Bryan and Fabian...then we had our raft building...mainly Khoo, Jiawei and wilman who have experience in tat...Then the rest was split into raising money..meaning participate in games and get the money... last min tatic changes...instead of jetty jump and 80s' medley...we included other things to make sure we can get more money...like folding aeroplanes to fly more than 10m..3 groups instead of 1 to sing the 80s Medley which is like singing 6 songs in 2mins...haha the songs are really corny...then we played trapped...2 inter-twined strings to be un-entangle and free 2 persons...then we played Moon ball to pass a big ball around for 50 times...tiring...we played Log Mee and that is all 14 people to be standing on the log and balanced for 20seconds...The last game was Traffic Jam...that is 2 groups standing in a tile arranged in V shape...and u have a empty tile at the vertex..we have to completely swopped A to B and B to A...we accomplished that too...

Then it was raft building!! We built our raft..GM, Mr Choo was here to cheer for us too..our raft was steady and good...haha went out to 50m and back without disintegration!!after we were back, we went for Jetty Jump...i didnt dare to jump and GM asked y i nv jump...i am scared ...under peer pressure and encouragement, i decided to jump...i was scared so David got Khoo and Alvin down in the water to wait for mi...scary...at the moment of the jump, 2 seconds seem really long...as in how come haven touched the water yet!! and i started breathing with the water in my nose and mouth...was coughing when i was out of the water man!!yeah..i overcome 2 fears...height and deep sea!! haha then we went back to tear down our raft and we went back to bathe and have lunch...had a debrief and our certificates presentation..off we go..had tea break with Yip and David Goh...Yip drove mi,Lei and Alvin from Punggol Jetty...haha so nice...it was raining manz!!

hee finally, i can mit up with my darling Mark...hee met him and i was late and he got angry...opps...then we went to change money coz he is leaving for Brisbane tmr...then we went back his home...he was going to attend a bbq by his fren/buddy , Meng so i juz joined him..it was rather weird when i was there...coz i totally dunno them at all...no appetite to eat at all too...so Mark ate there and Stanley came to pick us up from Meng's place...we went Orchard for night shopping and supper at NYDC....

Nice memories...

2006-05-29T20:24:00.000+08:00

24th May 2006

Have been too busy spending time with my dear and no time to update my blog...the blogs will mean a lot to mi as it will record sweet and beautiful memories with Mark...he is different...i really hope that he will be one I will spend my whole life with...he treats mi well...i feel loved and i feel his sincerity and he really cares for mi...itz really after meeting up with the wrong ones and u noe who is the right one for u...thanks to those lousy guys i had met before Mark..if not, i might not be able to appreciate what he does and his love...

He made mi angry yesterday..not really angry...Yesterday,i told Mark i am going OBS for 2D1N course for my company..so he told mi he will be leaving for Brisbane to continue his flight training for 70days this coming sunday...I was very sad as i cant spend enuff time with him..coz i sort of predicted he will leave on this weekend...coz he told mi he will be leaving quite soon...juz not confirmed...haiz..but God wasnt too bad to mi as i still have the entire sat and sun to see him before he goes...I was at Ktv last nite with Gin...she was feeling upset about her bf...she has finally decided to leave him...though i noe it hurts , but i oso noe itz for the better...he is not a really fantastic guy to Gin...i definitely feel that my precious gal deserved much better than this...anyway, i hope this is the real ending soon for this relationship..i noe God will bless her with someone who will really love and treat her well...for God doesnt mistreat kind hearted people...*crossed our fingers* so while trying to settle her problems with her bf on the phone, i was left alone in the Ktv room for an hour...Alone..i was a bit angry coz i dun understand y she still have so much to talk to this unreasonable man..anyway, i msg Mark and told him i am going for OBS this fri..so he was alright and understand that i have to go for it...but somehow i find his response very bo chap...so i msg and ask him "y u so bo chap? u still like mi?" i tink this msg will piss alot of people off..i havent been very understanding and sweet to him i guess...he ask mi not to be so sensitive...juz that he was tired and dun wanna type long msg...haiz...i guess work, gin and mark juz come together and make mi feel very fustrated...so i din reply him..*angry*

So today, he asked mi if i wanna mit him...so i say can mit for dinner loh..so he say go Serangoon Gardens..we go there quite often for dinner after we are together..hee the food is very nice there...at around 5 before i knocked off..he say he wanna rest a while and asked mi go up his place then go out later..after i reached his place, i juz sat down and read newspaper...he was hiding in the kitchen...dunno wat he wanna do...i still angry so i didnt bother to look at what he was doing..some minutes later, he took out 2 pots..hee he cooked carbonara sauce with mushrooms and a pot of macaroni..hee the first time my bf cooked for mi...very sweet hor...hee he put some bacon bits to enhance the taste...itz a simple dinner but itz an unforgettable one...coz itz the first time a guy cooked a proper meal for mi.....i wun forget this...

Hmm..after dinner we juz watched tv and chat...hee we can spend one whole day juz chatting and watching tv...How many movies have we watched?? 1st one was Reincarnation...2nd one was Fragile...3rd one was Aquamarine..4th one was Voice and 5th one was MI3..6th one was Da Vinci code...tatz a lot of movies...Mark gives in alot to mi..as in he will always ask mi wat i like to eat or watch...hmm...but he doesnt now what i like to eat, what i dun like to eat..wat colours i like...wat flowers i like...wat design i like..see he got so many things he dunno...haiz but he has mentioned to mi that he is not a sensitive guy..so i muz tell him wat i wan...if not, he oso wun noe...as in he is lousy in guessing...haha...i only noe he doesnt like bright colours...he likes things to be simple...i can roughly guess wat kind of clothes he like coz i went shopping and chose his clothes for him...hee we went shopping at Marina Square after mothers' Day celebration with my grandparents at Fook Yuan Restaurant...He came and met my mum for second time and my aunt the first time...their impression of him was rather good..juz tat my mum finds him a bit unstable...oso dunno what she meant by that...then we went shopping for clothes before he flies to Brisbane..

Other things he did includes going with mi to the hair salon to wait for mi to finish my rebonding...my rebonding took 5 hours...he came at 3 plus and waited for mi to be done for 3 hours...i was touched then too..coz he is my first bf who waited patiently for mi to finish my hair...Mark cannot wait coz he is rather impatient...dun be late when u are out with him...haha i like him for this punctuality coz he doesnt waste time..he understands that his time are just as precious as other people time...thatz good...coz alot of people dun realise that...He did alot of things for mi..itz either i met really lousy fellas in the past or Mark is just the perfect type of bf that gals wanna have...haha oops..abit arrogant liaoz... :p i take note of little actions...itz the little actions that he does which makes up the big picture of what is love...

Event of the Month- STA Coastal Run and OBS!!

2006-05-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

20th May 2006

Today is the coastal run...haiz..wasnt quite prepared for it coz i haven been running for years!! hahaha but my HRM sees that i am young and full of vitality so he decided to put mi in the mixed relay competition team...i took a cab early in the morning and reached carpark B1 ..i tink i was at the wrong carpark..the map was so poorly drawn...i couldnt see anyone there so i quickly called Sze Hao..then few minutes later, i saw his car..his parents sent him and Justin here...so i walked towards them without realising that there was an opening in the drain...i stepped right into the drain and felt a sudden jerk in my thigh...the drain was very deep becoz even when my whole leg went in, i cant feel the bottom of the drain..i quickly pulled out my leg..all i noe is the drain was damn dirty and itz damn painful...i got 2 big bruises on my thigh and one big bruises at my knee cap...horrible....haiz cannot wear skirt liaoz...anyway, becoz i cant run then my team was disqualified becoz itz a requirement to have a lady in ur team...we cant find another lady so the team cant run...after the run, then we went macdonald's to have breakfast with Wilman, Bryan, Justin,Sze hao, carol and Edna..haha so nice....then after that,Edna drove mi home...she is such a nice and generous gal...hee yup after that I went out with Mark to orchard shopping and watch movie Da Vinci code...i tink the movie was quite long and not really that exciting..Mark as really disappointed with the show...haha

Which Was the Day I found Happiness??

2006-05-05T16:04:00.000+08:00

28th April 2006..
Today is a Friday..I worked hard for the whole day...even forgoing my lunch ...because there are just too many work to be done...i am so tired, stunned, stressed and stoned after a day's hard work...Mark and I arranged to meet up that day for dinner...i was wondering if i should stood him up coz i am really too tired to tok and too stoned to tink of anything else except the seabreeze at East Coast to calm mi down...However, i tot that i should not stood him up since we have arranged to meet...We met at Boat Quay and went to a Japanese restaurant...Mark doesn’t like Sashimi…he just cant stand eating raw stuff..haha..Upon seeing him at the mrt station, i tot i made the right choice to come to mit him...after toking to him, he was able to make me feel relaxed and comfortable...Having dinner with him is fun...coz he is always full of crap..and i like it when he describes his flight courses to mi...Interesting..haha We went to Mindgames cafe after dinner...he was telling mi how much fun he had the other day and promised to bring mi there...There we are...haha at first , i tot it was going to be bored..i nv really like board games...but itz the companion that u have that changed the mood for the things u do...haha so ok i tot juz play awhile with him la...Quite Fun i tink...u can purchase a package for around 2 hours for 2 persons, plus 2 drinks,1 titbits and 1 snackers...quite worth it...better than loitering around doing nothing...playing board games is a way of ice breaker...haha can just bring 2 or more people closer coz there are more interaction...
At first, I was still unsure if I wanted a bf at this point of time…a lot of questions and uncertainty…He held my hands when we were on our way home…cant describe the feeling…something like when u juz started falling in love…Maybe I haven had a real bf for a long time…reading through my blogs, u will realise I have a lot of crushes here and there but it nv materialise…a lot of failed relationships…I sort of distrust and even not willing to step into a relationship again…but Mark makes it different…I dunno how different…but juz DIFFERENT..haha I dunno how long we can last but he promised to try to make it work…The first guy who say this to mi…I tink he is a gift from Heaven to me..haha so we went home and the date ended…

29th April 2006
I met up with Ruyi today to catch up with her…Haven seen her a long time…wanted to intro Mark to her as well but she gotta leave early…we took a set of sticker photos and had fun posing for it…will upload the pictures later…then we walk around chatting and talking about Mark..haha..anyway, Ruyi went off and Mark came to mit mi at Bugis. We went to C.A.N Café for coffee and I had a Sunset Boulevard..It was raining when we were at the café..we just sit and chat the whole day until it was time to move off..went to Somerset Cineleisure for movie and dinner… Watched a movie called "Aquamarine" ..haha itz a show about a mermaid, trying to prove to her dad that there is love on earth…Her father wans her to find it in 3 days..if not, she will be forced to marry a stinky Optopus..hmm so she bumps into 2 gals who tried to teach her how to win the heart of a good looking hunk…the whole show is rather girly…haha actually wanted to watc hwith my gfs so got more things to say..but no one is free to watch…in the end, I dragged Mark to go watch with mi…The hunk is really cute and the mermaid looks really beautiful…Before that , we went for dinner at Maestro Bistro at Cineleisure…Shouldn’t keep asking Mark to the Western restaurant coz he eats them all the time in Australia…nvm will ask him go hawker another time..after movie, then he sent mi home…
We chatted on the phone and he was claiming himself to be my bf oreadi..but he haven even asked mi the question so I grilled him until he asked…haha :p but to mi, dates arent tat important anymore..coz after he becomes a pilot, then most of the time, he wun be able to celebrate with mi on the actual day itself…so I juz remember the date can liaoz…so sad…he will be going to Australia, Brisbane for 3 months training and he will be back to Singapore for good..hmm…dun really wan him to go…but this is his career…anyway, he will come back..not as though posted to Australia for longer periods..hee

30th April 2006
I msg Ting Fang and asked if she wanna mit for dinner..she was miting her bf Gek Kia for dinner at Suntec…so asked mi if I wanna join…so I tot may as well get Mark to go as well..haha anyway, Tingfang knows about Mark coz I told her abt it! Haha..it was really great to see Tingfang…I haven seen her for donkey years oreadi…wondering how have she been…kinda busy most of the time both ourselves…we went to Suntec and walked around the place..Mark went to Samsonite to look for his flight case but couldn’t find something he wants…so we went off to Millenia Walk at my fav restaurant, Moonfish!! Haha itz really nice but I guess I had too much junk food in the day so I cant eat much at nite..Mark doesn’t eat much as well..he was much thinner now compared to the times when he was at NUS..then we went to Suntec arcade for some games…haha haven been to arcade for a long time…We were playing this game..itz quite interesting…it tests you on ur response speed..all u need to do is to stack moving blocks on top of the other such that u will enter into 2 phases for Major and minor prizes…Major prizes includes digital cam and handphones…Minor prizes will be sweets only..haha so we were expecting Mr Pilot to get the big prize but he didn’t…haha anyway , itz his first time playing mar...We played Time Crisis 3.. Fun….then we walked to Citilink coz Tingfang was saying there is very nice Polar ice-cream…so we went there for dessert..I had a Elderflower sorbet and Mark had a Chocolate lemongrass flavoured ice cream cone…Yummy..quite exotic flavours they have..After that, mi and Mark walked to Fullerton House where the Esplanade was…we sat there looking at the sea and the merlion and oso chatted…dunno how come got so many things to tell him…tatz one thing good, we nv go out of topics!! =)

1st May 2006
Terrence was in Superband Competition..his team is Jade…I think they really have the Superband looks…I mean I personally like bands who played instruments rather than just knowing how to sing…however, when I saw him on stage , it was quite a disappointment…he sang Mayday’s song and I didn’t think he could bring out the power of it…a choice of wrong song as I see it…I went ktv with him before and I swear he could do 10 times better than what he did on stage…I guess maybe he wasn’t feeling well, tatz y he didn’t perform to standard….his team was given very low points by one of the judges, Xu..I tot tat guy was rather prejudice against the group..i mean I saw other lousier team than theirs..Anyway, hope Terrence and his band will bring back what is Jade..Evergreen! haha good luck dude!

3rd May 2006
Met Mark today at Starbucks coffee..It was such a coincidence that Tingfang and Shiwei was there as well…so we had a short chat and they were talking about going to girls’ party one of these days..anyway, mark is rather crappy…he always crap a lot with Tingfang…I tink Tingfang will remember him all her life because when they stayed in Hall, Mark was the Rag Team chairman..Rag and Flag day is a tradition in NUS where all the Halls will gather used items and make into big floats…we do it professionally…with static display, performance and of coz our representative float..i participated once and it was rather unforgettable…the beauty of team spirit…I heard from Tingfang that Mark was very fierce and strict with all the Rag team members…haha…I think he is a good leader!!
Mark is very caring...but what attracts mi to him most is that we can communicate...he does show the very mature and cool look whenever he talks about his flights...tatz when he looks very charismatic...he looks very cute when he tries to act chidish...haha ..he is humorous...i like guys with good humor...he is sporty....He is an Aries...Mark is very smart too..he doesn’t study much for his tests but he always get very good grades..i like guys with intelligence..haha I guess I didn’t picked a wrong guy…!

Play Hard during my Week End...How abt U??

2006-04-25T14:18:00.000+08:00

21st April 2006

Today is Friday at work...Recap what i did on Friday...I met up with June for dinner and we went Sakae Sushi for dinner...tatz the good thing about singles...haha u can juz get them anytime to do watever u wan..haha we had Salmon Sashimi..Shisamo..Agedashi tofu and a few other variety of sushis...yummy...so when it was time to call for bill, the waitress missed out a red plate which is our salmon sashimi..haha i realised it only when we were at the counter..oops...so we had a free plate of sashimi...after our sushi dinner, we went to Party world for a ktv session...tink i smoke and drink too much...we had a good time at the ktv until Bao ling came and join us..yup added on to the fun..haha so we sang till 12am..Mark told mi he will be miting Gek Kia, Pitt and Ian at double O for drinks..so I tot haven seen the guys for sometime and i asked if the ladies were ok to go...Wah alot of first time to double O...haha like not dressing properly ( juz T-shirts and jeans and slippers, no make up, hair in a bun for mi) ..haha then we went to the dance floor and dance for a while then joined Mark and my other frens..Had a good chat...Gekkia is leaving for LA for a year and the guys decided to mit up before he leaves...everybody now so busy with work..anyway, Ian still hasnt changed much...haha still as vulgar as before..haha Gek kia didnt change...still as thin and Pitt getting rounder by the day!! haha so after that we went home and tatz my Friday nite..

25th April 2006

Oh my god..tink i have played too much during my weekend...2 nights at Double O...oh the cigarettes, the drinks whisky and rum...wah...my sore throat and flu...killing mi liaoz..i slept more than 12 hours after i took a half day leave from work...tiring...then gonna see doc this morning and Mark accompanied mi to see a doc..haha very nice and sweet of him hor...hee then we went to had lunch...i wanted a fish porridge but he got mi another type..the Teochew porridge...i dun like tat and so he bought mi another set...haha Tingfang is right..he can be very sweet and nice...hmm...but tatz kind of early to say..i tink maybe most of guy frens will do tat for mi when i am sick..haha coz i am irresistible!! too cute liao mar..haha ;P then my mum came looking for mi and she saw Mark..but mum didnt make any comments about him yet..hmm...so i also nv ask her...hee nvm she will tell mi when the time is right...he went back to work and i went back home...here i am typing this entry...going to sleep liaoz...if not, no energy for work tmr!! =)

My Saturday Nite Out!!

2006-04-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

15th April 2006

I slept at 430am becoz of watching tv last nite..haha so woke up at around 230pm and i saw Mark msg..Mark is my senior in Engineering and he did Civil Engineering..he was older than me by 3 years old..we got to know each other when i stayed in Temasek hall during my first year...didnt really see each other after i left Hall and didnt kept in contact for sometime..only some msgs over Friendster...He was back 3 days ago after his flight training in Australia...He is going to be a pilot with SIA...now undergoing cadet training...so he will be staying in Singapore for 2 months before going back Brisbane for his ground school...

Was quite surprised to receive his msg but nevertheless, it was a pleasant surprise that he has asked mi out to catch up...haha itz nice to mit up with old buddies..so we met for dinner at NYDC ..Before dinner, he wanted to watch movie so we went to Cineleisure to get tix for a show, Reincarnation..I haven watch horror movie for a long time...so this Jap one would be a good start..After tat, we walked to NYDC for our dinner..he had a 3 Amigos baked pasta and iced cappucino..I had a Mushroom ham baked rice and lemon shiver...Yummy...going to grow fat liaoz! *sighz* anyway, we chatted about his training in Australia, my work with ST Aerospace and a lot more things...Surprisingly, we had quite alot to talk about..haha then it was still early for our movie coz our movie starts at 1135pm..we finished dinner at around 9pm..so we went to HMV Heeren and strolled...but nothing much to see and he suggested playing billiard...haha good..i oso haven been playing billiard...played 2 games for an hour plus and we walked back for the movie...

Reincarnation...not a bad show i tink...the plot is about a murder that took place 35 years ago in a hotel, where a professor killed his own family as well as some other people in the hotel which totalled up to 11 people...Reincarnation..so meaning these dead victims has reincarnated...A movie director wanted to put this murder case to real screen..so he picked on a girl to act as the 6-year old daughter of the professor and she was the last one to be killed..They went to the murder scene and everything starts coming to her as 'Memories'..she will see this little girl here and there with her doll...each scene she took was so real..she tot she was the little gal that was killed...towards the end of the show, she was actually the reincarnation of the murderer, the father...so it was quite nice with a bit of child play scene in it coz the doll moved!! haha during the movie, Ginny msg mi and asked if i wanna mit..so i say can ...then went to East Coast to meet her with Mark..but i did ask Ginny if she mind and she say itz ok..coz i tot Mark hasnt been sleeping well and he wun sleep early so i asked him to go together with us...

Ginny arrived shortly after..we reached there at 2am..we chatted and talk about organizing a bbq next sat..so ginny will get the pit and i will get the people..haha Mark was commenting about our high efficiency!!then Ginny left at 4am coz she going to fetch her brother at east coast Mac...so left mi and Mark at East Coast..we had a long chat until 6am in the morning...wah..finally, we decide to go home and sleep!! haha tired after all the talk...haha so reached home...but i didnt have cash so i tried to use Credit card...tat taxi driver cc machine was not working properly so in the end, i got to go back home and take cash for the fella!!so angry...

anyway, i really had fun today..coz i haven been watching movie and playing billiard for a long time..been working too hard!! =)

More Photos...The last batch!!

2006-04-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

The gifts that I bought home..1 plate for Sze hao (Wedding Gift) and 1 for Jiawei (Hope he getting married soon..haha) ,1 lamp for Ginny..

Paintings of Marrakech..

Leaving Casablanca..The Atlantic Waters..

Marrakech has beds of roses everywhere!

Roasted Lamb!But i dun like lamb meat...

The market place outside Souk..

Snacks stall!

From the left, Mr Guna, mi, Capt Hou and Capt Seah outside the big market Souk!!

The mosque in Marrakech..

The scenery outside the train..Lumix FX2 is great!!

Morocco Trip Photos!!

2006-04-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

A stall selling nice wollen caps..

From the left, Capt Seah,Mi and Capt Hou..

See the land and the horizon?? Beautiful isnt it?? Itz Atlantic Ocean from the aircraft!

Mi and My Makila Engine!!

Mi in the white Moroccan dress..

Mr Guillaume LeBlanc on the left...Oh he is very cute!! haha see the henna mark on my hands??

Mi and Mr Andre, the strong man who carried mi on his shoulders!!

Shoes shop..You wun find people wearing it in Singapore!!

Colourful Plates...They are not cheap!

Shop selling metallic hardware..Like Pewter and silver..

A shop selling all sorts of lamps in Morocco..Pretty??

My Hotel Room 6103 in Royal Mirage Hotel!!

Mi in the train from Casablanca to Marrakech!!

Update of My Morocco Trip!!

2006-04-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

5th April 2006

2nd Day of my stay in Marrakech…

Breakfast was served in the morning at 7am..i woke up and get myself ready for a new start in Morocco..haha..so I met Mr Guna at the restaurant Le Brassiere…we had breakfast at 7am...we proceeded to the Danes Room for general session for an hour..The room was well decorated and full of the Moroccan flavour..the lamps were special with the beautiful backdrop and a warm welcome from the Turbomeca people..Turbomeca is a French company that actually designs and manufactures aero engines mainly for helicopters..they command 50% of the heli-engine market in the world and they were expanding rapidly!!

After the general session, we proceeded for our workshops at the other side of the hotel..the beautiful tentage was set up with 6 tents in each side…it was beautiful again..haha they are really creative people and went to great extent to make the symposium an unforgettable one..itz really cold when the wind blows…but at the same time, the sun is high up and really hot…so itz hot and cold at the same time…but still the weather is better than Singapore…I attended 3 workshops with Kiat Chao and Seah…we had a lot of interaction with the people and u can really see how much the operators can benefit from it..i am glad that I have a chance to attend the symposium all becoz of Kiat Chao…he is really a nice colleague…

After the workshops, we went back to our hotel for a quick change of clothes for something more fun and exciting…we went to their market place called Souk…itz really crowded and BIG!!! So we were put into teams…my team consists of RSAF personnel, 2 operators from Hongkong and Mr Brouquet (Turbomeca Asia Pacific) and Mr Andre Genvier (Head of Makila Support)…We went to the market place by bus and at the entrance, we were greeted by people in the Big Square with charmed snakes and monkeys …Seah was approached by a man with monkey and he was ‘forced’ to pose a picure with 2 of the monkeys…upon leaving, the guy actually asked him for money…wa liaoz…the people there were atrocious…super money minded!! We were supposed to play a game…to actually get to know Marrakech better..we got to look for the shops selling the item that we need to find and pose for a picture to win some prize…haha

Mr Andre led the team…U need people who know how to speak French and ur bargaining skills come into play!! Cut them at least by half!!!Our first mission is to find a shop that sells Khol and rouge (lipstick) and a team member has to put them on…Khol is something like our eyeliner where Moroccan ladies put them around the eyes..their lipstick is not like ours…it looks like a red clay and upon contact with water, u can put it on ur lips and it works like a lipstick…Andre of coz got mi as the model…haha I was quite resistive to it..wondering if the Khol can be easily removed…but anyway, I put it on my eyebrows …for the lipstick, the boss of the shop wanted to use his saliva to wet the clay and put it on my lips!! Yucks!! I say “nvm, let mi do it myself’ and they laughed..

2nd mission: We need to look for the sundry shop with the particular signboard In our treasure hunt map…we found it and I got to pose for the picture with Mr Guna…haha then we went to look for a bookshop…oh along the roads, u juz hear people greeting mi ‘Konichiwa’…and asked u if u are Japanese…oh my god…haha then sometimes, the shop people will juz kip stopping u from moving on and say ‘good price, best buy’ and stuff..Nv show that u are interested in their products by asking prices or staring at it..u are in deep shit by doing so…Their hard sell is so powerful that u cant resist unless u really dun wan the item…haha then we went to look for a mosque and had to pose in front of it..the instructions was to have a team member to sit on the shoulder of another member to pose for the picture..Wa kaoz…mi again…Andre is damn strong…he put mi on his shoulder and he stood up straight like nobody business…haha but it was scary for mi…coz he is so damn tall!!! I am scared of heights!! Haha..then we went to look at the traditional way of their cloth dye method…itz really quite backward in the country…Kiat chao posed for a picture with the turban on his head…I got the picture!! Haha

We proceeded lastly to get a henna mark…itz meant for good luck …and of coz itz mi again…they charged 300 DH for it…and they will say ‘ any price u like it..as u like’ itz not true ok!! Coz Mr brouquet asked her for 50 DH and ended up giving her 20 Euro and itz 200DH in their context..i have a picture of that henna…itz juz like our Muslims in Singapore will do it on their hands when there is a big occasion going on..Then we went to have tea at a nearby coffee house..by the time, it was around 6plus in the evening..we proceeded to the hotel and the next event of the nite was going to the desert for our dinner…haha exciting right!we changed into something warm and I put on a coat my Aunt lend mi…it was not good enuff to resist the wind but better than nothing..we had to put on a costume which is their local dress..the guys were in blue and ladies in white…it was quite a nice piece of costume I tink…haha then we went on bus…all of look like Harry Potters going to Hogwarts except we dun have a wand and a broom! Haha

We had a welcome performance by the locals and it was really nice, special and unforgettable..we went into a big tentage and it was designed in the most tribal Moroccan flavour…our first dish was a ‘Minstrone’ soup..it taste a bit more starchy than the normal ones..the next one was a roasted lamb… I didn’t eat much coz I cant stand lamb..then we had some bread before we had another dish..i have no idea what itz called but it doesn’t taste very good too..not to my flavour I tink…I will die if I stay another 3 days there coz of hunger! Haha ..there was some tribal performance..i understand from Kiat Chao that the people were dressed as Moroccan Warriors..in the Bible, they were warriors who protected the Morocco land long time ago…Then we went back to our hotel..everybody feeling tired!!!

6th April 2006

The 3rd day of my stay in Morocco… Again, we have breakfast at 7am…we went for our general session..this time we have 4 different operators to speak with us what they have achieve for the past one day and wat they have to share with the other operators about their experiences..One of the very interesting operator talk was this English man from UK..He used the helicopters for Emergency medical rescues and also in the police force..he came from Metropolitan Police Force…he showed us clips of how the helicopters can help to track traffic offenders..it was damn funny coz there was a guy who crashed a few cars and after which he did, he tried to hide in a building but his whole actions was caught by the camera in the helicopters..haha

Then we proceeded for another 3 workshops and everything ended around in the afternoon where we had lunch and a lot of operators and personnel left swiftly after that…

Our flight was scheduled on the 7th …Mr Guna just didn’t feel good about mi taking a train back to Casablanca and take a flight from there back to Singapore…he was very concerned about my safety and it was not really safe on the streets and I am alone…so he persuaded mi that I should get an airticket.. Claiming wise should come later…most importantly, I should ensure my own safety…so we went to the city area of Marrakech, Gleiz to Royal Air Maroc to get an airticket…I though it was nt very safe for mi to travel by train again…so I heeded his advice.. the airticket cost around 1372 DH which is around S$250…so I got my ticket and arranged to be in the morning so that I will leave for the airport with RSAF…then we walked around the shopping mall…I saw very cute pepper/salt container and bought 4 of them..i tried to argue for cheaper price but that man wouldn’t budge..from 150DH …I slashed down to 60 DH for each one…that man was a cheater…he said 50 DH at first , but after he wrapped up, then he say 60DH…idiot..somemore he say he gonna close shop soon tatz y itz cheaper…wa kaoz…he closed at 8pm loh…(I found it out later..) then Mr Guna bought 2 of it, 3 keychains for 25 DH..110 DH for 6 pretty glasses…haha he promised his wife to get some of it…

We walked around the city streets and Mr Guna was bent on going back to Souk…Kiat Chao, Seah and mi wasn’t quite enthusiastic about it…coz itz very crowded and u get lost easily…worst is u dun speak French…anyway, we still walked all the way there …took around an hour plus…I took some pictures of the streets and saw Macdonalds ! Mac is simply fantastic to have outlets everywhere in the world!! They grow many roses on the streets…Red, yellow, orange, pink…so pretty…Kiat Chao told mi that Marrakech is also known as the Red City as all the buildings are in different shades of brick colour…and the place we stayed was actually the old city…the old city was surrounded by a long continous brick wall to protect the citizens and it was opened up for national development..

We walked around the brick wall and came to the botanic garden..rather beautiful…and we rested there before we moved on to Souk..At Souk, we went in and I bought a red lamp for Ginny..2 plates( handicraft) which is 1 for Sze hao and the other for jiawei…I didn’t buy too much anyway…didn’t change enuff money for it…haha

We went to a crowded street outside the Souk and went to a restaurant for dinner…it was a treat by Mr Guna..So nice of him…I had a spaghetti but it was not very nice…too bland…then we walked back to our hotel…it was at least 3 km long I swear!! So tiring!!

We wanted to go to pub but we were too tired to move so we rested early for our flight the next day…

7th April 2006

My last day in morocco…we met up in the morning and I was shocked to realize that Mr Guna had made hotel calls of 158 euro!!!! He juz talked for 20mins….oh my god…tatz daylight robbery siah!!We checked out of the hotel and proceeded to the Marrakech airport…

I took my first flight and in the airport, we had breakfast…Kiat chao and the rest were going by British airway to London and transit from there to go to Singapore…I got 3 flights…Marrakech to Casablanca(30mins), Casablanca to Paris(4 hours) and Paris to Singapore (12 hours)!! So long!!

At Casblanca airport, I bought a lot of local products back for my colleagues and family…then I bought 2 perfumes, Estee Lauder for Mummy and DKNY (mi and my aunt) …haha then upon reaching Charles De Gaulle Airport…Everything didn’t seem right …after I left the aircraft, 2 policemen looked at my passport and checked mi…I was retained at least 20mins juz becoz my 2 photos in my passport doesn’t look like the present mi! I was so pissed off…they are kind of brainless anyway..Some French are just prejudiced against Asian..i was the only Asian on that flight…irritating….then I reached the second checkpoint and I was checked again!! Haiz…nvm, I proceeded to look for departure lounge but I cannot find it…asked 2 airport staff and they gave mi unclear directions…luckily my transit was at least 3 hours..if not, I would have missed the flight..At CDG, I bought some chocolates back….bought After 8…haiz..Singapore sells them but I dunno watz the price…anyway, upon the flight, I got a window seat and I tried to change but the flight was FULL…so cannot changed…in the end, I changed with a French man and his family…ended up sitting in the centre of the centre row…I was actually sitting with his kids..so I changed my seat with the wife…it was very squeezy for the seats in Air France…damn tight…u feel very uncomfortable…then after I put my things in the cabin…an American lady juz squashed my stuff with her bag..i was so damn bloody pissed off that I took her bag and put on the other side…Luckily with the help of the French man…but the flight at CDG was delayed due to the strike…we wasted an hour in the aircraft and then finally it take off..the strike did affect mi in the end!! Haha haiz…

Finally, I came back to Singapore!! At the arrival duty free shop, I bought a desert wine and a bottle of icewine..haha yeah I can drink that with June, Ginny and kailing…haha
I got home..feeling tired and started upacking my stuff…after that I went out with Ginny and we chatted since we haven’t met for a long time…and one thing about our conversation was about change…she tried to change her bf from the day she knew him…and maybe tatz where a lot of problems came about in the relationship…I told her that both belong to different worlds. Just like he is a fish and Ginny is a human…Ginny sees how beautiful humans live their life and wanted her bf (fish) to see what she sees and wat she enjoys…she tried to change him bit by bit…giving him some expectations here and there…itz as good as taking the fish and try to make him survive in the human world, the land..by taking it out of water for 5 mins and subsequently increasing the time that u wan the fish to be on land, u hope that one day , it can learn to breathe on land, grow 4 legs and eat like a human…is tat really possible?? Is tat what we want for the person we love?? becoz u cant accept him the way he is, that is why u try to change..he is unhappy of the change and when he cant change to the way u wan him to be, u juz get disappointed and angry..we finally realized what went wrong….i told ginny to really think about what she wans..if she really cant accept wat her bf is, the best way is to give up..no point to hold on to someone u wan him to change for u juz becoz what u perceive the change as is good for him…if he changed, he is no longer the person u used to know him as…I hope she can have the ans herself…as a fren, I can only support and gif her my blessing for whatever decision she makes… jia you ginny!!

Morocco Trip!!

2006-04-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

I am back in Singapore finally!! The trip to Morocco for my engine symposium was great..Had a lot of interaction with Turbomeca and French people..They were very warm and nice..Perfect gentleman...haha Tink I wanna get a French boyfriend..haha anyway, the following will be a description of my trip..

4th April 2006

I took a half day leave from work so that I have more time to pack my things..My flight is scheduled at 1125pm at Changi Terminal 1..So I went to get a new shoulder bag as mine was a liitle bit old and dirty...must maintain the good impression as I am sort of representing the Singapore RSAF as their depot agent..This conference is actually only meant for operators meaning people who are actually buyers of the engines and using them..Depot means that I am doing the Maintenance, Repair and Overhaul work for them...I was on this trip as RSAF has invited mi to join this conference with them to build good relationship and interaction with Turbomeca people... Anyway, I went home and my first problem came as Capt Hou has msg mi and inform mi of the strike in Paris.. I am taking Air France and hence there is a problem for mi as I will be transiting my flight in Charles De Gaulle International airport at Paris..After much hassel and denial of strike affecting flight, I still managed to persuade myself to go for this trip..Hopefully, everything will turn out fine for mi...haha

My dad and mum sent mi to the airport at around 9 plus...supposed to have coffee with Derrick before our flight..he was flying on Monday too at 1130pm to Japan...anyway, he didnt come over to Terminal 1 so I went into the waiting lounge to await my flight..

I reached Paris at around 8am the next day Singapore time in Paris..Whoa...It was freaking cold when I was out of the aircraft..We have to get off the aircraft and take a shuttle bus to Terminal 2c..I was freezing...my ears,nose and toes felt like cracking and dropping off!! but it was fun coz when i breathe and talk, I can see the vapour clearly...haha nv been to cold countries before so I was kinda excited...next i went to Terminal 2C and I need to travel to Terminal 2F in order to catch my transit flight to Casablanca..I didnt noe the way so I asked a lady who was with her family at the airport...She spoke to mi in French and when i told her i din understand French, she snapped at mi and say " Dont speak English here." What the fuck! if i knew how to speak French , I would not be speaking english right...wat a bitch...she didnt bother to ans my question and juz walked off...her daughter was looking at mi and i felt so shitty...Anyway, I went off to approach a man who worked in the airport...he showed mi the directions..and i finally got up the bus to go to Terminal 2F..My gate was at F49 and as there were sometime left, i walked around in the airport and duty free shops...didnt buy anything as I was too concerned to catch my flight..the flight was slightly delayed and i reached Casablanca at around 2pm SG time..then I was pretty happy as I tot I gonna see Turbomeca pple coming to pick mi up to Marrakech...I msg capt Hou and told him I was in Casablanca.. He was very shocked and asked mi why i am at Casablanca..He told mi that itz too far from Marrakech and they wun picked mi up there..oh My god...then he asked mi to either catch a flight or take a train..I decided to take train coz i did not noe if i can claim for it..I went out of Mohamed V airport and went to ask for flight schedule..I got to know a friend in Casablanca i guess..he took mi to get the train ticket which is much cheaper than a airticket...so we got to the train station and bought the tickets...I treated him to coffee and bought him cigarettes..i tot that would be good enuff as a way to tahnk him but apparently itz not..as after i got up the train, he asked mi for 200 Dirhams...tatz about 20 Euro..oh my god..anyway, i didnt think too much coz i juz want to get out of the place safely and reach Marrakech as soon as possible..

The train was interesting...it made mi look as if i was fliming in Harry Potter...haha Yah itz that kind of old model train...but it was fun...as i get to see the land...they have many small villages along the road ..and alot of cattles...u can see alot of cows, goats , sheeps and horses grazing...the land was colouful as they cultivate yellow flowers and also shrubs along the road...many plantations but the vast land was beautiful..a different league from Mauritius though both in Africa Continent..It was a long ride from Casablanca to Marrakech around 3 and a half hours ride...One hour before Marrakech, a couple in the cubicle as mi took out their beer and drank it...so as they were drinking the beer, the captain on the train walked past and looked at them angrily.. He took the beer and their passports and their train tickets...The English man followed them out and wanted to know what they are up to..after around 15mins, he came back, pissed off and angry...it was ridiculous..the captain told him that it was not allowed to drink beer on the train...well, i tot u could have juz confiscate the beer and it doesnt warrant a need to take the passports as well...in the end, the man settled it in a corrupt way as he offered them some money..200DH again! and they let it rest...they juz wan money...very corrupted 3rd world conutry i tink...the English couple was going back to Marrakech for some shopping and they would be leaving on thursday...that didnt leave them a good impression and they sweared notto come back to Morocco again...haiz...maybe itz time to educate the people there...or maybe itz poor for education...

I finally reached the train station in Marrakech...Hassan has given mi a fren's name card in Marrakech and he drives a taxi..so at the train station, I couldnt see the people that Capt Hou has sent to fetch mi so in the end, i ended up leaving with the man in his taxi...count my lucky stars..he drove mi to the hotel...he said i cna pay him tmr if i need a tour guide around the place...so i got off and went to the hotel..Paid upfront for my hotel stay which was 370.10 Euro..I checked in and finally got to bathe and rest...i got the itinerary for the 2 day stay here..There will be a dinner tonite by the swimming pool at 7pm Morocco time..Singapore was 8 hours ahead of Morocco...So i bathed and waited for Capt hou to appear...Finally, i saw him, Mr Guna and Capt Seah...oh i was glad to see them!! so we went to the dinner together..had a cocktail session first...we chatted with Mr Denoyer, Mr S Maille and a few others...They simply loved capt Hou...Now I understand why they are on so good terms and Capt Hou has the power to tok to them..i tot i wanted to make good relationship with them and benefit from it in my workscope...later we went for the dinner and hmm..moroccan food is not for mi...the first dish was a salad...it didnt taste good..tasted weird...all of us were not used to the flavours...then we had stewed Lamb chop and it doesnt taste very well as i dun like lamb meat at all...haiz i only ate a bit and some bread...so we had some entertainment like their local dance and music...

After dinner, we retired to our rooms...my room was big with 2 beds...but there was no flask to boil water and no coffee or drinks in it...wat a 4-star hotel...the pool was beautiful but i was facing the other side of it...anyway, i slept with the lights and tv on..haha i am scared to be alone!!! preparing to sleep and get to my workshop the next day! =)

Eric and Alex Birthday!!

2006-04-03T16:19:00.000+08:00

2nd April 2006

My Aunt came and pass mi a lugguage to prepare mi for my overseas trip on Monday! So after she came, we brought my Mum, Regina and Gek Feng out for lunch..we choose Swensens at Tampines Mall...I ordered a Grilled Fish Sambal, but it looks more like fried Fish with damn lot of Sambal...My sis ordered a Kids' Size Fish and chips and itz pathetically small and unappetizing...the potato wedges were like froze and thawed repeatably and oil was like soaked in the potato...My Gek feng ordered a fish and chips...Only tat didnt change itz look...My Aunt and Mum ordered a Chef Salad and a Salmon Mushroom Baked rice...looks yummy..SIde dishes include a set of Fries and 2 set of Sauteed Mushrooms( highly recommended..This is very very nice)...Anyway, Swensens getting horrible!!After my meal with my family, then i went to attend my buddies' chalet...

Itz Eric and Alex birthday today!! Who is Alex and Eric Kuah?? They are my good buddies and the Wonder Twins of 2000/2001 NUS Mechanical Engrg...Why wonder twins?? coz they are born with good looks, good brains and good figure... at least 1.8m tall and both are part time models...oh my god!! How can God be so unfair to give them everything a guy wish to possess!!Eric now with Accenture and Alex with UOB Personal Finance I tink...But both are doing very well in their new companies..

Haha anyway, this pair of good buddies are celebrating their bdaes and the NUS ME gang is invited...how can there be fun without us!! But itz been a long time that we last had a gathering...too many people so hard to organise oso!!

Attendees were :
Adrian ( used to do wake boarding and now he is with SIA engrg as a tech svc engr!!I almost became his colleague! haha)
Seah Kai ( My super magician and always say i am his best audience!! He is now with DSTA/SAF..high flyer lehz.... ;p)
Weisheng ( With DSTA now too , he is from Electrical Engrg and i got to know him becoz he is Alex and Eric Sec sch fren..funny chap!)
Benson Ong( Another wonder twins, his elder bro called Henry with NTU now..Benson is a national archer and his dreams is to win a medal in the Olympics..!Bro U can do it ya!)
Bingjie ( Electrical Egrg and he is now into banking industry..forgot to ask where he belong liaoz..haha)
Jason Lim ( Oh how can i forgot my best study buddy!! sometimes he maybe nerdy but he is one of the smartest and humble man u will see around u...He is always so willing to share with u his knowledge..Now he is with DSTA..!Just got his Mazda 3 siah...Bro, when u gonna bring mi for a ride huh??!! )
Johnny Tong ( Oh my god...Mr Tang, now Johnny is a Pri Sch chinese teacher...nv tot he would go into a job that is so decent and serious...u cant be serious, Johnny!!)
Aik Boon ( Captain in RSAF...bro when is ur next promotion?? must treat mi abalone when u got a crab huh!!)
I got so many frens in Aviation and banking...the most lucrative kind of industry ??
Xiuwei, his gf and Jiawei with Eileen oso...

We had a lot of fun eating BBQ chicken wings, satay, Otah,Stingray and marshmellows!! Yummy....Will upload the pictures once they are ready! =) Then we played Idian Poker and i drank alot of Baileys on the rocks...Vodka Vanilla with coke taste like Vodka with vanilla coke..haha so we did alot of catching up and everyone was reminded of the carefree days in NUS...tat was really a good time..the most carefree and free of troubles and burden...To all Students, please enjoy the freedom and fun that u have now... once beyond 23, ur responsibilities makes it impossible for u to enjoy life anymore...not pessimistic but these are facts of life..work hard, study hard and play hard!(^_^)

Flying off to Morocco!!

2006-04-02T00:27:00.000+08:00

I am flying off to Morocco on Monday night!! Itz a coincidence that I am taking the flight at the same time with my bro, Derrick Heng!! haha...but I am Terminal 1 and he is at Terminal 2..Oh i haven been updating my blog for a damn long time...been too busy preparing myself for this trip..oh please...I am not going for holiday! i am going there to attend an engine symposium..i am so glad that I am given an opportunity to go attend this symposium...hee..it will be an eye-opener for me i guess..hee..ok let mi re-cap the good things that happen to me this week..

28th March 2006

Today went out to meet Derrick and his 2 frens William and Eugene after work..I suggested going to Moonfish restaurant for dinner..so i got June to come along as well!!Derrick picked mi up with his fren William at Kembangan Mrt station...hmm...his fren not a gentleman!! usually my fren's guy fren will always let mi take the front seat...i dunno why but tatz the way i have always been treated...Derrick drives a Integra now by the way..so i was expecting him to let mi sit in front..anyway for this kind of 2 door car..i am not used to sit at the back..i have a phobia for confined space...dunno wat is it called in medical terms but i dun feel at ease and i get nervous and uptight when i am in confined space...so i didnt really had a good impression of that guy..somemore he is married...social ethnics leh!! hmph!! =( anyway, guai guai sit at the back loh...cant do anything since i am not the driver...muz swear and target for my own car soon!!

We went to Paulener and waited for Eugene to come..he was on his way then followed by June..I almost lost her in Marina Square..Haha...while waiting for her, the guys had a beer at Paulener..june came and we proceeded for dinner at my fav restaurant...I ordered my favourite Seafood Paradise!! Yummy...Derrick had a chicken roller...William and Eugene shared a pizza and Seafood paradise...June juz had a starter which is Seafood roll..but her portion was so much bigger than Derrick's whose meal is supposed to be the main course..haha anyway, they praised the food was good!!Itz on the guys.. hee =)

After which we went to Balaclava...the place is really good...not so rowdy and low class compared to other pubs...relaxing and a totally different class of people u see there...highly recommended for drinks after work!! haha...I ordered a Peach Snapps with 7-up, June had a Malibu Pineapple(My recommendation!) , the guys had a Hoegaarden each...nice beer...first round on the guys ...So after we came to the second round, i decided to pay for it...the waitress was very shocked and asked" huh, how come coming from u? The guys should pay mar!" wa..i dunno wat the hell she was tinking manz...she embarrassed mi and my guy frens...i was wondering watz wrong with a lady paying for the drinks...i am always very fair and square person...u treat mi once, i treat the next one..My money is not money isit?? but she really made mi feel embarrassed coz i made my guy frens look so bad...idiot...i hope she dun serve mi the next time i am there...i ordered a Lychee martini and the guys a round of Carlsberg beer each..nv liked beer in my life..haha

Then we went home at around 11 plus with Derrick sending mi, William and Eugene coz all of us stayed in the East..yeah...nice night out with them.. =)

Anyway, tatz the highlight for the week...back to my symposium...Itz held in Morocco so I am flying there connecting a flight in Paris, Charles De Gaulle International Airport...Should reach Morocco on the 4th April at 1040 am by Air France..my Capt juz msg mi and say big strike in France...But itz nt affecting Charles De Gaulle...lets pray hard for my safety...i am travelling alone...my second time on plane and 1st time travelling alone with a connecting flight...*pray hard pray hard* both times to Africa...the 1st time to Mauritius and now to Morocco...haha i may marry an African there!! My bosses were very worried but at the same time, they wan mi to be as professional as i can as I am representing Singapore on the whole...i hope I wun let them down...stressed! Hope i come back with presents and lotsa nice photos for u guys to see..Morocco is a nice place i heard!!Will be back on Sat nite..Till Then!! Take care my frens =)

Nite Out at Dbl O!!

2006-03-26T16:33:00.000+08:00

I finally made up with June...she is one of my very close frens...in one of my blogs, i actually mentioned about her...had some misunderstandings and we didnt kip in touch for sometime...i decided to msg her and ask her out again...coz after losing her, i kind of miss her and start to remember the time tat we had used to spend together..i guess i was at fault and very sensitive of mi to put such bad comments about my dear fren...I was too obsessed with somJune, I am sorry...but i am glad we made up and we had fun at Dbl O last nite!! just two of us..but sometimes itz juz the company u haf....not the place that u are going to...haha so we danced all nite long...itz been a long time we had fun since i started my business...so itz quite fun to go clubbing once in a while.. then we went supper at Geylang..Had dim sum and we talked about my new business proposal..haha we had so much fun juz discussing about it...and she is really serious of becoming my business partner...haha gonna spend time to make it work...but wat we lack is actually capital..so got to work things and budget...

Tatz all for today...haha i miss June!! =)

A Whole Night Out!!!

2006-03-15T12:59:00.000+08:00

Forgot which Saturday was it..but juz tot i muz record it down in my blogs..haha

Tat was a normal Saturday to everybody but for me, tat SAT is different!! haha becoz i can sleep later than 11am..oh lucky mi...maybe many pple may tink sleeping later than 11 is no big deal..but for mi, itz a luxury...maybe i have been working too hard..a short break at times can recharge all the energy i need..so pple, if u are working too hard, time to slack and be a couch potato!! yeah finally oso one day i can spend time with my family watching tv and chit chatting..so happy!!

Anyway, i was slacking all the way until night time when my mum was very anxious about my sister coz she isnt feeling well since last week..this week even worse coz she is down with fever...haiz..anyway, i accompany her to visit the doctor...doctor didnt say much...juz gave her some medicine...but becoz we were at A&E, the bills were atrocious..$300 plus...oh my god...haiz..wat to do?? tatz y i always tell others that in Singapore, u can die but cannot fall sick coz the medical fees are exorbitantly high!! ur coffin may cost u much lesser than undergoing the treatments and mental torture u put to ur family and urself..so itz best to keep urself healthy..sleep just enuff, eat juz enuff and work out juz enuff...balanced life = long and healthy life!! haha who wouldnt wan to have good wealth and health? itz a blessing...haha so i wish all my frens around me to live with good wealth and good health!!

I slack until night time until i called Kelvin out for drinks at Fisherman Village..wanna get Kailing but she is taking care of her bro so in the end, we got Kent and Bangwen...went to Beach Cabana at East Coast..Quite a nice place but nt very quiet to chat..I accompany Kelvin for dinner at Pasir Ris ..then we went East Coast by cab ..Saw Gelare and i had the urge to eat Waffle with ice cream..we ate a banana caramel with cookies and cream ice-cream..yummy !! so nice...Then we went to Cabana to wait for Kent and Bangwen..those two rubber kings....Kelvin ordered a Kilkenny and I ordered a Mai Tai..Quite nice drink...hee then ordered a plate of Sotong balls...wah i am eating alot!! then we chatted until 2 am..wa kaoz..wanna leave liaoz until Kent called and say they are reaching..haiz so we went to Mac to wait for them...those 2 haven eat yet so they ordered Mac for supper i tink...haha at 2 am , itz supper ba...haha

Later we went to play bowling at Marina South...Had 2 games and Ronald and 2 of his other frens came and join us too after their drinking session at DeClubb..Then we went to play arcade until 6am...On the way when Kent was sending mi and Kelvin home, Bangwen mention abt Changi V nasi lemak and transvetites...haha since nothing much to do so i went with them...wah reach arnd 645 and eat until the sky was bright...haha 730 am...i reached home and bathe...slept at 845 and woke up at 1245.. The guys had another outing at Sentosa !!

So on Sunday, i reached there at arnd 4pm...dunno go there for wat liaoz..haha anyway, i juz went and dip in the waters for arnd 45mins...then went to bathe with the gals who went with us...Bangwen, Kent ,Alan , Jian Zhong, William and Gerald and their gfs were around with us...ok la...not too bad...coz i haven visited Sentosa for ages...

Tiring Weekend!! =)

My N7610!!!!! :'(

2006-03-04T13:50:00.000+08:00

1st March 2006

I will always remember this day and tat asshole that confiscated my handphone..my N7610.. As I am working in the defence sector, I was not supposed to bring in any camera handphone.. But seriously, i didnt tot tat it was a problem if i carry the hp and put it in my office drawer..who wants to take pictures of hangars and stuff?? if i am a terrorist, google_earth would be the best survelliance loh..wa kaoz...anyway, the whole disgusting scenario happened as below:

i was on my way out of office to the guard house..I put my hp in the secret compartment and usu tat where i put it..so come along this idiot who says wants to check my bag...he is terrible coz he juz check everybody's bags..even u got dirty undergarments in it, he will ransack and check...(my colleague has this experience!!)itz good in a sense coz security is really tight and deters pple from coming in esp those with wicked intentions..but i feel that they should be more flexible with STA staff loh...if u suspect everybody in the company, then in the first place, dun tok abt clearance of the fella since u gonna check on everyone?!!!so he asked mi to open my secret compartment...i sianz oreadi..so i unzipped by half..the he ask mi to unzip further ...then he stare at my hp..he asked mi what is it...then i say itz a hp..so he asked mi to take it out and see the front and back...so he realised that it is a camera phone..so i LL stand there and see him take the hp..i should haf taken up thai boxing and gif him one hard punch on his eyes and glasses!! so he took my pass and copy the details...detained my hp...wah i feel so freaking upset..they gonna check eveyrthing in my hp..wah liaoz..given my close relationship with my mum, she has nv seen my hp too loh...and now i gotta check some f**king strangers...then nvm, even if they checked that ur hp got nothing, they will still not return u the phone..i will gif up that job if i cant get back my hp...can banned mi from all security areas if u wan la...but i dun care..i wan my phone back and tatz it...

Initially i oreadi hated that fella so much coz he dunno check mi how many times and i cant bring myself to plead with him to gif mi a second chance..so i shouted at the "frog" that i wan my sim card back..so he dun dare to shout at mi and went to his boss to ask for his help..the boss say i will gif u back the sim card...most prob i dun tink i can get the hp back coz i was very rude to the boss...before i left, i say please dun scratch tat hp. *arghz* watz so f**king big deal of the camera phone?? wah biangz..i die die oso muz have the hp back...sack mi? i dun care..juz gif mi back my phone!

3rd March 2006

I was so freaking upset abt my hp and my boss ask mi to go find HRM for help to retrieve my hp...i cant find him and damn upset liaoz...Lau, my Workshop engr came and chased mi for a form so i went to my section head and David Goh...so David is my Engineering Director..we discussed the issue and he ask mi a technical question...he was cooking mi like a pressure cooker...i dunno the ans and he kip pressing mi for it..i cant take it and in the end, i cried in front of him and my section head..wa liaoz...y muz force pple until like tat? I juz felt very lost after i dun haf my hp loh..alot of things are in my hp and of coz not like the Tammy who has self videos..itz juz the photos and msgs that i have saved from my frens...esp my contact list loh...wa kaoz...i blessed the fella with all the lousy things on earth!Asshole...security dog! I dunno and i juz break down and cry...so terrible to work for other pple...itz horrible loh...i cant understand y there are still pple outside still banging on the fact that they enjoy working for others and expect to make good money by working...wa kaoz...

I was kinda upset that i cannot have my phone back...my boss ask mi is it becoz of my hp then i am very upset...obviously...wa kaoz...then he told mi that out f so many candidates for the interview..he chose to recruit mi becoz he sees that i am a person with strong character and shouldnt be so weak like today..haiz...u return to mi my phone and i will be ok!

Xuanbin's bdae Pictures!!

2006-02-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

That is Kent beside mi...haha see all the guys must listen to me!! :p

The cool Duo..Haha

Group Photo!! So many of us...Make sure u guys turn up on my bdae huh!! =)

Eileen, Kent, Mi and Kailing!!
My best sisters..Kailing on my left and Eileen on my right!! =D
Mi and Bdae Boy..Xuan Binnnnnnn!!
mi and Kent again....haha
Mi and kailing...I tink i look a bit silly in this photo ..haha :p

AA2006

2006-02-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

This is Pratt & Whitney PW 4000 Engine...big right??? real size...this powers one of the commercial aircraft...

This is T55 engine which powers the Chinook Helicopter..

This is SIA Boeing 747..My favourite air line!!

SIA ...First to Fly A380!!

Finally i have a chance to go to Asian Aerospace show ..This year is different becoz it is the last time that AA show is held in Singapore...Next AA show will be in Hongkong...so i particularly treasure this show..AA 2006..haha i am on duty on the 26th Feb which is a Sunday...hehe..feels good but oso sianz coz itz a sunday, my REST day!! but my company is not giving mi an off day for it...so sad..anyway, itz still a good experience..

I went in the morning ..muz reached at 9am...people on duty with mi are Gabriel, Mavis and Allen...haha i got some tic for Kailing and her bro, Binbin..3 for Kelvin and 4 for my Ah xi and her frens...1 more for my mei mei Regina...haha eh i tot she would like aircraft but obviously, i took it wrongly!!! haiz...waste my tix...haha anyway, juz wan her to get exposure to aircraft...when i was young, nobody showed mi this kind of big exhibition..i wan her to be able to appreciate it..another reason i wan her there becoz i was freaking amazed by the size of the engine...i kip wondering how my sis look in front of those engines..haha think she look like an FOD ( foreign object damage) to an engine..haha

I had breakfast and started out duty..so boring...coz compared to those that were inside our exhibition hall..ST didnt really put up a good one..We got a real size Super Puma on show..for people to sit in the cockpit and passenger area...People was queuing up for it...haha if i have a bro, i would say it wun take u more than 20 years to be able to sit on it coz u will be in army then and Super Puma should still be in operation!!hahaha..woah the engines on display were really big and nice...it makes mi proud to be recognized as part of the aero engineering team!!

Yup so i asked my colleagues to let mi bring my sis around..we watched the air display..not very fantastic becoz there was no acrobats or dog fight...haha oh kind of disappointing...the aircrafts o display was of coz F16..then with 3 UAVs ..i tink a M3-11 was on display...followed by F15 and of coz my favorite A380!! oh my god...that aircraft was majestic...it looks like a big whale flying!!! haha the captain made a 60deg turn...supposing that it was a very difficult stunt to make as the big aircraft can create its own turning momentum and itz quite difficult to control it...credits to the captain!! F15 was ...wow...fast!! 2 engines on it with full afterburner on...I cant stand the speed and G-force i tink...tatz around 10G...i tink if we are on it, our skin would be dragged to max..dun even need skin lifting...haha

Then i went to have lunch and brought my sis they all for lunch...haha not much food there and itz really ex!! then when it was time to send my sis home, Ah xi went missing with her frens..arghz...so i asked my dear Kailing send Regina to her hse then later i go fetch her after my airshow..My boss Steve say itz very difficult for my fren to handle 2 kids..so he gave mi permission to go off early..u cant imagine how touched i was....the public day was so packed..i was so worried that Ling cannot handle them..haiz..but my boss really showed understanding and i really appreciated that...thanks Steve... =) Itz blessed to work for an understanding boss...not those autocratic and not understanding...i still prefer to be my own boss...haha

So we walked out to take the shuttle...oh my god...Singaporeans juz dun change...still so freaking kiasu!! i got a kid with mi and they got to squeeze their butts into my sis face! i was so fed up that i got to push them aside and say very rudely 'Excuse mi, did u see a kid??' wa biangz...scared u wun be able to get up the bus??? freaking rude...u see these kind of inconsiderate and idiotic pple everywhere in Sg u noe...itz so irritating!! especailly those aunties...wa kaoz.... be a bit mre gracious can?? i tink if someone falls, it will cause a stampede...tat poor fella will be stepped to death lor....selfish pple...

After getting on the bus, we went to Pasir Ris Swensens' for ice cream..my sis took a strawberry sundae, BinBin took a sticky chewy chocolate ice cream, i took a hot fudge bonanza split...it came without hot fudge and i was so shocked y my ice-cream is so plain...the waitress then changed it for mi...haha kailing had a topless 5...we ordered a side Fries...nice...Ling later brought her bro home and i brought my sis for shopping...need to get a pair of shoes!! I bought a Dano blazer, a set of Triumph undergarments, and a pair of Everbest shoes for work...Yesterday i bought a black pants, 2 white tops from Urban & Co..a Hugen watch..it usu cost $225 but i bought it at only $79...damn cheap right...haha i oso noe how to go for sale stuff...dun everytime say i spend without tinking...wah...i spend more than 500 in 2 days...wah...spend money like water...muz save a bit liaoz..

To end off everything, i shall upload some pics i took at AA 2006..hee enjoy viewing...itz just mi...haha

XuanBin's Birthday!!

2006-02-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

Wake up very early today...around 10plus coz after going to the fortune teller today, mi and kelvin going to pray to "Dou Mu".."Dou Mu" is like the Almighty in the world of Taoism...Hence, praying will bring more blessings and good tidings to the person and his/her family who prays sincerely..I definitely dun wan to miss this opportunity.. Kelvin went for his IPPT today at Tampines Safra...it was around 12plus when he was ready..we met at Tampines Interchange, took bus 969 and went to Woodlands..The place is at Woodlands..So we went there, had our prayers by burning joss sticks..I pray and wish for good health for my parents, for my sisters to be good in their studies, for the whole family to be peaceful and safe and for myself, a smooth career as an engineer and good prosperity for my part time business...

I suddenly tot of something which i wanted to mention in this blog...this incident really hurt mi alot...someone whom i have always tot to be my close fren...wasnt supportive of what i am doing and in fact, she tinks that i am trying to make her join mi as my business partner..she tinks tat i am being petty and holding against her for not being my biz partner..seriously, whether u wan or not, itz purely ur decision as no one can force u to do what u dun wish to....i have no reason to blame her..coz whether she joins mi or not, it doesnt make mi any richer or poorer than i am right now....she doesnt believe that i will be able to make it in my business...if she joins, i can help her make money but it doesnt mean i am going to get millions of dollars out of her being my business partner!!..if she doesnt, i still continue with what i am doing..no one is indispensable in this world....she wans to prove to mi that by doing Master , she can earn 5 figure income in 2-3 years...tell mi: is it possible???her distrust is normal, i dun blame her. Itz her OWN choice of whether she sees what i see as an opportunity..she chose not to believe, not to see and not to trust ....I have got nothing to say...I msn her one day and ask her how is she doing..she works overly hard at her work...not getting much in return for her work..anyway, juz being concerned and i talked to her...she told mi she wanted to change her job..always telling mi how stable she is...but i find tat she is like a lost soul...i am not sure if she noes what she wans..works in Philip capital and says to learn to become a financial consultant...now say she wan to change her job coz itz taking too much time and she cant study...at the same time, she oso wans to have more financial support so that she can support her bro's medical fees...which is i wanted to present to her the business proposal and see if she might be interested...

so i ask her what she wanna study ..then she says Master in Finance...i say good for u..coz i wanted to study too..but juz a diploma ...coz in my opinion, it doesnt matter if u are a Master or diploma..coz u still end up working for others...doesnt mean u are a Master , u get more job opportunities and higher pay...look at how saturated the job market is now...I wanted to study so i can get better financial education abt money and of coz know more pple along the way...how many new pple can i know by juz being an engineer...i wanna build up biz contacts so tat i can know who to look for when i need biz partners...itz all contacts and social networking...so she doesnt believe and said sarcastic terms tat really hurt mi alot..

I suspected that she has always been competitive with mi since Uni time even we are in different Faculties.....but i didnt expect her not to be supportive and everytime throwing cold water at mi...I promise to myself that i muz make it in the biz , not to spite her but to prove to her that i didnt lie when i told her abt my biz proposal...i wanna make sure that my biz partners who trusted my judgement are able to make money out of this biz and change their lives and lives of people around them..most imptly , i hope she can oso become one of my biz partners one day when i got good results...i dun blame her for being skeptical but not to the extent of not supportive and throwing sarcastic terms at mi....haiz...itz really sad..we are drifting apart...

Anyway, back to my story for today..so after our prayers, i went to KTV at Shenton way Party World...haha all of us were there...we decided to have a party for Xuanbin...so Bangwen,Kent,William,William's gf,Eugene,Ben,Changyi and Kailing...haha so happy...then we sang until 7pm...with late attendees like Jiawei, Eileen, Kelvin and Banghong...our last song was 'Friends' ..nice song...nice to hang around with frens of ur same frequencies...We had a birthday cake for Xuanbin and sang him bdae songs...U are nv lonely with them...I love them!!i tend to spend more time with these bunch of guys ...they are really cool to hang out with..so fun!!

We then went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner...Attendees were mi, kailing, jiawei, eileen,bangwen,xuanbin, kelvin and kent...This dinner is a treat from Xuanbin...hee Thanks Xuanbin!!Happy birthday XB!! Dun be blur like sotong leh!! We had 14 honey-glazed chicken wings,rice with Sambal Stingray,Sambal kangkong,Sambal La La,Oyster Omelette and Satays!!! Yummy...haha all of us have our share of fun and complaints...haha really had a great sunday!! Looking forward for work tmr... =)

Fortune Telling...

2006-02-18T21:29:00.001+08:00

Just came back home after a long day..Today met up with a fren whom i haven contacted for a long time...Junyao..Oh mine, he definitely changed alot...haha his face so round now..the first qn i asked was:" Bro, u muz be living very comfortably in the army right??" haha he is army regular in a camp in Teck Whye...I forgot the camp name..i only remember Sembawang Air base coz that is where Super Puma stays..haha anyway, had lunch with him and had a good chat with him..he nv changed...still as talkative as ever...haha

Then i met up with Kelvin to go for fortune telling..Hmm..Master Luo..his shop was near Tanjong Pagar...So we made an appointment and went down to see him..just for fun la..nv take wat a fortune teller says for sure...coz i always believed that ur destin lies in ur hands not the mouth of a fortune teller..haha but i still went out of curiosity and to see if he was really that accurate..haha my analysis was as follows..

He looked at my palm..so for palmistry :

I will be rich at 30plus years old coz of the two humps that appeared on my palm..it doesnt matter whether u are fat or not, coz if u haf it then u haf it...he was a bit plump and he show mi his palm and its obvious he doesnt has the humps that i haf..
I am easy going person thatz y i have many many frens. My PR skills are excellent but i dun haf close frens who are supportive and willing to take risk with mi at all...tatz quite true...
I am not a person who is short tempered..I have a very kind and soft heart..*haha* soft heart i agree...but i not short tempered??? Pple who knows mi might luff falling off their chairs..haha..he says i have a good heart coz i may grumble about nitty gritty things in life but i am one who says and forgets...i dun kip it on my heart...haha true i agree..
At around 50 years old, i may have some health problems...health problems that takes a long time to be cured...like heart diseases, diabetes or asthma...i believe that becoz my grandparents has a history of diabetes..my great grand parents died of it..
I am not a spendthrift..i can manage my finance well....hmm...no comments...haha
Before u are 40 years old, look at left palm..after 40 years old look at right palm..

Hmm..then he took my 8 characters and keyed into a computer which he later printed into a form that almost described the whole of my life...My element is of Gold but weak Gold lack of Wood...My life brings with mi a bit of "side' wealth that means if i buy ToTo or 4D, quite easy to win..Last yr 2005 was a good yr but i dun believe in buying these la...haha..

1) Wealth:

I am 24 this year..and right now, i am on the down side of my life luck..it will continue this way until when i am 33..when i am 28 years old, i must save whatever i can..try not to get into debts or deficits coz when i am 33 years old, my wealth will come along..After 33 onwards, i will be rich and i dun haf to worry about my finance...haha i went to a few fortune tellers..all of them said the same thing about my wealth and my love life..
I will have a glamorous period in my 30s and good wealth all the way down my life..wah so happy to hear that but i got to suffer for 9 years before i see good wealth coming...

2) Love life:

I am a virtuous wife who really loves my husband..haha as in will really take care and dote on him after i am married..
I asked him y i had so many bad relationships in the past...He said looking at the report, there isnt a single love star in my life between 12 to 22...so definitely cannot maintain..Love stars meaning like tao hua xing or hong2 yan4...
So Kelvin ask him about the person i have a crush on...haha Master Luo asked mi when i got to noe him..I said last yr...so he say guys u noe last yr appeared during the hong2 yan4 star period...so even if together, it will not last...but if i can just remain frens with him until 2007 or 2008, there might be a good chance of us getting together..but he will still be skeptical abt the relationship...But he told mi itz hard to say coz he needs to noe the other party 8 characters before he can make a good judgement..the tao hua star appeared when I am 27 or 28...the best age for mi to settle down..haha
i will have a bit of problems with my kids...I might need to spend alot of time taking care of them..might be illness or other problems...I have alot of 'tao hua' after i am married and tatz nt good as it will add on to my stress and family problems...the max number of kids i will have are 3 boys and 3 girls...but tat depends on the partner's max kids as well...haha i din noe i might be a sow...

3) General:

I must avoid hospitals in the month of Feb, August and Nov...as it will be bad for mi...my bed position should be facing North to gif mi good wealth..
Bad colours i should avoid are: red,green,orange and purple.
Good colours are : black,grey,blue,yellow, brown,white,gold and silver
I should not wear jade and red ruby as they affect mi
I can wear gold, silver or even blue sapphire...
This year not much wealth and at the same time, i offended the Gods coz people born in the year of Dog has got this problem...so muz go pray for peace and safety...

tatz all for the analysis...hmm alright la...quite true to a certain extent..but i still believe in making my own destiny...

Had dinner with Kelvin at tanjong pagar and we went home after tat...haha so now updating my blogs to keep it as a record of wat was said to mi...

Fortune Telling...

2006-02-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

Xuan Bin so cute!!

2006-02-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

Ginny's Birthday!!

2006-02-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

12th Feb 2006

Today is Ginny's 24th birthday..Hee I wish this best buddy of mine: Happy birthday..Stay pretty, smart, adorable, chubby, healthy, wealthy and always so cheerful...May happiness stay with her for the many more years to come!! happy birthday darling!! =) she nv reads my blogs..always complain itz too long...haha

I tot Tian Soon ( Andrew ) her bf will celebrate it for her..but when i was watching tv at home at 10plus, he suddenly msg mi and say that Gin was sad coz nobody remembers her bdae..she is going to malaysia to visit due to the CNY celebration so i tot she wun have time for mi...i intended to bring her out for dinner next week and pass her a present .. So i was shocked to hear that from Tian Soon that she was sad...i didnt wan my buddy to be sad on her bdae so i quickly changed and rushed down to meet Baoling and both of us went to Tian Soon's house to gif her a surprise..haha so we gave her a surprise !! she was happy and shocked to see us..haha anyway, no bdae cake...TS only bought 2 slices of strawberry shortcake and put up a candle formation for her to celebrate it..Sometimes, it doesnt really matters the way u celebrate...itz the people who celebrate with u...TS might be a bit simple in her celebration but to Gin, itz his presence and his effort that touched her...hee so loving..But all gals always like to fuss over big festive seasons and esp her bdae..anyway, we went to Geylang Lorong 9 for supper..we had Frog porridge..Then we were wondering what to do next ..so we wander off to a temple near by but it was closed..Wanted to pray for good luck coz all of us born in the Year of Dog offended Tai Sui...so must pray to better our luck...then we went to a coffee shop as we wanted to use the toilet!

Baoling and mi was waiting for the toilet. There was a sink and a few trays stacked behind and an uncle was holding scissors standing behind the sin..Suddenly , the uncle behind us tell us to 'excuse mi' then he removed one layer of the tray and caught hold of a FROG!!! the FROG struggled and some water landed on my feet. I SCREAMED at the instant i saw him grabbing the frog..It was damn disgusting..i nearly wanted to cry out...a few Ah bengs sitting outside turned and kept sniggling...arghz...so embarrassed...i kept jumping and even felt nauseous of the FROG porridge i had just now!!

We later moved on to East Coast to look for pool tables or even KTV...wanted to go Cabana but itz full house..wanted to go play pool but very long queue..wanted to sing KTV but they closed at 3..we reached about 240am..so pointless..then we got nothing to do liaoz...so we went home after that..i wasnt happy coz i wanted more fun for Ginny...i didnt feel good abt it...juz hope that she is really happy at least to spend time with us..so tired!!

A Farewell Dinner...

2006-02-11T12:46:00.000+08:00

10th Feb 2006

Early this morning, I received my confirmation letter when David hand it to mi..hard to describe my feelings at that point of time...but it does feel good that i am now a confirmed engineer , part of the STA Engines family and i can continue to do what i enjoy..Seriously, i dunno wat I wan to be if I am out of the Aerospace industry...Itz the passion and love and pride for aero-engines that i cant find outside...Maybe with other aerospace industry but i kind of like the STA environment especially after today's outing...Itz going to be a ladies nite!itz meant to be a farewell dinner for our colleague, Carine..she is a wonderful secretary..the Engineering dept really cant do without her but she is moving on for greener pastures...even our Engineering Director did not manage to retain her which is very sad...She has given mi alot of help and care during my probation period...always a very cheerful lady with 2 adorable kids..her cubicle is filled with their family pictures..Wat a loving mother.. =)

Now i am getting busy with my daytime job but i still try to find time for my frens and my business of coz..Anyway, at around 530pm,all of us were ready to get out and enjoy our friday weekend nite! Our dinner was arranged at Parkway Thai..I am getting sick of thai food ..cant imgaine everyday eating sweet and sour stuff..I am not going to eat it until the end of the year!!! Carol, mi, Priscilla and Christina shared a cab to Parkway Thai..I went and shopped for He Xin's present before we started our dinner..They ordered a 8 course dinner...Attendees were Rohaini, Jenny, Mavis, Geraldine and her 6 year daughter Jean, Carine and her 5 yr old daughter Natalie, Patricia and her 4 yr old daughter Nichole...Haha do re mi...anyway, all of them are very adorable..I particularly like Carine's daughter..very pretty gal...Jean is round and chubby...Nichole a bit thin but she is an intelligent gal..From last nite, we saw hw she became a leader as she managed to command the other 2 gals..haha Full command and control of the situation!

So lets get on with the dinner menu:
1st Dish : Lao Yu Sheng ( Salmon)
2nd Dish : Green mango salad ( Sour and Spicy. Dont really like it but itz a great appetizer..)
3rd dish : Pandan Chicken ( The chicken was marinated and deep fried with pandan leaves.The aroma was full marks!!)
4th dish : Black Pepper Prawns ( Yummy..that can make as a replacement for Black Pepper Crab. The Black Pepper sauce was Oishineh!!)
5th dish : Stir Fried Kailan ( Vegetables must be consumed to gif u better digestion..Garlic and Kailan is the best combi..)
6th dish: Deep Fried Garoupa ( it would taste even better without the sweet and sour sauce :p)
7th dish: Hot Plate Tofu and Egg ( Not too bad..)
8th dish: Otah ( Something different from the normal ones we ate outside...)
9th dish: Pineapple Rice ( The rice is very soft and the aroma of the rice is mouth-watering..)
10th dish: Fish maw soup ( must be taken while hot with pepper!)
11th dish: Assorted cakes and desert ( Coconut tapioca, Coconut cakes and Agar agar)

Wah i had really enuff of those 10 course dinner..I have put on so much weight for the past 2 months..wa kaoz...I have another dinner on Monday at Merchant court hotel for buffet..must go as itz is a confirmation cum promotion treat from the people. haiz...Eat again?????? I dun wan to eat anymore...

Edna joined us at around 8 plus...Then we proceed on to go drinking..wa liaoz...another time when i am feeling very full and we drink right after tat!! I gonna vomit..we went to Villa Bali...woah..itz a nice place!!must go visit..Great place if u wanna chill out...but it looks more like a jungle than bali resort! haha...oh but the ambience is great for couples or group outings..Itz near the old CMPB..at pasir panjang..must pass by St Andrew JC..tink itz the old building..then find ur way into a place with a lot of pubs..so mi, Edna, carol and mavis went to chill out together..haha i was so excited coz Tennan told mi how nice the place was..yeah..haha anyway, we wanted a quiet place, but the hut must have a minimum of $200..so there was only 4 of us and mavis is going off early, i dun drink much..so we changed a seat...We ordered a Caliterrean Cabernet Sauvignon..woah itz very fruitty smell and smooth...not as dry...itz one of the medium range red wine that i have tasted..great taste..But i cant take red wine that well...haha So after the bottle of red wine, then Mavis went off to mit a fren and the rest continue with a few rounds of Kilkenny...i tink the 2 of them drank close to 10 pints of Kilkenny....very good drinkers..They kip forcing mi to drink!! Arghz...nearly wanted to faint!!!Then we ordered a topshell and deep fried baby squids... Nice sides... All the drinks on mi as I promised them this outing once i get my confirmation letter...I am going to give my Technicians a treat as well coz they helped mi alot...haha..Anyway, we had fun until around 230 am and I went to find my frens for supper...Xuan bin, Irving, Tennan and Ben were there..

Something different about Irving now...hmm...he doesnt reply my msgs like he does in the past...he doesnt look at mi even when i appeared last nite...I am kind of scared to look at him oso coz he doesnt seem to want to look in my direction...I wonder is it becos of wat happen at the Gala nite...dunno la...his recent behaviour made mi scared of him..I dun dare to tok to him oso....haiz...then after that I went home with Kelvin..Feeling horrible about the drinks i had..

My CTT is a disaster!!

2006-02-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

08th Feb 2006

Yesterday was my first day giving CTT to my technicians..Besides my own team of technicians, my Program Mgr oso invited other engine line technicians to learn from my training course...but of the same family of engines, the Turboshaft ( Heli) Group..The day before this CTT, we had a long meeting at MINDEF HQ and woah...u really see politics in action..kinda scary i tink..anyway, back to my CTT..I prepared the slides the way i did when i presented to my customers..When i walked into the training room, it was scary!! so many pple...i would say there are at least more than 10 guys in the room and all older and experienced than me...kind of intimidating to tok to so many pple..becoz i cant overcome my psychological barrier of speakign in the public..i guess i was sort of being 'looked down' by my Program Mgr..Orh..i hate that.. i wonder why am i able to present so fluently in my business but not at my engineering field..I guess i could be more competent and passionate when u are presenting something that u really understand...i really understand my work before i went in to the training room but somehow, the crowd gives mi alot of pressure..

As all my frens noe mi, i tok very fast when i am excited or nervous...normally, my speed is like an mrt train..but when i am nervous, i go like Japan's bullet train...so fast that u cant really catch wat i am saying and for myself, i didnt even remember what i said..Itz just too mental blocking for mi...arghz...i skipped from slide to slide and not very sure if my technicians got my msg..but they tried not to embarass mi by saying they understand and no questions for mi..but however, my Program Mgr wasnt happy and he made mi go back to my first slide and repeated my slides in his own explanation once again..initially, i din feel anything coz i really think i did a lousy job..but when i told Sze hao (usu i complaint to him..haha) he say he was being mean coz he made mi 'lose face' ..he shouldnt have done tat ..he could have corrected my mistake when i am alone with him.. Moreover it is my first time giving presentations...I told Weiming and he agree too...Weiming is a full time teacher...so he taught mi how to present so that pple can understand..go 3 to 4 times slower...pause after 4-5 slides...recap the first few slides and gif time for ur audience to understand...that is alot to learn..my god...So i said my CTT is a diasaster... =(

Huo Yuan Jia...

2006-02-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

Woah..Just came back from a movie with my fren, Jianxi..Share a bit more about this fren of mine..We were from the same secondary school..been classmates since Sec 1 and 2...he used to be the Chairman of my class and at that point of time, i had a crush on him..haha but secret admiring someone becomes a big news around the class..haiz ..since then my classmates have been teasing mi and him..the crush lasted around 3 years..coz when i was in Sec 3, we were in a different class and i got to know that he likes a gal in his church..so our story nv continued from there...we lost contact since sec 4 ...then until when i was in Uni Yr 1, we got each other's number from Friendster and started keeping in contact..he is a very nice and decent guy..He is hardworking..graduated with a Architect diploma from SP i tink..now he is going to fly to Dubai to further his career ...He will be working on Dubai mall project..The world's largest shopping mall..we haven been keeping in contact until he msg mi today that he would like to mit up before he fly..so i tot that it would be nice to mit up as we haven seen each other for at least another 2 years since we last met...haha

We met at Swensen restaurant for dinner..He ordered a Black pepper Seafood pasta and Ice Lemon Tea..He likes Iced Lemon tea alot...haha I ordered a Grilled Fish Sambal and mango juice..had a good chat to catch up with one another....Then we decide to go for a movie since it is still early...We went to Tampines mall for to see what movie is nice...Finally, we choose Huo Yuan Jia...Oh guys!! u must watch that show...itz DAMN NICE!!! VERY NICE!! it is very meaningful and touching...The one man who stood up to fight for the honour of Chinese...From an arrogant,ambitious and ignorant man, he lost everything in one night after a death fight with an expert, Master Qin...He lost his loved ones, his mum and his daughter..He left his hometown and live his life without meaning...He came to a village and got to know a blind gal..Though she is physically blind, she is not blind at heart..She cultivated him and changed his perception of life..She says: If people can understand and respect one another, everyone will live in peace and harmony.. Huo realised that Vengeance begets vengeance and he changed....his character changed was very touching...For more, watch the movie..This movie is not any less than the best Hollywood Movie u watched before...Trust mi!!

Gala nite...

2006-02-06T09:09:00.000+08:00

04th Feb 2006,

This nite is a nite of recognition for people who puts in their efforts to realise their dreams..a nite of emotions, pride and thanks...Itz a different environment totally..an environment where people recognise ur efforts and cheer for ur success and most importantly, all my good frens are around to share my joy...

Irving, Ben,Vincent, Gabriel,Marc, Kent, Bangwen and Xuan bin and etc...too many to name...We have moved one step ahead to realize our dreams...Congratulations guys! u are the best!! Heard moving stories of how people are not put down by their setbacks..how people get back to their feet with their efforts and how people succeed with their pure determination and perserverance...believing deeply in themselves that if others can do it , they can do it too!Shawn Wong put forward a best speech i guess coz i was very touched and motivated by his story...He shared with us how his businesses collapse and how he managed to achieve what he has now...not by pure luck but juz being hardworking and continuous efforts to make it...

If u wan to be successful, follow the people who are successful and do what they do...Successful people overcome their fears, while unsuccessful people never make an attempt..

I was reading a book and came across the best quotation I ever read...

" All men dream ,but not equally. Men who dream by the night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the morning to find it was but vanity, but those men who dream by day- these are dangerous men, for they dream with open eyes to make their dreams come true."
- T.E. Lawrence

Inspiring isnt it?? =)

After our Awards, we went to Lau Pa Sat for supper...Time passed by fast..it was 11pm before we knew it..We just have a lot of fun mingling with one another...I found many true friends here..We ordered Satay, carrot cake, fried Kway Teow and chicken wings...had a good time laughing and enjoying..I found new meaning in my life...Haha took some pictures...hee also took with Irving...he looks cool in that coat... Went home after the whole event...So tired...

Lao Yu Sheng!!

2006-02-05T12:59:00.000+08:00

3rd Feb 2006

Still feeling sleepy early in the morning but wat to do?? still have to go to work right? haha...so i dragged my body to the toilet for wash up...before i stepped into the toilet, i got a bad feeling...* i am radar for roaches* Somehow, the roaches in my house like the toilet very much but my toilet is very very very clean...tatz funny...maybe roaches also upgraded their living standards..haha anyway, i sat on the toilet bowl..still agonizing over the fact that i am still awake early in the morning...arghz...i heard a flapping sound behind mi! i was shocked and turned around immediately...but i din se anything...i tot i was over sensitive..so i relaxed and tot it could be some birds flying past the window...still felt that something was not right.i turned around and looked again..Radar is working!! I saw a big fat cockroach on the pipe less than 0.5m away from mi!! I pulled up shorts and rushed for the door..!! arghz...disgusting thing!!but i fell uncomfortable not to bathe in the morning...so i quickly grabbed my tooth brush and went to my mum's toilet to bathe..that toilet doesnt has a a heater...so cold!! Stupid roach!!

Today is our company STA Engines Lo Hei Lunch for Engineering department..Our lunch took place at Long Beach Restaurant at East Coast..tat lunch took around 3 hours to be completed...Wah...hee wat a pity that i did not bring my camera phne out to take pictures of the 8 courses....haiz...anyway, i shall try to provide a very descriptive version of our lunch...this lunch was organised to celebrate our Chinese New Year..Of coz, the first dish will be Lao Yu Sheng!! For pple who dunno watz tat, it consists of radish, onions,cucumber and carrots cut into very thin slices like noodles in different colours and u can have salmon sashimi on top...with crushed peanuts,sesame and prawn or crab crackers to be thoroughly mixed with sweet sour sauce...Yummy!! Chineses believed that it is symbolic to Lo Hei within the first 15 days of New Year..to bring good luck, wealth and prosperity...So the higher u Lao, the better the yr will be...haha this dish came with 4 digits 1857...Can try ur luck with it...hee win liaoz muz share share abit ar!!

The next dish that came along was Crayfish in Mayonaise...Yummy...the crayfish are deepfried and later mixed with some Mayonaise ...Some sweet sour lettuce and sliced cucumber and carrots on the side..3rd dish was Bamboo Clams..It was steamed with minced garlic and spring onions with dongfen on top! Yummy... 4th dish was Pepper Crab..there were 4 crabs for each table...5th dish was Deep fried Garoupa..the fish meat was removed and deep fried in fish meat balls with sugared cuttlefish on top...the fish skeleton was deep fried and decorated in a very nice way..i even felt sad when my colleague Kang ate the skeleton...haha anyway, the 6th dish was Kai Lan with Scallops...the 7th dish was Prawn paste deep fried chicken chunks...i was too pre-occupied with my crabs and i didnt taste the 7th dish..haha then the 8th dish was Hor fun with Big Head Prawns...the sauce for Hor fun was very nice...finally our desert was Papaya stewed with Lotus Nuts..yummy...good for skin lehz...haha wah we were so full tat everbody cant eat anymore..my diet plans are gone!!

After work, I met with Princess Xena..haha our nickname for Hui Shan...haha she is super tall loh...1.73m..she oso got a bigger build coz she used to play basketball..Overall, a pretty, charming, friendly and now single and available...interested??check her out on my friendster!! she is now working as a sales engineer which is currently 70% owned by ST Electronics...Seems like T.H getting more and more rich...when is our pay going to increase????? basic pay covers only basic needs...time to look out for opportunities to increase my assets and not liabilities!! I met Hui Shan for dinner and she was 1 hour late!!! I was boiling by the time she reached but after tat i am fine..haha we ate at Cafe Cartel @ cityhall..She ordered a Mushroom Ham Pasta and Strawberry Soda...I ordered a Roast Turkey and Ham Sandwich and Vanilla Tea..too full to go anymore...Then suddenly we heard a loud noise...it was fireworks @ Esplanade....Lucky us...hee we got a nice view of the whole display tat lasted 5-8mins...so nice...I always love fireworks...they are beautiful for a while but at least they were beautiful once...they gave the brightest and the most beautiful side of them before they disappeared...like shooting stars...The same way i wan my life to be...make best use of my prime time in life and do watever i can to achieve my dreams...besides mi being successful, i wish all my frens to achieve what they wan in their life...Lets work hard together for our dreams...We should dream and dare to dream! for a person who dun even dare to dream, ur life would be meaningless...dream for a better future with ur loved ones, dream of climbing up the corporate ladder and achieve ur goals,dream for the car and lifestyle u wan...Watever u wanna dream...Let ur imagination go wild for this moment..Just Dream!! Itz free!!anyway, i wan fireworks on my wedding...haha beautiful fireworks...hee...

Anyway, after our dinner, we went to KTV at Lucky chinatown together with Kailing and SiewLing...i only like KTV with Partyworld..dun like the other joints...I rather pay more for the system, the service and comfort...haha i tink i sing better at PartyWorld!! Kent came and joined us for awhile before he proceed to Tennan's bdae celebration..We went back home at 3 plus...sleepy!!!but we had a great time!! =)

Irving's Birthday!

2006-01-28T16:59:00.000+08:00

25th January 2006

Today is Irving's birthday..hee i went to Takashimaya and shopped for a while for his present last 2 weeks ago...dun really noe what to buy for him...wanted to buy him a Mont Blanc pen but i am out of budget for it...Mont Blanc pen is nice but super ex loh..when i make more money , then i buy one for him and my daddy! haha...so i looked around for a long time...not knowing what to buy...wanted to buy him a belt but James told mi better dun...but dunno whats the reason behind...anyway, i looked for a tie clip...but i realised not many pple use tat...hmm...so in the end, i went back to Mont Blanc shop and saw a exquisite card holder...can oso be used as a bill holder...so i tot tat might be useful to him and within my own budget too...it was very nicely wrapped up ...better than if i am the one doing it..haha

So anyway, i passed him the present...Steve gave him a Mont Blanc pen..Ben gave him an orange tie...the rest i dunno liaoz...Glad that he like it...and i hope he does have use for it... =)

Summary for Jan 2006!!

2006-01-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

Been a very long time since i last enter my blog...haha so shall make a summary for my Jan 2006...Be prepared for a super duper long blog manz!

First of all, belated Happy New Year to Everybody ...hopefully things have been going smoothly for everyone since the start of the year...haha wish everybody great health, great wealth and happiness to fill up every day with hope and love!How nice if life is a bed of roses!! =) So i shall now start my Jan summary..

1st Jan 2006

I spent my Christmas and New Year with a close fren of mine..Miss Ruyi from Computer engineering ...we were classmates when i was in computer engineering in my first year which I later switched to Mechanical Engrg becoz i dun really like programming and electronic stuff...so I switched to eventually pursue my interest...Aerospace Engrg...anyway Xmas was with Ruyi and Shi Hui...We went to Ruyi house at Bukit Timah...I shopped with Ruyi at the supermarket to prepare our sumptuous Xmas dinner...We cooked Cabonara Spagetthi with prawns, ham and bacon...Oriental Seafood soup with egg..A Super big portion of Fruit Salad which includes golden kiwi, mangoes, Strawberries, cherry tomatoes, apples, dragon fruit and oranges with chocolate sauce as dip...lettuce on the side..haha Warm chocolate sauce with fruits..We are trying to make our special Fondu!!3 baked potatoes with crispy bacon on top...Egg omlette with mushroom and cheese!! a bottle of tropical fruit white wine to go with the food...wow!!haha tatz quite alot for dinner for 3 i guess!!! we drank, eat , took pictures and watch vcd...Full House...haha i like this way of celebrating Xmas...itz not crowded, squeezy and noisy...itz our own quiet piece of our celebration and i like it this way...to celebrate quietly with a few frens...Shi Hui Went home early and i watch vcds with Ruyi until 4am in the morning...the next day, we made breakfast and i went home after tat to prepare for my next outing...haha

It was one of my bosses' house warming cum Xmas celebration so i tot it would be nice to go and take a look at his house...it was at Eunos...I met Eileen and Jiawei to go together and Ben came to pick us up..His house was fantastic...nice and cosy...it cost around S$ 600,000...executive condo i tink...but it was rather nice...small but good enuff for a small family...haha i wish i would own one soon...i know i can do it...juz a matter of when!!we had a buffet and went off at around 7 pm to go my auntie house for another gathering...cant imagine how much fats and calories i put on juz tat day...i definitely put on alot of weight...I hate festive seasons coz of my poor resistance to the temptation of FOOD!! haha my auntie also had a mini celebration and we each got a present for it...so nice!! haha anyway mine was a wrist rest for mouse...comes at the right time as I can put it in the office...haha..went home to rest and start work for the new year!!!

12th Jan 2006

My supervisor,TB was telling mi that he was going to clear my probation...really glad to hear tat...after i knew that i was going to be confirmed...it was a mixed feeling...before confirmation, i felt like an IA student...responsibility, sense of urgency and alot of things that i did during that period didnt come to me as an important issue...after i knew i will be confirmed, i took serious pride in the work...knowing that i am fully responsible for each engine that i do..i take my work seriously now...i have pride in the things i do..sometimes work is not just about money...itz the job satisfaction...itz wat u learned and wat u are able to achieve...all i wan is my Super Pumas to fly high and safe...itz proud to see them flying...itz a feeling hard to describe...Money is not everything but itz something u wun tink is too much to have!!

Make ur money work for u and u work for ur passion!

I had an urgent meeting juz after my boss told mi i was going to be confirmed...it was a very big issue and i shant discuss it over my blogs..but we had a meeting till late...juz trying to get old records and adjusting presentation slides...for the next few days , i was super busy with this issue...woah...it almost turn the whole company upside down...

13th Jan 2006

Today is the 13th..Falls on Friday!! Friday the 13th!!Luckily we still manage to leave office at 630 pm...haha Edna , program manager for T56 engine ( C130 aircraft) was going to give the cast for year end function a dinner treat to thank us for the hard work we put in...3 cheers for Edna!! haha i like Edna since the first day i saw her..she came in 2 days later than mi but she was working in STA for a long time...she used to be in the F16 EDC dept for research and development...a very smart, friendly, pretty and capable lady...my idol!! We met up at Moonfish restaurant...haha my suggestion coz itz my favourite restaurant...I had my seafood pasta...Fantastic...hee...the dinner cost $200 over...with Edna, mi, tze kang, siew wei, jia wei, fabian, wilman and bryan...i had a banana milkshake...so nice!! i am going to buy a digital camera with my bonus...and i will carry it wherever i go so that i can take nice pictures of wat i see , wat i eat and drink...hee so after our dinner, we went to Candy Empire to buy chocolates..nice chocolates!! so buying some for my mummy....then we went to Palemo for drinks...they drank beer and i drank Gin with lime juice except Mr wilman drinking coke coz he is allergic to alcohol...played some games and all of us were having great fun ...hehe then Carol , FAC engineer came to join us...haha Edna and Carol can really drink alot!! especially Edna...she drinks like a fish!! Goodness... I guess i cant take alcohol anymore...i get giddy and i cant hear voices and my vision gets blur when i just drank abit..partly this is the reason why i seldom club now coz i dun drink and i dun like the loud music...itz the lousiest place to go for a gathering if u wanna catch up with someone...haha haiz tat day i vomitted loh..so paiseh...all of them tot i can really drink...haha i guess looks can be quite deceiving at times?? haha Edna offered to send mi home...hee so nice of her...then went home to sleep until the next morning =)

16th-20th Jan 2006

Today my French engineer was supposed to arrive and do some checks on my test cell...Mr Gourgues...He was a lively and bubbly old man around in his 50s..haha i had some problem trying to understand his language and i guess he has it too...haha some cock up here and there but eventually i got him in my company...we had everything set up for the golden engine...but still doing some upgrading to my test cell...arghz...tat was not completed and it dragged into my checking...haiz...we were so worried that we cant finish and i stayed with the crew until 1am on the 17th...juz to keep up with the progress and try to learn as i go along...wow tat was the longest i ever stayed in the company loh...haiz...damn sianz..been doing OT since last week until now...so shagged!!I wanted to stay with them till late coz i didnt wan to leave my French engineer alone...so i wan him to be well taken care of when he is in Singapore...On tuesday, TB brought him out for lunch at Winsor Hotel for a semi buffet...then on Thursday lunch, Chia ( Test cell Asst Principal Engineer) brought Mr Gourgues, Simon, Lau, mi and Phua out for lunch at Hougang Plaza , Jack's Place...wow...hee he ordered Escargots, seafood salad and i ordered a Grilled chicken set lunch..Had Orange juice, soup , desert , garlic bread and coffee...hmm yummy yummy!! damn full for dinner...My first time eating Escargots...haha i wun dare to order for it if i am paying coz kind of funny to eat snails..and wat if i dun like the taste!!but itz not bad la...hee..Mr Gourgues had a meeting with us before he went off...told us corrective actions to be made and the meeting started from 5 pm to 9 pm loh...oh coz my boss David is inside...wah once he step in, dun expect the meeting to end early...but he is a very meticulous and super experienced guy in all the engines...he deserves all the respect due...Didnt manage to say good bye to Mr Gourgues as he was rushing for his flight...i guess i will miss him ba!! haha he looks like Santa claus ...haha...

I haven seen Irving for the past whole week due to my busy work schedule in STA...so sad.... =(
Haiz but anyway i guess he is too busy to tok either....but he did ask Jia wei what is wrong with mi..haha i am not lost...juz too busy with work but eventually i noe wat i wan.... =)

20th Jan 2006

I met up with Cheryl for dinner...Cheryl is a friend of mine whom I knew at Temasek Hall while i was in my first year..she is very easy going and bubbly character...great gal to hang out with...she looks like Rui En!! haha wan to noe her?? go to my friendster account and check it out...haha anyway , i brought her to a Jap Restaurant.. we had omlette rice , Saba fish and chicken quesdilla...nice..I had a passion fruit tea and she had a strawberry tea for digestion!! haha...nice to chat with her..we chat about many things..like work, money and even setting up business...haha learnt about something....u noe how to differentiate assets and liabilities?? Recognize them and u will learn how to make money work for u then u work to make someone else business richer... =)

"Assets puts money in your pocket and Liabilities takes money out of your pocket..Make ur assets grow and kip ur liabilities low..Tatz how the rich get richer...."
-Adapted from Rich Dad, Poor Dad by Mr Robert T. Kiyosaki

Christmas is Coming!!

2005-12-27T14:16:00.000+08:00

22nd December 2005,

Today is a bad day coz of stomach cramps...haiz...i hate stomach cramps...and luckily today we are having a full dress rehearsal for STA Engines Year End Function... I will be taking part in a sketch with Wilman,Jia Wei, Xiu Wei, Tze kang, Fabian, Justin and Bryan...Basically all the new engineers will be down..haha our function is at Amara Hotel..so we are only working half day and we will go down to the hotel for our rehearsal...was terrible the whole day coz i didnt manage to get anything done...cannot concentrate on anything at all...so terrible...ok so i got my dress and platform shoes ready before we set off to Amara...we took Edna's car to the hotel..

By the time we reached, we went to Subway for lunch and had jokes during lunch time...so fun and relax without having to work...we went up to the hotel and started our preparation to decorate and eventually for our full dress rehearsal...it was so funny...during my entrance to the sketch, i was walking so confidently with my platform shoes until it snapped and the whole sole came off....haha it was so funny and embarrassing...arghz...i bought that shoes dunno how many years ago...but the moment it came off, i was stunned...so embarrassing...but i juz quickly chucked that shoes off and went upstage barefooted...haha...then after the final rehearsal, i went off..not home but went to mit my fren cheryl...i was kind of feeling better so i decided to mit up with cheryl...haven seen her for a long time...

Before that , I went to mit 3 other frens to pass them their Christmas present..Tennan, James and Jia Wei..it was a shackle ( key ring) with their names engraved on...hee not too sure what to buy for them until i saw the key ring in Cineleisure...the boss is very nice to gif mi free engraving coz i bought quite a few...Wanted to pass Irving his present but he super rubber with his time...haiz...told mi he will be in office at 6pm and in the end, tell mi he will in at 8pm...arghz..so i went off to mit cheryl for dinner first...I brought her to Thai Lotus restuarant at Tanjong Pagar...there are many nice places there to eat...so i brought her there...we chatted quite alot despite not seeing for a very long time...we lost contact for abt 3 years i tink....so after her dinner, i sent her to the mrt station and i went to find Irving...

He very hard to talk to coz he is always so busy talking to many people...haha haiz..so i went with James to have some drinks until i msg him and ask if he got a few mins to spare...so i waited for him then pass him the Christmas present...we stayed for until sometime then decided to go supper with the rest of the people...Irving was holding two presents when he came down from office...one from mi...so he asked mi if he can open the present..i say sure of coz...hee...i tink he was very happy when he saw the key ring...luckily got James to tip mi off..hee and i bought something that is useful and he likes...Thanks James!! I bought him a BMW 3 series key ring...i went all the way to Alexandra and choose for him... haiz...luckily he likes it alot..if not, i would have wasted my effort...

After supper, i went home in a cab...i dun have cash and i didnt wan to borrow from my frens so i asked the uncle if credit card is ok...he kip asking mi to hop in hop in...then i say i wan to go Tampines, he say : oh Woodlands i noe how to go...wa kaoz..i nearly wan to bang his head...until i say very loudly that i wan to go tampines...then he say sorry uncle half deaf...arghz...mi freaking tired and still got to handle a weird uncle...arghz...so he tok rubbish and drive very slowly until i rush him to hurry up..until he reached my place and he say he cant use card becoz he dun haf the machine...i feel like strangling him!! so anyway , i directed him to ATM machines...arghz...i asked him to stop the meter while i go withdraw money..i gave him $50 and my cabfare was $17.25...he gave mi $2.70 change..i slammed his door and he sped off...i got angry and juz kept cursing him until i realised that he gave mi $30 less....no wonder he sped so fast!! Bas***d!!!i got so angry that i cant sleep the whole nite!! =(

A Weekend Trip to Batam!!

2005-11-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

Last nite i slept very late...was out for supper with my frens until 4plus in the morning...was so tired the next day that i actually wanted to forgo my Batam trip with my NTU frens..the same group of frens whom i joined them for their grad trip to Redang and KL...haha but i noe if i dun go, Kailing will kill mi loh...I woke up at 945...I was late...coz we supposed to mit at 10am at Harbour front and i juz woke up at 945...was cursing and swearing until i rushed myself to get ready in 15mins and got into a cab...Mum asked mi y am i in a rush and i told her i was going Batam...she was shocked!! haha wondering y i go Batam and nothing much to do there..Well tat was wat i tot to...but i mean going out with Kailing is fun..no matter where we go..haha so i decided to go despite my heavy head..so i rushed off in a taxi..until i reached Harbour Front..then i gave him a $50 note and he was like: u dun have small change?? then of coz i dun haf tatz y i gif the big one mar..so he grumbled to himself and said: carry big notes when u are in a hurry...i heard tat and i was like: Uncle, sorry ar i only got big notes...take it or i dun pay loh...nowadays taxi drivers are getting very poor in their attitude...when i can afford a car myself, i wun ever need to take a taxi...pay pple money and i still got to listen to him complaining...ok so i reached Harbour Front and Gim yong was supposed to come and bring mi to the rest of the group...haiz..i was like y cant Kailing come fetch mi lehz...but later i realised that Mickey didnt turn up and Ling's cousin took his place...so she couldnt juz leave her cousin alone there..we boarded the ferry and we were late for boarding..but luckily the officer let us go and the ferry has not sailed off yet...wat a lucky day!!

So we reached abt an hour later after we boarded the ferry...we reached the hotel and put our things before we were all set to go out...dun really noe what we can see there...haha the hotel was quite a nice place..Holiday Inn Hotel and itz got really nice ambience ...so we walked around the hotels...haven got the pics but i will put them up soon...then we decided to take a cab to go out to the city for some shopping..we reached the shopping centre Megamall...quite big lar...but not too much things to see there...nt really very cheap oso...but the Levis jeans was cheap and it was authentic too...so Wenxin( Ling's cousin) bought 2 at one go for only $90 over dollars...real bargain..haha...then we had lunch at AMW...the fast food restuarant that died off in Singapore...Root beer float still taste as wonderful..We went to the supermarket...haha itz something like Carrefour and i really loved supermarket..coz many things to see and eat!!!! We bought snacks and drinks like nobody's business...haha for the ladies, we even bought panti liners back!! haha each of us bought around 1 packet each ...coz itz damn cheap there lar...haha so may as well buy..we were even wondering if we can bring a carton of it back to Singapore..haha then we will be the first to smuggle panti-liners! :p Anyway, there were chaos when we were abt to pay up..haha can u imagine spending 6 figure in a supermart?? haha obviously not Sing dollars...but the exchange rate was terrible for us to calculate...first time in my life spending 6 figure in the supermart!Later we walked around and went back to hotel at 6plus...Batam's time is one hour back to Singapore time..so we had a rest and went to Polo Ralph Lauren shop in the hotel...wah this time all of us bought many Polos coz itz quite cheap...convert to Singapore money, every shirt costs around $30...so itz quite a bargain compared if u buy them in Singapore!

We went back in cab and then headed to the sea food restuarant for our dinner...haha we ordered prawns, crabs, Kai Lan, Tofu and of coz with rice..haha wonderful...itz really nice to sit by the sea and enjoy seafood with ur frens...it cost in total SGD 98...maybe a bit ex i tink...but alright lar...coz i dun like to be calculative with wat u eat esp u are out on a trip...spend if u like it...tatz how i tink we should enjoy a trip..it wun be fun if u juz wan to budget on everything... =)

So i stayed in the hotel after dinner while the rest went to ktv...haven had a rest in a while...the feeling of staying alone in the hotel was wondeful...sipping a cup of hot sugared tea and listening to FM 93.3 for my fav chinese songs...haha wonderful..tatz the kind of life i wan when i am 30 with no worries...haha by the time they come back, i was fast asleep...got chased out of bed by Kailing...haiz...we slept til next morning...we had breakfast at the hotel and it was sumptuous...booked my massage..they were having a promotion of Cinnamon body scrub, Shoulder and back massage, Javanese massage and hair spa...i always wanted to do spa in batam or bintan...saw tat it was really relaxing and of coz with the natural sceneries, it just makes u feel even more relaxed...not like Sg..where u only have 4 walls and a bath tub...arghz...i dun call tat a spa...was reading a spa mag while doing the hair spa...SPA came from the greek word, Sanitas per Aqua...health thru water..spa actually lasted for many many years...and itz still as popular...haha i caught a glimpse of a Bali Spa...itz on the rocks..wooh...can u imagine doing spa and facing Indian ocean??? haha i am going to organise that spa trip to Bali soon!!! i simply love spa...hahaha tatz the end of my trip...bought 3 Polos...a cute piggy bank...and panti-liners!! hahaha =D

A Day Trip to Muar

2005-11-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

Yeah...finally a day to get out of Singapore last Sunday...i went to hui qing house to stay overnite on saturday coz we are going to Muar on Sunday...dunno wat we are going to do there...so i tot itz juz a normal outing to Malaysia with Huiqing and her parents to eat and shop...it was really fun...i went to her house and we chatted before going up her house ...i was rambling on and on abt my biz and she juz listen attentively to mi...she is always so nice and a good listener...no matter if she understands or not, she will listen to mi...i am very blessed to have her as my best fren...really...anyway we chatted until like 4plus in the morning..when we reached her house, it was like quite early in the morning..haha slept for 2 hours and we woke up to get ready to leave for Muar...i didnt change any Ringgit...her parents were very nice to lend mi money first..so paiseh...first time to go on trip with them and i got to borrow money from them... * shame shame* but her parents very easy going...hee...we had a tour guide and he was very humorous...very informative and humorous...so the whole trip was made even better with his presence..his name is Ah Biao..came from Malacca...so he told us that we will be going to visit a few temples in Muar...aiyah...wasted...should have broughtmy mummy along..she always like to visit temples...

We reached Malaysia at around 8plus...stop over for breakfast...then went to our first stop which is a Da Bo Gong temple...there are many many temples there and it was said that Muar was a Feng shui land..like a treasure pot...so tat place produce alot of famous pple in Msia...next time i muz also buy a piece of land in Muar to build my bungalow..hahaha so i bought 2 piece of Tian Zhu..said to have the power of blessing the person u buy for...bought one for my daddy to put in his car...and one for mi to bless my biz boom!!! haha muz wash with the well water and u muz take the water from the well urself to have the magical powers..haha a bit superstitious but if believing is free and itz not exaggerating, i dun mind giving it a try...God help pple who help themselves..i am helping myself and at the same time, i do hope that God will lend mi his helping hand...may my and Irving's business boom!! haha ...he was all i tink of at that point of time when i was wishing for my biz...of coz i wish my family healthy, properous and harmonius...hehe..i oso wished that Benson will win his gold medal in the coming SEA games..hehe tat sweetie will be famous when he is back...All The Best Benson!!

We went for lunch at a shopping centre resturant..wasnt tat bad..we were served shark fin's soup as well..haha 50 bucks for the lunch and dinner provided...we went to another temple..It was another Da Bo gong temple...this one a bit different...got a Koi that is super big and long!! i nv seen such a big fish...watch Anaconda before?? that fish looks like Anaconda Koi!! haha very big and long...it was said that by touching the head or the tail of the fish.. u will be blessed..of coz i didnt try tat coz i scared that the gigantic koi will eat my hand ...haha juz kidding...but itz really big!!! the temple was beside the sea...kind of brought back the memories i have of Mauritius with hui qing...oh i miss those days...haha then we went to some cake shops to buy the traditional cakes of Malaysia like Wife biscuits, tau sa pia, peanut sweet ( mummy loves them) and also beh ti soh( ma ti su) my favourite!!I also bought 2 VCDs namely the Aviator and Bewitched...didnt see them when they were on the big screen..haha bought some cakes for my grandma coz she loves them too...muz go visit her this sunday..haven seen her and my grandpa for a long time...miss them...but i am too busy with my work and biz...haiz...money cant buy my time with my grandparents and family..hehe

We finally went to a last temple..the God there was Shan Cai Ye...a God who blessed pple with wealth..obviously i hoped for my biz and prayed for someone-u-noe...haha..the place wasnt tat big and fantastic but they say this temple is very famous coz alot of pple had their wishes came true after praying...my wish coming true soon...haha when i get my wish, i will go back to make donations..haha

After the temple visits and shopping, we went for dinner and again, there is shark fin's soup..haha my fav though i tried not to tempt myself..coz killing the sharks juz for the fins is very inhumane...look at the way they kill...i cant bear to see it...but itz a delicacy...so once in a while wun be so bad i guess... :p after tat we went home and i bathe and slept after tat...tiring but very fun!!!

Athena, The Goddess of Wisdom..

2005-11-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

I took this quiz: Which Greek Goddess are u? just now and I am Athena..haha or rather i belong to her category!Maybe u would like to try this quiz out to find out more about urself...
http://www.paleothea.com/quiz.html

My analysis is as follows:
Athena is one of those Goddesses who just inspires awe. Man, she is just sit-your-ass-down-ROCKIN'-cool. First of all, she is the Goddess of more things than I can shake a stick at. Second of all, she has an incredibly cool story of birth, that is very important to her mythology.

She was the Goddess of Wisdom, Goddess of Military Victory (war with good tactics and winning strategies, not just fighting, like Ares), and Goddess of Crafts.

Athena invented the flute, the trumpet, the earthenware pot, the plough, the rake, the ox-yoke, the horse-bridle, the chariot, and the ship. Now that's just the "guy" stuff. She was also the first teacher of the science of numbers, and all women's arts: weaving, cooking, and spinning.

Haha...tatz all about the abstract i got from this website...quite accurate...coz pple who noe mi by now knows that i am a warrior!! i noe exactly what i wan and work hard towards it..!!

I hate Rainy days!!!

2005-11-18T13:05:00.000+08:00

Itz a raining morning..how i wish i can stay in bed ....but then i got to wake up early for work...so i left my bed very reluctantly...sianz...anyway, i got myself ready and left house at around 740am...arghz...itz always very difficult to get a cab on a rainy morning...Oh my god...i waited for a cab from 745 to 830am..all the cabs were either busy or on call....i tried calling for a cab at 8am...i start work at 8am...arghz..but the stupid line was engaged!!!! itz really very fustrating...i need a car...i decide that i need to work hard for my dreams ...only then i realise that maybe a job isnt for mi...coz i dun wan to be Just Over Broke!! i wanna spend more time doin more meaningful things that will help mi realise my dreams faster...i cant tink of anything other than wat i am doing at nite now...my biz...it almost meant everything to mi right now...if it fails, i have no idea what else i can do ....but not putting too much hope and expectations...becoz the higher expectations u haf towards something, the more disappointment you will get if things dun happen the way u wan it...but at least i wanna be in control! i finally reached office at 9am..which was freaking late....no mood for anything today at all...haiz..juz very depressed abt wat happen in the morning...I WAN MY OWN CAR!!

Went to my office after work today..supposed to meet a fren for dinner but last min, he got to do OT...so nvm...i went to eat with Bangwen, Xuan bin..my other biz partners oso there...so nice to be with them...we share common goals and dreams...nv see a team so united ..especially we only noe each other for a month only...so itz kind of different...no back stabbing, nobody wil scold u if u do anything wrong, everybody willing to share ...a biz that fuss abt pple...wonderful...a career and working environment i always wished to have...kind of tough work in the beginning..but i noe itz definitely worth it..my office has been my second home...8 hrs in STA Engines, 5 hrs in my other office and the remaining on transport and home...muz spend time with my family on sundays..mum misses mi alot..i miss my mummy cooking and my sisters' company...but i noe i am working hard to better provide for them...my mum understands and is supportive of wat i do..sincerely appreciate what she has always been doing for mi...buys alot of tonics for mi...always asking what time i am coming home..might be irritating at times but i noe she is the only one who cares and cares with her heart and soul...Mummy i love u!! Mummy i miss u so much as i am typing my blog...if u can read my blog...i hope u noe tat i love u with all my heart....dun worry too much for mi coz i noe wat i am doing...clear of my directions in life and i need all your support... =) i am planning for a trip to china for her and my daddy...very sadly, my whole family nv gone on a tour before...too many pple in the family...not too well to do to fly every year...but i will make this childhood dream of mine come true very soon...to afford for a trip with my family every year...

Anyway, was in office after dinner...saw Irving in office...looks damn smart with that pink shirt...but he kinds of drift away from mi, Jiawei and some biz partners...maybe he too busy?? i dunno...was msging Ben..my ex-bf..so was sharing with him my biz...he asked mi to go to his hse and find him to tok...i was in a dilemma...haven seen him for sometime...if i am still who i was before, i wouldnt have hesitated to go find him...but i noe itz not right..he has a gf...I realised that he is a self centred man...an immature man....very irresponsible and selfish as well...for the first time, i rejected going over to his hse to find him...i got my dreams and i noe wat kind of man i wan as a bf...I felt so proud of myself...haha...i am very soft hearted at times..esp when it comes to old flame...but itz over a long time ago...i am changed....haha :p

In Shanghai...

2005-11-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

So sad...Irving is away to Beijing and Shanghai for 4 days..He will only be back on monday and tuesday is his cousin's wedding...so effectively he will only be back on thurs...the office feels so different without him...anyway i miss him quite alot...haha dun feel comfortable when he is not around..i guess most of my biz partners feel the same too...I tot Irving was leaving on Wednesday...so i msg him take care and stuff...but he didnt reply...hmm...i find tat weird..he sure knows how to keep his price up and sell...gals are sensitive creatures ...Heard Ah Hao that he has a few admirers in the company...but i tot if he likes mi, he will like mi...if he doesnt, even without competition, he will still not like mi..So i believe what is meant to be, itz meant to be...tatz on point of view abt love...but not wat i feel abt a person's life...nothing is meant to be in life..coz u can control...i always feel that u have certain control over ur life..so decision making is impt in our life...

I tot he went to Shanghai on Wed..so i din go down to office..but mainly becoz i was meeting Ginny and Baoling...We went to Kallang indoor stadium coz it was raining very heavily...bought oyster omelette, satay and chicken wings...of coz, how could we miss out Coco, Gin's dog??? tat dog was practically crazy when she saw us eating!!hmm...was kind of disappointed that day coz i msg him the whole day but he nv reply mi....then thursday i met up with Ferrine and I saw him at the office..quite angry and shocked to see him..( i dunno y i am angry oso..maybe becoz he didnt reply and i felt like a fool..) so i pretended not to see him...while i was in the conference room, i tried not to look out for him...but then he flying off soon...so i juz kept turning to look outside...then i saw him and he smiled..so nice to see him smile..ok so he went off to the airport...tink they flying off at 1am...he called Ben at 12 plus and we were all in office..before Ben hang up, he asked if i got anything to say to him...so pai seh...*blush* haha but he ask mi to take care thru ben...haha cant sleep liaoz..Kidding..i not tat crazy over him...

Today is Sat...met up with my sec sch fren, Gaurav...he changed alot i guess...used to be very quiet and low confidence...but now i see him, i am glad he is more outspoken now, more confident and a man with goals...haha until today, then i noe he is an Indian...Trust mi, he doesnt look like a normal Indian...coz he is more fair...so much fairer that he looks like a European...but he is a 100% Indian...going to join SIA in flying soon...he is a Steward...haha now i got one more fren in SIA...so nice..when my biz is stable, i will take up air stewardess if i can be one...coz by then, i got too much time to spend...hahaha but itz a nice meet up session with him..coz he is a business student..he says i talk like a business graduate but i am an engineering graduate...hahaha maybe i should have taken Business instead..was almost flying with all his compliments when i was exchanging ideas with him on the business scene and jobs and pple in Singapore..basically, we just feel tat u need to do more than wat u are doing now for bare survival...look at our education structure...ineffective to produce talents but we ended having a big bunch of pple having the same goal: get a degree, get a job and be an obedient citizen to pay ur taxes and bills on time..no extra $ for other stuff...after housing loans, insurance, handphone bills, children education funds and everything... u are almost a goner!! do something abt it now...earn more and save more for a rainy day rather than make it when u need it...tat will be too late...

Anyway, really sick of my full time job now..really..wish i could get over it soon...haha

MDRT

2005-11-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

STA Engines juz like normal...normal office routine and scoldings here and there...haiz...i like the name but dun like the job...not say dun like...juz tat too much responsibilities and work to be done...die...got presentation on the 14th...better start to get back to work!!!

Anyway, i am feeling wonderful coz i like my life now...i spend my daytime at STA and nite time at my company with all my close frens..where to find such a conducive working environment...hahaha...so nice...been very busy...not even keen to go clubbing until June asked mi to go Dbl O last nite....haha i like it now...alot of freedom and alot of things to tink and do...so nice!! Met up with Yi Neng lately...this guy is good...he is one of the MDRT agent...Million Dollar Round Table..his gf oso one of them..muz be quite outstanding to be one...itz the top 1% of all the insurance agents in the world...shared with mi a very interesting and motivating story...his line is rather similar to wat i am doing except i dun sell...haha here it goes:

Have you ever done a 100 piece jia saw?
Have you ever done a 500 piece jig saw?
Have you ever done a 1000 piece jig saw?
Have you ever done a jig saw without looking at the picture?
If ur ans is No, then i can tell u that alot of pple are doing this esp in the road leading their lives...
Pple picked up random pieces of these jig saw of their life and start piecing everything up..at a point of time, they take a step back and realise that the picture that they made up was not wat they wan in their life...but u can only regret and sigh..
Y not paint a picture of ur life with dreams and pick up the correct pieces that will make up the picture which u want for ur life?

Everybody should have dreams and goals...only when u identified them, then u will work hard towards the dreams and realised it!

Winners dun quit and Quitters dun win...tink abt it =)

Stress!!!

2005-10-30T17:31:00.000+08:00

I am super stressed out by my full time job...today is a saturday and my boss kip bombing my hp from morning till nite...arghz...supposed to go back to office today to compile some data..Y i need to compile data on a sat?? The story goes like this: On friday, while toking to my production controller on some production issues..suddenly two capt from RSAF came to the office looking for my senior engineer...and my senior engineer was on leave..he arranged for a teleconference and he went on leave!!! wat the hell?? throwing everything to mi and expect mi to do the teleconversation without any idea of watz going on?? he nv even consulted my boss whether is his room available for teleconference...everybody was damn pissed off with him...so the capts say nvm, we will do it without him..but damn super unlucky...our internal lines was cut off and i wasnt aware that we can still call to external and i told them that the telephone lines were down...can u imagine how angry u might be if u are the customer????there was a big hoo hah and everybody was on their toes...eventually the capts left unhappily and immediately an hour later, we got a complain email...haiz..i super stressed liaoz...then my boss immediately asked mi to the room and brief him abt the issue...haiz...i juz screwed up alot of things..stayed until 7pm in the office...the first time i stayed until so late...wah biangz..i was supposed to go back to office to compile...itz my fault lar...i stayed out with my business partners until very late at nite...we went to En Lounge for drinks then supper...reached home at 4 and slept at 5 coz i was doing my facial...

Next morning, i saw 3 missed calls and several msgs...i quickly rushed down to the office..finished up my work and went down to my business...my boss juz kip calling coz i was supposed to let him vet thru the report before sending it out to customer...so he say i am not following instructions..second time he called, he asked mi why is there no quantity and how do i noe if i have compiled the data accurately without quantity!! ok so i say i will include it on monday...but i dun understand coz each set of turbine disk should have the full 49 blades wat?? then he say tatz to ensure the batch no. is correct...third time he called he say i should contact the other engineer who is doing analysis and tat guy was on leave! he didnt pick up my call..and i tot he will call back..so my boss say no i shld feedback to him...he is getting on my nerves...subsequently he juz called each time he finds a mistake made or if i didnt follow instructions...i was so stressed up!!! the next thing that boils my blood was a buddy i treated so dearly says dun haf time to mit mi to listen to my biz...in the end, my other biz partner Gina managed to get him down..oh my god...i wasnt angry with Gina..juz tat i dun understand or perhaps mi and him wasnt juz as close as i tot we were supposed to be...i was pretty upset coz i guess i muz have been a very lousy fren to him loh..Irving was supposed to tok abt the biz and i cant force myself to stay becoz i am BLOWING UP!!! i felt so fustrated at my full time job...my boss called until my hp flat and finally when i cant answer his calls, i was relieved...i really dunno if i wan to stay as an engineer...perhaps i am not cut out for it....not a very detailed person...i dunno...i am so stressed! but i love wat i am doing for part time...my forte has always been communicating with pple..i love mixing around and knowing more frens...toking to pple...so i am more of a interactive person than a technical person...i knew tat long ago..juz wanna try out if i am really cut out to be an engineer..my full time job is taking a toll on mi...Dunno dunno...alot of uncertainty ...!!!

BMW 325 CI!!

2005-10-25T15:46:00.000+08:00

Long day at work today...so sianz..getting a bit sick of my daytime job..no freedom and alot of things to tolerate at work...i wish i am self-employed...haha can control my time and yet earn a good income..how to do tat?? if anybody got the means, let mi noe!!! anyway, i feel so much better at my part time..always feel at home and re-charged for the day at my part time job...really learning alot of things from there..

I bought $500+ of cosmetics product last nite...wow...i tell u itz really amazing for that sales person...haha les than an hour, mi and Ben's gf, Jocelyn bought $500+ each...U cant help it but juz wan to buy from her coz her skin is really good and u dun see her with make up...her skin is so supple and radiant that she doesnt need those.. I rather spend my money to buy natural beauty by taking care of my skin than spend money buy cosmetics, cover the ugliness and damage the skin further...haha i tink most gals will agree...if u wanna find out where i am getting my products, mit up with mi and i show u the change in skin and convince u that the products i am using really work wonders... =)

After buying my products, then waited for Ben and Irving to finish up their work and meetings. We went to Bencoolen for supper...Stayed there until very late coz Ben and Irving were discussing about work again...Irving is super workaholic...but he noes the biz works for him and he works hard as well.. Was telling us that he had an argument with his AIA boss..coz they were trying to kip him in the company but he dun feel the need to stay there anymore..There were alot of lady men at Bencoolen...all not bad looking somemore ..only after they started toking then u find it weird...hahaha

Later Irving say he send mi back...yeah...can take his BMW 325 CI...haha he did quite a bit of MODs on his car here and there...we left Bencoolen at 430am...mi reached home abt 5pm..so on the way home, he taught mi alot of things on the biz...it was very enriching...really...gain quite a bit from the ride home...he missed the turn to my hse again and we detour a bit before i really reached home...we smoked at my hse downstairs and so he continued a bit on the biz part...then we tok abt y he had an argument with his boss...quarelled for 5 hours manz...Irving can be quite long winded at times but i wish he would be even more long winded to mi..haha then can tok to him longer mar..anyway, i ask him his chinese name..He is called Ren(4) Bin(1)...nice name..Liu Ren Bin..hehe...so we chatted a while before he left home...reached home at 520am...coz he told mi he needs around 20mins to get home from my place..So sleepy and tired...took a day off from work tmr ...if not, i cant concentrate at all even if i work tmr..

Outing with my new frens!

2005-10-24T11:10:00.000+08:00

Sunday...nice day to catch up on all my lost sleep..in the end, i really overslept and missed one tuition today...nvm ..i promised to make up to her on monday...i am getting sick and tired of tuitions..like i say, i nv did like tuitions ..juz do it mainly for the money sake..Should i work for money or should I understand how money works so that money works for mi instead?? given a choice, which would u like to choose?? of coz , everyone would be glad to choose the latter but how many are willing to put in the effort and time to understand how money works for u? the education system is made in such a way that everyone is moulded towards a certain goal in life...get a good degree so u can get a good job and leave the rest of ur life with more and more bills to pay and a miserable, never-growing paycheck...tatz quite sad isnt?? ever wonder how come millionaires around the world are all school drop outs?? becoz even though they are bad in studies , they are all risk takers and i guess that is how their fortune comes about..the courage to take risks...!!Even Lee KY oso encourage us to do that now!Anyway, everyone noes what they wan but only pple who puts in the effort reaps what they sowed..I tink God is fair ya?? =)

So supposed to be at a birthday dinner for my grandfather...but becoz of some selfish reasons ...i did not turn up for it..my mum and ah xi was so angry with mi...i felt so sad and guilty for it...i promised my mum to make up for my grandpa's bdae...I felt very bad but at that point of the time, i was in a dilemma...coz i was supposed to attend a outing with my new frens...Ben, Irving,James, Tennan, Bangwen, Xuanbin, Chee Hao, Eileen, Kuan and Jia wei...etc so many of us...there were around 22 of us at Marina Bay eating the steam boat buffet..itz more fun to be with frens around ur age...alot of things to share and itz really fun...enjoyed myself at the dinner...but pls dun get mi go another buffet dinner k..i dun eat alot loh..so not fair to me...the dinner was a treat from Irving and Ben...juz got our paycheck and so they got us a treat..yup so in the end, for my own sake, i did not attend my family dinner...i felt guilty but will make it up for it..haven been spending alot of time with my mum...so muz tok to her more often when i have the time..

so after the dinner, we were deciding where to go...at first we decided to go for pool at Irving's shop, Pool Fusion..we started splitting pple into cars...haiz...i was too impulsive!! i followed ben's car straightaway..wasted...coz nobody following Irving's car loh..in the end, gim yong took his car...arghz...feel like strangling him then..haha but anyway, better be a bit more low profile with Irving..he seems to notice i tink...then later they decide to change to ktv...more bonding there mar..haha so we went to Tanjong Pagar Party world..tat room was super big..nv see such a big ktv room before unless u are in a group of at least 20...haha anyway, Irving sang Jay Chow's: An Jing..he sang well and quite surprised that he can read the chinese characters ..his chinese very bad one..then the whole place was juz filled with pple moving around, toking to one another...as if we known each other for a very long time..but in actual fact, we did not...some maybe a few days or 1-2 months...tatz the power of fate i guess...without Ben, there wun be Weiming and Jiawei and I wouldnt have got to noe Irving...so itz this very mysterious power of destiny that brought pple together...so we should always treasure our frens and family around us...

So Eileen came over and sat with mi..then we played games with Irving and James..Irving is a very smart person...or should i say he is more street smart?? he could decipher alot of games that we were playing...like one example was, u have an empty beer mug, put a coaster on top of the beer mug, then put a cigarette vertically up on the coaster, finally put a coin on top of the cigarette...so now how do u get the coin into the empty beer mug without touching anything?? Irving was smart..he guessed the answer and got the coin in!! There was one trick which he showed mi and Eileen..he say he can make Yusoff Ishak, the face on the $50 note smile and cry..which was amazing lor..haha ok fold the face into half, with the face facing outwards, bent at certain angles and u will see the diff..then we oso play games with beer and our unlimited supply of Jasmine honey...oh my god!! everybody will remember this drink manz...drink until wanna puke liaoz..haha

So we ended our sunday nite at 230am...Irving went back to office to do some work with Steve..then the rest all went home..I took Tennan's car...so nice of him to send mi home..haha nice day with my new frens...life starts to get a bit more fulfilling and satisfying now!! =)

Cold day..

2005-10-20T16:50:00.000+08:00

Wow...these few days have been cold yeah..hehe i was almost too comfortable to get out of bed...haiz ...wat to do?? got to work leh....so sad....how i wish i can wake up one day and not going to work...kind of miss shopping, high tea, movies and ktv with my buddies...hey buddies, look out for mi..when i am less busy with my work, get ready to have fun with mi when i call or msg u..haha

Got nothing much to write today...just some tots i wanted to put it down..i tink Irving is avoiding mi...dunno if i am too sensitive..it goes like this: ok i do msg him now and then but becoz i noe he is busy at work and mi too..so i only send 1 or 2 msg before i see him at nite...sometimes he reply sometimes he doesnt..but usu he reply becoz of business...bo liao msg he seldom reply lar...so i guess tatz kind of obvious tat he didnt wan to tok anything other than business...hmm....a bit sad esp i saw him last nite...he was conducting lesson so i went in and listen to his talk...i stood as long as he stood coz no chairs around and i oso din planned to sit down anyway...after the talk, my new fren, Xuan bin was discussing something and we walked towards him...however, i feel tat he kind of ignored mi...like when we walked towards him, his eyes deliberately by pass mi to look at two pple on my sides...ermm..i tink tatz wat i do when i wan to avoid someone eye contact...so i got it and left after i found Jia wei and Eileen..anyway , i guess i idolise him more than i like him...haha juz a bit different...itz interesting to noe more pple...coz everybody is so unique...having their own talents, character and personality...tatz simply amazing with the things u find out in human relationships....no books or school can teach u tat...but i am always a more interactive person so i love talking to pple and finding out more abt individuals...u got more than wat u tink u got...!!

I think : Life is the best teacher...
Irving quoted this during his speech at the award day: No man is an island..

Tuitions...No tuitions??

2005-10-16T11:13:00.000+08:00

Saturday ...hmm.. wat to do on a Saturday morning?? Usually i would be up in the morning giving tuitions...but i nv like tuitions...i gif it becoz i wan to earn more money and yah i dod enjoy the company of some of my kids...really nice kids i have..at times, u do like it coz u can teach ur students and it gives you satisfaction when they are doing very well..but at times i simply hate it...the 2 hours sometimes feels like years...terrible...dunno y oso...pple say tuition is easy money ...true but u noe how fustrating it is when ur students dun work hard and the parents tink tat we are magicians good enuff to change their grades using 2 hrs or even 2 weeks to catch up a 2 yr course work??? dunno wat to say...anyway after this batch of kids...i dun tink i would be back to gif tuitions...got more things in my life to look out for...

So today cancelled all my tuitions..i went to DBS early in the morning to clear my credit card bills..then went to paya lebar ubi ave 3 TP dept to replace my driving licence...i finally got time to do it!! then went down to parkway parade to clear my AIBI installments and collect my Crabtree and Evelyn gift for approval of my Lady's card...yeah...do so many things in the morning...feels great...like a big stone off my mind...ok so i sat at Starbucks alone drinking my fav Iced Cafe Latte with hazelnut syrup...yummy..sat there alone...tink thru my business, my life, my goals and alot of things...until i forgot the time and cancelled my tuitions..so i called Ginny up and she juz woke up...i was going for my last tuition but she say wanna mit up...so i cancelled it again...anyway i didnt feel like giving tuition today..so we met at Bedok Mac and sat there to chat until a very long time...our topic always revolved abt her relationship...one which i tried very hard to get her out of it...

God of marriage ties two lovers together by a red thread on their pinkie fingers...but wat i see from this couple...guess where is the red thread?? i see it on the neck...they tugging and tying down each other juz to see who will suffocate and die first...watz the point?? anyway, i am tired of saying so much to her...but i seriously tink tat spending 24 hrs with the bf doesnt make one's life value-added...there is so much things out there waiting to be explored...for mi, i cant bear to gif up the freedom i am enjoying now...even if i haf a bf, i hope he will be understanding and will not hinder my way of life...if not, i rather gif up a relationship where i cant get understanding from the other party...may be selfish i tink but then from my past relationships and friends arnd mi, i tink single might be better for now...at least we are in the prime time of our youth...we can dare to try and not be afraid of failures...but can we afford to try and risk when u reached 30 or 35 yrs old?? u would be too comfortable in ur comfort zone and too coward to face adversities...

Mit Aik boon, my best brother at somerset for dinner at NYDC..after tat was supposed to go double O with june but tat gal cant find her IC when she was about to come out of her house..the queue was super long oso...eventually we juz went to a nearby pub and chilled out...went home after the meeting...and finally she found her IC at home...haiz..

16th Oct 2005

Today is Ben's Bdae...one of my ex bf...wish him Happy Bdae here...i forgot to msg him but anyway, i hope all his wishes come true on this special day for him...so today i slept until 3 plus...oops...missed 2 tuitions at one go...wake up then watch Full House...so romantic...haha Rain has got a damn good figure...he very cute loh...haha

After tat, i went out to meet Ben, and jia wei and gim yong at Lao Pa Sat..supposed to mit for a an award day event at DBS auditorium...so we walked over and found the place...when we reached there, it was quite full of pple...saw Irving...he was with a pink tie and a suit ...looks damn cool lor...haha anything looks good on a cute guy lar..haha anyway he gave a lengthy but inspiring speech at the award day...a natural speaker...he speaks without preparing his speech at all...tat was awesome...so after the ceremony, we had some phototaking ceremony...and i was so glad that i took a pic with him...will post it as soon as Jia wei forward the pic to mi...haha tatz all for the weekend!!

My Prince Charming??

2005-10-12T11:02:00.000+08:00

hmm...my Prince Charming seems to be appearing very soon...hee..

A short recap of what happened...Met Irving last nite and he was telling mi he was going to change his car..he was driving Integra Type R now...but going to change to a BMW coupe after today...so sad coz i love Integra alot..his one is white colour ..juz like wat i had in mind if i wan to buy this car...so nice to be able to buy car...i hope i can afford for one soon...the question is how? i got my answer and i seeing my dream coming true and realistic every moment.. We chatted alot...like what he did in Ngee Ann Poly - Computer Engrg..i tot he might have known Terrence ( Ngee Ann- Mech Engrg) ..then told mi he was a National Pool player...wow...impressive..got 3 personal cues...i oso planning to get one but nowadays so busy ...no time for billiards at all...sad...i dun like my life like tat as i dun have control over my time...hopefully i can overcome this stage very soon and enjoy life like Irving does it...he is only 25 but yet not far away from financial freedom...if u guys got time, do read up on Robert T Kiyosaki : Rich Dad, Poor Dad and Cashflow quad...maybe u will see enlightenment in the quad that u wish to be in and u are in presently!he likes cars and his fav car plate number is 1668 ..he missed the bidding today and hoping to get it at the next bidding..haha maybe wanna make a guess y? something to do with dialect pronounciation of the numbers..

So after work, I went with Ben, James ,Tennan and a few other pple to Mr Bean for supper...i took Irving's car...since itz the last day he will be driving this car...can see that he really likes this car alot...dun really bear to sell it but he dun feel the need to drive such a fierce car anymore since he is in the office most of the time...during our supper at Mr Bean, they ordered 2 pizzas...i ordered a mango ice tea...nice...stayed out until arnd 4...very tired but itz very fulfilling to listen to this group of pple toking...really learning more and more things now...respect this bunch of pple more than any professors or doctors...sometimes i wonder if we should change our education system..not to teach our kids to come out as college grads and earn a fixed pay check...living paycheck to paycheck and debts and more bills to pay...tink abt it..is tat what u wan in ur life? tink abt in the next 5 or 10 yrs time, wat is ur current job going to gif u? tink abt ur goals in life...when u have ur goals defined, i may be able to help u achieve it.. =)

During the conversations, they suddenly tok abt Irving's gf ...but someone interrupted and say a latest news: No gf now...hehe he is single now lehz...but he is definitely a very eligible bachelor...he has everything a man would wan to have in his life i guess...coz if i am a man, i would wan to be as successful as him...very smart man as he tot of attaining financial freedom is more impt than anything else right now...prioritise the important things in life ..young but hardworking...now studying part time for a degree...i tink itz impt for a guy to noe how to earn ur money..not how much money ur parents have or ur family has it..nv tink much of those rich kids coz i feel that they dun understand the imptance of money and all they do is spend their parents' hard earned money...but Irving changed my perception...he is just so different...itz nice to have met such a fren...sharing with u his tots and experience..

So he sent mi home after supper...really nice to tok to him...after so many comparisons, he would be the number 1 bachelor in my group of friends currently..haha my new IDOL :p

2005-10-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating my blogs for super long time liaoz...hehe now at least i got a bit of time to relax...been very busy with work...everyday close to 19hours of work for the past 2 weeks...oh my god...anyway got investigation to be carried out...quite fulfilling coz i am learning how to pick up evidence, piece them up and try to establish the cause of failure...behave exactly like a detective when the engine fails and behaves like a doctor when the engine comes in for repair..basically , i treat my engine like a human...hahaha understand its characteristic and itz not difficult to understand y it behaves in a particular manner...interesting...but kind of dislike my job in another sense...it gives mi the satisfaction but does not gif mi financial freedom..i dun earn what my company pays mi for the company...but how much am i exactly worth? i dunno..and how much do i tink is enuff ? i dunno...but if there is greener pastures out there, i will venture coz i am still young...work hard and attain the financial freedom asap... =) Love not tat impt to mi now ...i am happier when i am single i tink...at least i have a lot of freedom and time to achieve the things i want... =)

my goal now...earn my first million before 30...a wonderful dream but i will nv attain it if i juz be an engineer...alot of things happen and made mi realize that life is more meaningful than ever...comparing to frens who spend their time with their bfs...i find that i live my life more meaningfully than them...not bugged by the uncertainty in relationships..not bugged by problems that i would faced if i have a bf now...i certainly enjoyed my singlehood right now for sure.. haha

Anyway, made a new fren last week... He is called Irving..promising young man of 25, hardworking, mature, has foresight and most imptly he dreams and realised his dreamz! He got very nice lips...very prominent coz itz usually moist and pinkish...u dun see him with cracked or dry lips at anytime of the day..haha some of frens seen him and they were like *drop jaw* ..He used to Mr Ngee Ann Poly..a very charismatic man...juz noe him on the surface..will tok more abt him when i noe him better..i wonder if he uses lip balm...haha

TGIF...today i met up with a fren...he doesnt allow mi to disclose his name coz he say very paiseh..hahaha anyway, shall call him by his initial BW....he is my project mate when we were having a design module when i was in Yr 3..a very nice and chatty guy...hardworking and smart...only today i realise that he nv like studying..haha we met up for dinner at somerset...went to NYDC for dinner and had a Tiramisu Mudpie for desert....YUMMY! tink i gonna grow fat with the weight program that i am undertaking now..tmr muz cut down on my food intake...haha then later he sent mi home coz i was very tired after so many hours of working...we had a super long chat ..funny thing is that although we dun haf common frens yet we still can chat alot..haha tatz mi...i can tok to anyone as long as they are humans :p sianz..so now i am here typing my blogs after i taken my bath...hehe

Summary of my weekend this week... =(

2005-09-25T11:35:00.000+08:00

Jacelyn is sick!!! arghz...that horrible sore throat of mine is torturing mi =(...making mi feel so weak and terrible...cant even enjoy my weekend tis week...my voice hoarse and throat dry...cant breathe properly oso...sobz..

Even though i am sick and cant enjoy my weekend, i still have something to summarize for wat i did this weekend..hee..

23rd Sept 2005

Today is a friday at work..TGIF!!! haha not tat i dun like my work but itz coming to weekend again and itz so nice...haha but i dun tink i can really enjoy though coz i am sick...itz juz worsen over the weekend..maybe becoz i smoke..Alvin and his fren was at STA Engines today so mi and Sze Hao went to join them for breakfast during our break...after the breakfast, we bring them to tour arnd the workshop and the test cells too..at one of the J85 test cells, i told them that we can see afterburner here and there was an engine testing in there..haha so unwittingly, i asked Xiao Hua if they can run the afterburner for mi to see..everybody was silent and Jiawei forced a smile and Sze hao signalled mi to go out...hmm..i din realised anything wrong until Sze Hao told mi that the customer was inside...oops so i quickly msg Jiawei and say sorry..Jiawei say the customer was not angry ..juz wondering who was tat gal juz now..hee :p anyway Alvin and his fren left after the tour and i went back to my office to clear some reports.. after lunch, an engine came in...finally!! i have been wondering how come there is no engine coming in..not to say the engine is problematic but then at least there should be some faulty ones but juz wondering how come so low in input this month..i have oso got a presentation to do becoz my first 3months is up..yeah 3 more months and my 6 mths probation will be over....i do hope i will be confirmed.....hee.. was busy with my engine input until i realised that i got a missed call...itz from Cedric..so long nv hear from him liaoz...so chatted awhile on the phone to catch up with one another ..say he might mit mi this sunday for dinner or something ...i nv expected him to keep his words anyway..so since he asked then i say ok..let him call mi and see how ba..

After my work, i rushed to Cityhall to mit Ting, Shi Hui and Ruyi..these few gals are my buddies when i was doing computer engineering in my first years...nice gals to hang out with!!! Sze hao drove us to Outram and i carelessly took the train to redhill and suddenly realised that i was on the wrong side...gt some delay and i walked all the way to esplanade mall..told them to go first as i will be late.. itz my first time walking from Cityhall to Esplanade...haha i didnt make an extra or wrong turn lehz...all the way right to my destination...haha esplanade is really a nice place..so we had sushi at Ichiban Boshi..their service is good and the sushi variety is wide..most impt thing, itz very very nice..yummy!!not like Genki...super disappointed with their variety during my last visit..so we ate there...4 person for total bill of $66 plus ...so quite ok for mi i guess...should go there and eat ..highly recommended!! then we went to The Coffee Connoiseur at raffles place...wanted to go there coz itz open air mar...haha so i tricked the gals to go there...they say not really that nice as i described...hahaha so i offered to treat them for the drinks lar...hehe anyway they are my good frens so i dun mind treating oso...once in awhile is okie :p finallt itz time to go home and Ting's parents sent mi home ...really paiseh to bother them but Ting say itz ok..haha she is always a very easy going person..not calculative... Blessed the bf that she has now..=)

24 Sept 2005

Saturday...not a chionging day for mi today actually...coz i am sick ....but then tot i would recover by sat mar so i jio Eric to go Dbl O and he is ok with it..Was going to get my cousin and her bf as well..Maybe getting June and Jay as well but Jay doesnt really like to club so most of the time even if June wans to go then she will nt go becoz Jay doesnt want to....i msg Eric and told him if itz ok to mit arnd 10plus...but he say he cant make it coz he sprained his ankle today during his basketball training in the morning...haiz...so he cant make it oso...since i wasnt feeling well so i not going oso...no clubbing tonite...I tink Alvin a bit too sensitive liaoz...he asked mi if i am going momo today so i say no maybe going Dbl O or Devils...he perhaps tink i am avoiding him which I am NOT....coz i received very bad comments abt Momo so din want to go unless June is confirmed going with mi....if itz really lousy then at least i got a good kaki with mi and i wun get so upset.. then he asked mi if i wan to go watch movie with him since i cancelled all my tuitions..i am having sore throat and bad cough so i din wan to be at the cinema coughing and coughing...my good frens in sch all know how bad i can cough in aircon room...itz as bad as i got TB lar...i can go club even if i cough becoz the music is so loud and nobody will get irritated by the coughing sound coz nobody hears it wat..i noe how irritating coughing sound can be... and mine can go non-stop...so i say another day to him..then he replied back and say got it..thanks for everything and nice knowing you then....Oh My! i wasnt avoiding him or something lor...y he so sensitive???Haiz anyway, toking abt sensitive ..i was too sensitive abt Eric too...i asked him when and where will his Bball match be and i will go support him if i got time..so he say he will let mi noe again...i oso dunno y at that point of reading the sms,i find him saying that in a very mian qiang tone...argh and stupidly i asked him y he sound so mian qiang....guessed anyone would be pissed off by tat coz u sound normal and then this fella comes and say u mian qiang..sorry...i wasnt feeling well tat day lar...everything was so giddy and i am feeling so terrible with tat sore throat..

Today is my grandfather's bdae..it was a buffet dinner at my aunt's hse in bedok..Casuarina Condo i tink...the place is really nice..my sister ,Ah Xi and i hope that in 4 years time, we would earn enough to move our family to stay in a condo with swimming pool and everything...hahaha so itz juz a family gathering...somehow, i nv felt close to the relatives on my father's side...dunno y...maybe becoz since young, my mum has been telling us hw bad they used to treat my mummy...esp when she has given birth to all females...excuse mi...for all those ignorant pple out there, the gender of a baby is determined by the father not the mother. if the father has low Y chromosomes, then how will the baby be a boy who needs the XY chromosomes?? Ask the doctor if u dun believe..and i dun tink females should be of lower status than the males lor...in fact, i see most of the females are more filial than the males..there shld be equality in view of the two genders...anyway there are too much arguments abt this issue so i better stop it here :p i get super defensive if anybody criticizes my mum..so i dun really like to attend their gatherings..itz only to make my dad happy then i go...

then after that, i went to East Coast Park alone...Erm...got to say this here..i am perfectly alright..juz tat i like moments of being alone...sometimes i dun feel like toking pple...juz prefer to sit by the sea side..listen to music or sea waves ..look at the beautiful lights from the ships afar and look at the planes when they fly past the sea...itz a soothing feeling and i always go to the beach at least once a week alone...i enjoy doing that...sometimes u juz dun feel like toking to anybody for it spoils the silence and the peace of the nite...dunno y when i tell pple i go the beach alone, then they tink i am going to commit suicide..to mi, nobody is worth mi committing suicide for...nv tot of committing suicide when i am out of love..itz plain dumb to do tat in my opinion...i wun commit suicide until maybe i am 40 years old...depends on how i look then...haha if old and not pretty liaoz, then i go die..haha hard to say abt this kind of thing..but seriously i am afraid of ageing...can anybody invent something so that humans wun haf to age?????

2005-09-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

Mary, Mi and June at Double O!!! After a nite of dancing, we are all tired but tat feels great!!!

An Eventful Saturday!

2005-09-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

Looking at my schedule today ..i tink i am going to be a superwoman..haha..This might be the longest post i ever put in my blogs! haha

Today got to go back to office for stock take....not related to my job scope but it is still quite fun..haha got up at 745 and took a cab down to work..then saw Tze Kang and Justin..my new colleagues at work and they are the commercial engine engineers...STA Engines is horrible now coz we got so many newbies at one shot...dunno will affect the bonus or not..i hope it doesnt!! hehe ...so luckily my stock take is at an air con room so it is not tat warm...stock taking can be fun for a day but it will bore and tire mi out if itz my daily work...too many part numbers and quantity! I kenna a part number with QTY 80!!! got to open the box and count them one by one but luckily got somebody to help mi ..hehe..so job was done by 930 and i went for breakfast with Tze Kang and Justin...Tze kang is actually Ah boon's good fren and Wilman noes Ah Boon too!! Singapore is freakingly small!! haha luckily got Tze Kang fetch mi to my tuition..if not, i dunno how to get out of Paya Lebar Air base on a Sat morning!

Started with my tuitions at 930...kind of tired today coz yesterday nite went to Dbl O with Alvin..we only hang out there for a while...reached at 11plus and went home at 130...coz i told him tat i got to wake up early tmr..he was understanding but i was scared tat i might spoil his mood...haha...anyway fri nite not as good as the Sat nite....haha completed 3 tuitions..tatz abt 8 hrs of work inclusive of my travelling time...end my work at 630pm..Called Ting ting to ask her if itz convenient for her to come fetch mi..anyway Yingfei, her bf is driving so she din mind dropping by lar...haha yeah!! Ting ting so nice...

Y she come fetch mi leh??Becoz we are attending my computer engineering fac fren, Chengli's wedding...hehe ok i used to be streamed into computer engineering but i din like programming...i see stars each time i look at them...eventually i cant take it anymore and changed to Mech Engrg in my Yr 2...which i really enjoyed studying Fluid Mechanics and Aerodynamics...i am so sad tat i nv get to specialise becoz of a stupid reason...now itz over and i am still glad that i end up with a job which i have always wanted to do!! hehe ...God is nice to mi sometimes....ok so we went there and kind of felt weird coz all the seats were taken...i saw some of my frens like Jiawei and Alfred..they were Chengli's fren since Sec sch...then i saw some of my computer engrg frens..like Wilson ( SIA cadet pilot now!) , Zhi rong and Kai Kok...the rest dun quite remember coz too long nv tok to them liaoz...then we decide to leave lor coz got nothing to do and we juz kind of find it awkward to stand there...i dunno go find who to tok oso...so left with Ting..They were supposed to go to Changi Airport and have dinner with Ting's family but it was late and Ting offered to send mi to East Coast Park,the hawker centre there coz i got another event there...hahaha wat to do?? i am too popular...dun understand how come everybody likes the date today! ok we were hungry and so I joined them for dinner...Oops...tink i always be lightbulb lehz....arghz...but i really bo bianz..dunno who to call out last min...We had oyster egg, vegetables, bbq chicken wings and stingray...hehe soooo nice..had a coconut to go with my food....soooo FULL!! cant walk properly after tat lor...haha haiz...had a good chat with both of them and Ting is really nice to fetch to my destinations...thanks gal! So they went home and I went to East coast park and look for my frens...

Ok my next event was Mooncake Festival Celebration!!! haha ermm should be Mid-Autumn lar...sounds more romantic..hahaha...it was organized by my NTU buddies...So i saw Kailing!!! muz hug her when i saw her..i miss her so much!!!!!! so long nv see her liaoz leh....tat gal oso dunno how to call mi loh...haha so glad to see her...then i oso saw Huiling, Minghua, uncle Ken , Gim Yong and Pei Pei of coz! tis time Micket din turn up...so sad coz he is always so funny!! Anyway, they really got the mood and time to go buy sparkles, lanterns, mooncakes...hahaha itz really nice...cooling along the beach..nice way to chill out...was waiting for my fren to be done with her bf so that we can go club at Dbl O!! haha yes...another event!! Chat with Kailing and huiling...then we oso created alot of jokes lar like burning lanterns and eat mooncakes...haha they organising an outing to one of the Kelongs...so most prob will join them...and going HK with my auntie in October end...hahaha i am looking forward to it!! cant spend all my weekends giving tuitions...i am young once and i muz make full use of my time!!

My best fren called mi and I was still at East Coast park lar...haha Oops...then i quickly took a cab down to Mohd Sultan Rd...After i saw my fren, then someone poked mi..and it was Alvin...so surprised to see him there..coz i jio him but he say he cant make it..then it was still a pleasant surprise...so we three went in...I ended up paying $60 over for all the drinks...cover charge and stuff...arghz so ex..but it was so FUN!!!! i thoroughly enjoyed myself tat nite...drank Midori 7-up,Baileys on the rocks, Lychee Martini which was compliments from Dbl O bartender! haha ...so nice...it was terrible coz alot of guys come and get my fren's number..she always get guys noticing her becoz of the way she dance...haha good dancer yeah! tat nite was unusually alot!!! we even lost count of it...haha she got kind of fed up with them and i told her to get Alvin to pose as her bf first and ward off those irritating flies..haha..We danced until Dbl O closed....so FUN!! my fav club now...next week gonna try Club Momo...hee..

Yeah...that the end of my saturday..reached home at 530...haha y so late this time?? coz i got one tuition cancelled tmr morning!! Finally there is a day when i can sleep later than 11am!!!!!

Not again..

2005-09-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

I tink there is seriously something very wrong with the way i approach the guys i like..maybe i hang arnd too much with guys and i tink i get too aggressive over the guy i like..it kinds of scare myself...not to say how much i could traumatize the guy i like...help!!

i like this guy now....Call him 'E' then...E has a gf and he was honest abt it..he told mi abt it..intially when we were frens, i tot we could juz be good frens..he is nice and well mannered..good tempered and all requirements i am looking for in a 'perfect' bf for mi..except he is not a pilot lar..haha..anyway, we started going out like normal frens..and i guess i fell in love with him unknowingly and realise it only yesterday...pple say u fall in love easily, u fall out of love easily...i beg to differ..i like a person easily i admit...unless the guy treats mi ver badly or betrays my trust..i would stay long with this person i like...no matter how serious i am or how much effort i put in, my feelings was nv reciprocated..it happen many times...until to the extent that i am afraid of knowing new guys and the whole exact sequence of going out with them, falling in love, become pushy when i ask them questions and eventually fall out...not even frens in the end...it happen many times..tell myself tat i cant be so unreasonable but i juz cant control myself ..i wan definite answer about how the person feel abt mi...but i nv nv nv hear a 100% I love u from any of the guys i like...itz kind of sad...usually itz becoz they treat mi badly and i got to get over them somehow..once i get over it, i nv look back..

Was at one of my fav spots for chill out with E and 2 of my other frens, June and her bf...so E gf called him and he walked off to ans the call...when he was back, June'bf kip asking who call...usu he wun say but tat day, he address her as his 'wife' ..oh tat hurts...but tat wasnt the main part...June started asking him qns like how many gf he has before..he say serious or not serious..not serious got a few and serious only got one...obviously tatz his gf..this one not big prob..then they started toking abt colleagues and E wan to intro mi some of his guy frens...i dun nid tat...i was completely turned off...didnt tok much tat nite and i snapped at whoever spoke to mi...unfair to take it out on others but i am juz like tat...straightforward and dun botherto hide..this is bad coz pple can manipulate u easily..i am trying hard not to show my emotions tat easily..i am kiping alot of details here..juz for mi to noe..i was unreasonable and i noe..i tot i shouldnt be so fed up over the whole incident...

i ask him a question if he likes mi...he say he cant like mi even if he is/want coz he has a gf...
someone analyse this statement for mi pls..hard to analyse oso coz i kept alot of details...

my own interpretation is the same as June...we believed that he is saying tat to hint mi that we are impossible and eventually he still likes his gf ...but another part of mi ask him tat question that liking someone and having a gf is two different thing...u can haf a gf and like another person at the same time..alot of pple do tat, be it guys or gals and i feel tat nobody is satisfied with juz one...humans are greedy and selfish..i am not trying to break up them...but when i dun get a definite ans...i juz get very fed up..itz juz yes i like u..no i dun...i hate ambiguous answer like tat..maybe itz not ambiguous..perhaps i dun get the hidden meaning..anyway...we are ok now..but i guess he is scared of mi liaoz...probably traumatized...the next stage to this which i am expecting is no more frens...perhaps he wun do tat to mi like my previous bfs...coz he is very sociable and always try to make things end in a nice way...

Dunno lar..i hate this..can i juz mit the right one soon and end all these rubbish???i juz wan to be with the guy i like and stay with him always...y is it so hard to find a person to like mi sincerely and with all his heart!!!!! This is getting tiring..

2005-09-12T21:10:00.000+08:00

Mi and Xiu wei..Always gif tat silly look when he take pictures with mi!!

This guy beside mi is Mr Francis, JT8D Engineer..Quite a funny chap but he definitely knows his stuff!

Master Bryan Siow, Wilman and Mi..

This is Sze Hao..I always mention him in my blogs..he is really a nice big brother to mi!! I would be so bored without him in the office!!

Mak Jia Wei!! My uni classmate and now my colleague J85 Engineer

Now take a look at our pretty ladies in the office..Carine on the right 2nd and Mavis on my left..

This guy is red polo is my boss, TB Lim..he very fatherly so i always call him my 'lao ba'..Under his coaching, i really learned a lot of things.. a very experienced Engineer..Turboshaft EBU rulez!

This is me..my colleague Stan took this picture for mi...nice??

Mi in the black and white tone..look nice oso rite! hahaha :p

2005-09-12T20:58:00.000+08:00

Wilman,Tham, Mi and Sze Hao!!!

My first DND in ST Aerospace!!

2005-09-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

Today is the first DND i attended since i finished school and started working..Itz with my company STA Engines..This DND is to celebrate the 30th Anniversary of STA...I arranged for two tuitions today so that i wun miss any class with my graduating batch of gals..So after tuitions, i went to buy a black bag for my outfit for the nite..anyway, i dun haf a black bag so itz time to buy one..i went home, bathed and dressed..wore a black tube with another sleeveless top over it and a pair of black pants with my high heels..hehe so itz all black in and out...Itz the colour code for STA Engines...so we tot muz be good and obey the instructions from HR.. Took a cab down to Suntec City..itz at the Suntec Ballroom...the taxi driver was very nice as i told him that there may be a jam at Suntec becoz of the NATAS fair..so he called a colleague to find out the road conditions for mi..so nice of him..as a customer, i felt that i am well taken care of and his attitude was really commendable..how many taxi drivers would do that for u?? they wouldnt be bothered if the place jams as long as the meter jumps!! so i gave him extra when i reached suntec city...after i reached, i realized i forgot to bring my invitation card....arghz..stupid mi! but nvm, itz ok coz i dun mind not joining the lucky draw..nv lucky with this kind of things anyway..haha so tatz y i dun play 4D or toto...wun win one..haha

I quickly called Sze hao and while waiting for him, I saw my colleagues Kang and Eng Seng...Wilman appeared later..and he got dua by Jia Wei and Sze Hao coz they told him that everybody will be wearing a polo T and Wilman really wore that lor..haha but nvm..there are some people who really dressed up for the occasion and some casually attired...i was so sad when i saw so many girls wearing dress...Haiz...i wanted to wear dress loh...but they say no nid to wear until so formal...tatz y i wore pants instead..not too formal and casual...haiz..anyway..while at the cocktail reception, got this guy who came up to tok to Sze hao...haha and i tot he looks cute lor...then jokingly told Sze hao that he quite shuai and during the dinner, he really sms him and ask him if i mind knowing him..oh my god, i was juz joking...completely stunned when he came over to our table and Sze hao introduced him in front of all my male colleagues....so paiseh...wa liaoz...but anyway, we exchanged numbers...his name is Alvin..Engineer from EDC base in changi...the dinner was ok but the MC was really good coz he can really host ..make the whole place very lively and funny...our table also quite happening...once again, i am the only gal at the table ..haha not becoz i enjoy the attention but becoz i wan to sit with Xiu Wei, Sze Hao and Jia wei...Military Engineers Rulez!! haha...i enjoyed myself tat nite with those guys..others at the table include Eng Seng, Francis, Wilman,Gabriel and Allen...I left early with Sze Hao, Jia Wei and Wilman..supposed to be until 2 but then we ciaoz early...so Alvin and I met up after Sze hao they all go off..didnt want to drink anymore coz stil got tuition tmr morning and he drank alot too coz he was supposed to be on stage and sing with the EDC dept a hokkien song...haha and he felt thoroughly embarrassed by that...so he drank alot to make himself feel less embarrassed...we walked to Fullerton where the Esplanade and the Merlion was...chatting along the way as we walked....quite a funny and easy to get along person i tink...but a bit weird coz itz the first time we met each other...Eric called half way the stroll...poor thing, coz he got no voice liaoz...as he tried talking , his voice sounded so funny...haven seen him for two weeks liaoz...promised to mit mi once he cleared his work but then itz sunday and i nv see him..haiz..but he is sick lar..so cant blame him..

Anyway, then Alvin and I found a place to sit and drink something...chatted mostly abt our work and company...quite nice to tok to pple who knows abt ur work...but then itz after office hours lehz...i dun tink i wanna find a bf who works in the same line as mi..then everyday, every hour and min will be mainly on work..but i dun mind a pilot...haha if he is a Super P pilot, even better coz i will be maintaining his engines..hahaha...anyway, a pilot bf is juz a dream too far away from mi..but dreams make the humans noble...doesnt it??hehe

Then Alvin send mi home by cab..very gentleman of him coz he stay quite far from mi but he insisted on doing so..i appreciated tat..so got home and bathed...my ankles full of cuts coz of the long distance walking and kenna all the blisters..ouchz..i enjoyed the DND ...hee..quite fun and I will make it a point to attend it again and make sure i put on a dress this timE!!!

Sat Nite @ Double O!!

2005-09-04T15:42:00.000+08:00

Was supposed to go Balaclava with Eric, but like i say he got something on last min so cant make it ..Anyway, i decided to go Dbl O with June and her frens instead..cant really stand staying at home on a Sat nite..wat a waste! haha..so after having dinner with my family for fish steamboat , then i headed home to prepare to go Dbl O..met June earlier at 10plus to crap a bit...first time to Dbl O coz usu i hang out at Devils or Mdm Wong..but now i tink Dbl o will be next fav hang out place!! It definitely has a better atmosphere than Mdm Wong..not tat sleazy and smoky..the crowd are also younger so nicer place to club i guess...

So i met June at the entrance there and we walked in...then the lady wanna check our IDs...we look too young??? anyway to mi, tatz a compliment..haha i dun look like my age mar and tatz a common comment from many pple arnd mi...so i paid for June and entrance cover charge...ok lar...i owe June a treat for one entrance but she oso didnt offer to pay mi back...not tat i am stingy...most of my frens noe i am very generous...but then, when she doesnt gif a hint to offer to pay...itz like 'duh'...i am not Jay lehz..tatz her new bf now...but nvm lar...didnt really like the place initially ...coz no place to sit..then i ordered a Midori 7-up...haiz stupid rite?? Dbl O got all the cheapest drinks and i got myself those expensive ones...kaoz...was in a mood to drink and chill out rather than dance coz i am quite tired..i cant stand motionlessly for too long...so June and mi stood at the bar and i was quite pissed coz i cant stand in the same position for too long...i wil feel giddy and stuff..but i dun tink June believes it coz i can really dance very long but then standing and dancing is two different things mar...then i got a table and sat down..Mary joined us shortly and she got some guy frens there...they tried to pick mi and June up...there is esp a guy who is SUPER DUPER IRRITATING!!!!! arghz...anyway he was the one who made mi so pissed offf that i became awake throughout the whole nite....tok to mi abt things like ' do u tink guys who pick up gals at clubs are bastards?? then i replied saying 80%..he was quite iritating coz he started preaching and defending for such guys..his saliva was almost all over my face when he was toking lar ....was backing off and he juz came nearer...i got pissed off and wiped my face in front of him...but he was so dense that he dun catch it..i got angry and juz walked off to find June...

The songs and music juz got better and from the bar, i changed to dance at the dance floor with june ...nicer to dance there...I missed the retro mix...used to go Mambo Zouk every wed....I juz lost all my retro stunts...so sad!!! but anyway, they were playing all my fav songs...Yeah....nice place....next week jio my other frens got Dbl O next sat!!!

2005-09-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

Havent been updating my blog for sometime le...better update something now..if not, next time i cant read my own life story...recently a lot of things to do at work..but itz good to be busy!! becoz u feel that u are of some worth...doing things to contribute in watever way u can to the company...i love my job..really love it so much...guess compared to pple who cant find their dream job yet..i am so much better off...hopefully i can master my engine soon so that i can go for cross training...now eagerly waiting for overseas posting...always wanted to work and travel at the same time...i may be able to go to France soon..Tarnos...hahaha not many pple will noe the place...but then the company may not send mi there as my probation is not over and i haven finish my understudying...got alot of things i dunno so i guess maybe they wun send mi there..but hopefully i can go lor....*sighz*

My target for this month is to make sure i can understand the air,oil and fuel system of my engine...as well as the control part...coz i am troubleshooting on this issue...so must work hard...but the manual always make mi sleepy and the office is too conducive to fall asleep :p hahaha..anyway had 3 tuitions today then went to buy a new memory card for my hp...512MB...haha now i can take as many pictures as i can!! by the way, if anybody need reliable hp dealer, i got one near my hse...their service is prompt and good...tatz y i get all my accessories there now... then i brought my family to go out for dinner...hehe my mum likes mi to bring her out to eat..so i was on the bus tinking abt wat she has done for mi all my growing up years...

Thanks mummy =)...thanks for giving birth to mi and i love u alot...u born mi to be pretty like u, healthy, smart and everything i wished to be wat i am now....i love my mummy alot...though i sometimes make her angry,it wasnt meant to hurt..cant bear to hurt her coz she loves mi very much too...i oso love my daddy..though he wasnt rich, but he nv made mi felt poor..he provided mi with everything i need to make mi wat i am today...thanks daddy...hahaha suddenly love my family so much..i hope my family will always be as harmonious as now...muz earn more money to make my mummy fatter!!

Yesterday (2nd Sept 2005) had a meet up with my frenz, namely Sze keat, Phyllis, Chris, Choon kit and of coz my fav Wei Shing...haha so glad to see them!! but Wai kit and Lionel didnt turn up!!angry with them..but they kind of busy oso ...so cant blame them...anyway, we went to Moonfish restuarant at Millenia Walk...my fav dining place! I had my favourite Seafood Paradise..yummy!!Suntec was damn packed...the human traffic jam started all the way from citylink mall escalator all the way to suntec city!!cant believe it...so packed...cant move an inch!! all becoz of the Comex...i shld read more papers...kaoz...but anyway, everybody could make it so tatz not too bad..yeah so we chatted over dinner..everybody was like super busy with their work, 7 days a week, sleep 4 hours and stuff to bring home to do...i guess i am the luckiest gal!! i got the job i love, work 8 hrs,got time for 7 tuitions, clubs and coffee!! but i dun bring work home coz i am efficient ok!!haha no lar...juz tat my engine input is always lower than the rest so i got more time to learn and catch up with others...haha..so we stayed till ten plus...then Wei Shing send us home...he very nice lehz...send Chris to Whampoa Dr, then Sze Keat and his gf all the way to Yishun and mi all the way to Tampines...so nice of him....i nv regretted making this fren my one of my best buddies!muz get to noe his gf oso...hahaha she muz oso be a nice and friendly gal...a Chem tutor at TJC now..I enjoyed myself alot...updated Wei Shing alot on my daily life...haiz my life seems more exciting than others coz i always myself into alot of stupid troubles....

Anyway,for some reason, i haven been mentioning anything abt my new fren, Eric...haven seen him since our ktv session last thursday ..have been asking him out this weekend..i busy will oso make out some time for him...but he seems unusually busy this week....dunno if i am too sensitive..but juz got a feeling tat he might be avoiding mi..even june says tat she feels it...but i dunno wat he is avoiding about mi....supposed to go balaclava with him and june...but he last min say he got something on and he msg mi at arnd 2plus...i always msg pple at arnd tat time to dua pple one...coz itz not too early or too late..maybe he din do it on purpose or he really got something on but itz juz kind of weird when he agrees and suddenly says he got something on....anyway, a bit pissed off lor..but then wat can i do?? nvm...muz be retribution coz i always dua pple then now i get dua back...*arghz*

Target for this month: Master my engine and pray to go to France!! =)

2005-08-26T10:23:00.000+08:00

Time to update my blogs..now in my office..hehe if my boss comes to noe tat i am doing this...tink he will gif mi more work..not to say i got nothing to do but itz break time!!

24th August 2005,

Today no tuitions..so after work, i went home and work out on my x-elliptical trainer for 45 mins...i muz say June is really a good influence..haha she gives mi the mental booster becoz i wanna be as thin as her..not tat thin but at least thinner than wat i am now..ok so after tat, had a chat with my parents during my dinner and waiting for Eric to come and pick mi..We arranged to go see aeroplanes today at one of the runways..

At arnd 930, he came and picked mi up ..not much planes to see today...Eric not a very lucky boy huh...tat time i went with Ginny and Wei Shing , we could practically see one plane taking off every 10 mins...haha..all SIA planes...but i oso like ANA planes too..nice colour it got...so we stood there toking crap and looking at the planes..they took off in a different direction this time..nonetheless, itz still nice to see it with Eric..haha different kind of mood and atmosphere...

However, there was a police car nearby and stopped in front of the gate..they dun have to drop off and open the gate...all the cars start moving off..so i called June and asked where she and Jay going..They happened to be going to East Coast Mac so we decided to go there join them as well...Haiz..shldnt have gone..i am practically being teased at for as long as we were there...stupid Eric...kip suaning mi but i muz say he is eloquent and good at crapping!! Crappy King..haha..his souring skills damn good...i cant take it liao!! Muz call for help and in the end, my buddy June joined in the fun of teasing mi..Arghz...but nvm, as long as my frens are happy being with mi..dun really mind being the joke..As Xiuwei always say i will provide jokes whether u need them or not! yupz after tat, Eric drove mi home and he headed home too.. Rest for tmr ktv!

25th August 2005

Today miting Eric, June and Jay for ktv...left the company early and so i ended up at Outram very early too..supposed to mit Eric at 730pm but i got there at 615...took a ride from a fren so i was there too early...decided to mit Eric at Clementi Mrt Station instead coz i rather travel or do something then waiting for him alone at Outram...we gonna sing somewhere there too...so i went to Clementi and he was late again...haiz but he was held up by his boss so i got nothing to say..anyway i was reading my manual while waiting so quite ok for mi to wait for him loh...then he came and he looks really cute in the white T shirt and jeans...quite handsome and casual..haha looks good in almost anything he wears...easy to buy shirts for him..i always like buying Man's tops..they look really nice and u feel good if the person carries the design well...so we had chicken rice at clementi and drank starfruit juice..tinks he like starfruit with pinch of salt..then we headed down to Tanjong Pagar..Cha Ren Zi Jia ktv ( Partyworld)..i am a loyalty for party world..good system, good service..prefers somerset one coz itz bigger..bigger tvs, bigger rooms and stuff..

June and Jay reached first and when i called june she din picked up coz she left her bag in Jay's car...then i called Jay and June picked up the phone..By right, they are frens now lar..but dunno lehz..looks more and more like gf liaoz..hahaha june is a tough nut to crack...but once u gain her good impression..it will be smooth sailing and i foresee that Jay has a good chance of winning her hand..Jay is very gentleman...can see how attentive he was towards June..so envious.. :P

for a gal, itz really nice to have a bf who behaves like a gentleman coz u will feel like a queen in his presence..tatz a tip for guys who are single!Be more attentive and caring towards the gal u like..she feels good in ur presence and easier to win her heart!!

Jay's singing ok lar..but he so funny..no wonder Eric says he is 1 kHz..monotonous one..haha Eric sang well but until the chorus part then he wun focus on the song..i tink he has a good voice to sing..esp english songs...chinese songs oso not bad..hehe

Went home at arnd 1am..after Eric sent mi home, i started missing him..in fact the frequency of tinking of him is increasing and i am afraid of it..the first thing i tot of when i wake up is him loh..wondering if he is awake yet and reached office, had his breakfast..guess i tink too much...i dunno wat i wan oso...he is not mine to kip..not single and available..y do i always get into fix like this?? i follow my heart more than my brains and i always get into troubles...tink i shld restrict myself more..but i muz say he is really attractive in his personality...i feel comfortable in his presence and tatz the feeling i am always looking for in guys..